the ENTRANCE exam

dear diary--the entrance exam. --in the month january of the start of the year 1987 I was age 11 years, my ma offered me a "choice" which high school to study at. i was in the seventh grade in that winter in january 1987. starting age 11, i could choose which school to go for eth grade and the following years called high school.
she offered me a list of four schools one was in illinois state. another in maryland state  a third in new york state and a fourth in ohio state.
i knew nothing about each school and askd, "tell me about each school." she said that they are all the same relijis schools so just pick one." not really any real choice.
i had not seen any of them nor met any of the students nor teachers. never seen the place for sleeping called dorm nor classrooms. how would i choose? and losing my fun weekend pleaure meetings with julee or atara described in "joy of bible" meetings seemed stupid.
i asked to visit each sckuul, so i could know which one felt good. ma said "they are all the same, like they study the same jewish books." as if the people teachers were all the same.
so i took the list of four names in alphabetical order and rewrote the list instead of the school name the name of the state: 1i, 2 m, 3 n, 4 o. then i did the famous "eenee meenee" which children do not know has 32 words and is not good for a list of four but i did not know that. we used this method on groups of three kids or two kids.
deciding to use the method eenee is not a smart way to choose any school unseen. and worse that decision gauranteed that i would choose the fourth school so as i counted eeenee meenee i ended on o. ohio.
that week i prepared for a long car trip from new york city to the state ohio for the entrance exam. i also prepared one "section of jewish rabbi arguments" for the exam. this seemd stupid becauese i was going to a SCHOOL that means the place has TEACHERS so the student is expected not to know.
if  knew then bad kuz the teacher would be teaching me stuff i already know. this differs from math when you need to passs exam of add before you can learn multiply which contains adding.
when i returned from skool in seventh grade my parents had already packed the car. the time was around 5:30 pm because my parents chose to BURDEN me with longer hours of study longer than the time they had studied each day in school and longer in seventh grade even than the common high school student grade 11 who leaves skool at 3pm on latest day and before 3 pm  on most days. but i had the burden of long hours and resent the EXTRA burden that my parents caused more time and more work than the common schools.
we drove for many hours from the east coast of the continent. the one with the long amazon river  in the same mass of the land which CONTIN-ues north to a narrower part and then widens to a wide part all one CONTIN-uing contin-ent of land mass.
after around five hours of driving around ten pm we reached a mid point in the state called pensylvania. my pa chose a cheap motel because the feul and motel would be cheaper than 3 plane tickets to fly to ohio. so we shared one motel room. as i lay in the dark room i thout about the two girls not named atara and julee back home.
ever since the JOYOUS meeting on the evening of  the festival "joy of bible" in year 1982 in autumn of 1982 when i had just started age 7 and started third grade skool year, in the diary story,
link but read later. not now please.
https://thinkforyourselfn8.blogspot.com/2019/10/joy-for-bible-day.html
we continue this story now.
i continued to secretly meet the girls on weekends wen four parents napped saturday afternoon.
or sent me to the bad "pirhay" meetings. instead of going with boy brats I went to the teen while her parents napped we had pleasure.
i continued to visit atara for pleasure as the older girl rocked on my male finger same as a rocking chair. we continued meeting from 1982 until 1987 because no risk of pregnany before a boy reaches age 13 so in 1987 i was still too young for that risk of causing teen pregnancy.
i realized that if i would study in that school in ohio i would be very far from the older lovers. i would not have those pleasant sensations.
despite the fact that the entrance exam was the SAME section that i studied in seventh grade school i decided i would  lie "I dont know for each question" causing me to return to my lovers. then peaceful that i would continue my pleasure meetings i dozed into sleep beside the two beds for the adults. however the entrance exam turned out even more exciting.
the following winter morning we ate the motel breakfast i ate a fried egg with hot toast and they ate... i did not look so dont know. we drove many more hours across pns. state and into ohio state until arriving at the school.
