the summer-sacrilige story

the summer-sacrilige story
the story is not in time order the earlier events are at the end in an endnote.
the story is about summer vacation like now.
at the camp, between my first and second grade during summer vacation in july like now, the head rabbi announced "in this camp rabbis are punished if they hit you or touch in the forbidden place so if this happens TELL me and dont worry about the sin called "lashon hara" this is a situation to WARN ergo correct to report and say bad about people."
kids told me that last year they caught rabbi after rabbi hitting kids or touching the forbidden place and the staff had changed almost every day as those who wanted to work with kids... were discovered and fired and replaced... [later i would learn that many interviewed and those rejected were replacemets for the "good" rabbi who were good enuf to get the job but  got caught]. then we went to a pool in new york that the camp rented for use for one hour so we could swim... meaning only boy campers.
some brats splashed water in my face and they thought it was funny until i splashed back at them and then they complained and the lifegard criticized me "no splashing". i argued "they did it" then the lifegard said "now you are worse for tattling." i explained "i mean i thout allowed due to them doing it." but only i was bad for doing the same action that other kids did.
if they splash me tmoro what should i do? "dont be a tattale tale" i argued if that is bad they were tattle tales. the lifegard ignred me only i was bad not the brats who splashed me and who told on me... in his eyes judgement. if i was bigger i woulda pushed that lifegard in the pool... and then jumped on him.
at the ed of swim time i dont recall how i passed the time... we left the pool to get dressed.
the old men preparing before swim walked around naked and i learned what adult private parts look like. so believe me it is "neither pretty nor se xy."
we kids all brought "bath robes" and changed bathing shorts while covered by long loose robes.
one guy walked around dressed supervising us kids i wonder what he was looking for?
our bus drove us back to the empty school that the day-care was using and we ate lunch except myself i was not hungry but did want to ask the guy why he walked around the dressing rom.
i wandered around the dining room tables and did not find him so i left and searched the empty classs rooms. finally i found him in one class room eating a samwij sitting alone.
i asked him why he was looking at us dress and he said "my job included garding that no men touch your forbidden place." we talked about his many jobs he was around twenty years old not named nathan and he was hired to teach swimming to some kids.
i suspected that nathan was a "gay homo" who slept with men and that was the real reason he walked around the dressing room hoping to "enjoy the view" of some kids forbidden place. well he would not see kuz we kids all wore long robes when we switched clothing.
still i wanted to test my theory and thought of a test.
so i  did something very naughty.... and sacrilige.
after he ate his samwij i told nathan that i want him to sit by the window so i could tell him a story and look out the window.
i was the filthy brat who who told him a story about the pilots who flew the war planes and shot the bad guys... a long adventure.
as i told the story i gripped nathans KNEE holding the muscular bone in my little hands and pressed MY pants against his knee. i had to manouver for my test. soon i was pressing my forbidden place on the bone of his knee and the pressure caused my male finger tube to inflate and get long. i continued pressing while i said the story and watched his pants and as i expected a new bump apeared in his pants. i had proven he was gay homo.
i asked "is my story about a lady" he answered no. "do you see any lady in this room--nope. i annnced my conclusion "then you must be gay you wanna sleep with me now when you KNOW no lady is here.
he denied that and claimed "i dont wanna sleep with you. i promise". but his body announced that he was ready for the action married people do and not due to any lady he was ready to do it with me... a boy... unless... so i asked if he thought i was a girl. "no. i can FEEL you are a boy" i understood that his knee bone could feel my male part. "well that proves it! you know i am a boy an your body is ready for s eks with a boy". he tried to explain "no. that is not why. when i felt your thing get hard mine also got hard." i argued that is exactly gay men. he argued no it was mimiccing copying.
i was not convinced but i did something even naughtier...
i grabd my victim, while i was a minor age five, almost six, grabd his bump, the fabric of pants at the new bump, at his forbidden place and pressd it. "you like that kuz you are gay" i said. "that feels pleasant" he whispered. i knew what to do and said "you push INTO my hole" and i slid my hands down his pole as if he was moving upwards... he gasped "my wife's" to correct my error. then i continued my sacrilige, rubbing up and down until he got soft.
i even felt an additional "pulse" before he got soft but did not know what it was. like when you measure your heart beat and feel repeating pulses.
i asked if he had a girl friend and he said he was not allowed to see girls. then i left the room and went to the next activity which was some game with a ball.
on the bus back to our homes i found my victim and told him he should notice where i live so he should come and meet my parents. he looked scared and said "i did not touch you okay? if you lie that i did i will tell the truth that you tuched me in the forbidden place." i promised i would not tattle tale... as the lifegard said,  and that he should come.
i got off the bus and told my parents i invited a rabbi from the day care to meet them kuz he worked at the day care.
he probably rode the charter bus to his school dorm and studied rabbbi books until 5 pm. then he rode a city bus in new york to my home in the bronx.
he arrived on time at six pm. my parents met him and the adults talked until 630 and then we ate supper. beef burgers with cookd vejtibils. did i write cokd? no.
my parents had heard he lived in the dorm away from family and invited him as i expected and planned to be the gueest for the weekend... and since he was a rabbi he could not ride a bus... which operated on saturday in contrast to israel on saturday so he must return from the day care with me on friday.
my plan was woorkin i just needed some more helpers.
the next day at camp i went to a second grader and told him that i had discovered nathan was gay. he lafd and said "big deal so am i". i hadnot expected that.
his name was not gary gray. i wondered if all kids with g in their name are gay with a g? harry the homo... gay gary or gay greg or gay george but george sounded different like j, jorj.
i argued "i am certain you dont put your man finger inside the toilet hole." gary assured me that he was not "that much gay" just he enjoyed rubbing his own male finger... which surprised me knowing he was too yung to make a baby and i thought rubbing was only a pleasure if it was the age when