the rabbi was available when we arrived so i entered the dark classroom. the pale winter light of cloudy january slightly lit the dim room. so the rabbi did not switch on the electric light. the room was not cold as a heater machine worked blowing warm air beside the window.
the rabbi asked the first question "which section did you prepare" for the entrance exam. as my mouth shaped the words i had already prepared "i dont know" i realized, that those words, did not answer his question so i could not do my plan. so instead I said, when the time came for me to answer, "i prepared a section BUT..." so before telling him that it was the section in the rabbi book about finding an object such as a common simple gold ring when i know the owner is not yet aware that they lost it, i attacked the word prepare.
i replied "i prepared a section BUT if you know i prepared it, then what exactly are you testing?"
the rabbi ignored my question and repeated "which section did you prepare".
when it was my turn to talk and answer, i argued "the school will TEACH me any new rabbinic words, so what are you testing in this exam?" the rabbi responded "i am the one asking the questions in this entrance exam so tell me which section."
i altered my plan to fail the interview by saying "i dont know" and instead argued with the rabbi. i saw that he was bankrupt and  did not know himself the purpose of the exam.
he could not say that "you must know add  before learning multiply because contains add" because other subjects such jew religion differ from math so TEACHERS must teach stuff that the students don't know.
in several different arguments i complained that this was a school so I can only be accepted if i don't know hence needing a teacher kuz if I already know then I should get a diploma.
each question he asked, when it was my turn to speak, i repeated that idea because the scool will teach. he refused to answer my question so i repeated it each time it was my turn to speak. like"what is the point of this exam for a school that must TEACH students."
finaly the patient rabbi said "you are wasting my time" he left the room.
he coulda said that the exam was to see "if i could independently understand correctly the rabb book without a teacher" because the teacher would "add the commentaries" that we had not studied yet,  not teach the text itself. but he did not say that he was testing that ability.
not until the following year entrance exam. if woulda said that then then I woulda returned to my "I don't know plan" to stay near my lover but arguing was more exciting.
so i returned in 1987 to the building where my parents waited and they were very angry.
"we drove all this way and you failed your exam" they woulda hit me but police had already arrested them in the past for hitting me.
 we drove home in stony silence for the fruitless journey of many hours with no success at the entrance exam.
ONLY fruitless for them. i knew that i would continue one more year with my lover on the weekends. that is the real secret reason that i argued with the rabbi for the "8 eth grade entrance exam." delaying one more year until the following years entrance exam that I passed.
we met until the following year when she feared i was old enuf to cause pregnancy but honestly I was not physicly mature yet even entering ninth grade but at that time i answered the rabbis questions with relavant answers. then i said "you see i know the prepared section so what skill are you testing for?"
the rabbi said "i am testing for your ability to indepepndently understand the rabbi book" i replied if so, that cannot be tested on a section that somebody taught me.
the rabbi lafd nervously and said "open five pages ahead and start reading."
i started reading the section, beyond the section i had prepared. i translated the words to english and said the idea. the rabbi announced "I see that you can correctly understand" the rabbi book and that you are ready for our teachers to add different commentaries.
***this is very significant because of the rabbi deception.
so i was accepted into school and from then on whenever the rabbis would LIE that "my conclusion which challenged  the bad jew relijin was wrong" was because "you dont understand" i knew they were lying becuse the entrance exam is for that purpose.
the rabbi specified that the entrance exam tested to see that I did have the skill to correctly comprehend the ideas in rabbi books.
any student accepted must know that the rabbi  deception to "attack" the student with failure to understand,  instead of informing the "data ignorant" is lying. they were only accepted because they were ABLE to correctly understand the book and instead of talking about the evidence in the text they try to attack the student. which is bad because the rabbi ignore the evidence. and also mean bad insult.
knowing this, i ask: such deception does not deserve the death penalty and yet how can such people be stopped without a death penalty?"
the tragedy of the Nazi differs from the mass murder of jews. instead "not enough bad jews were stopped by death." the end.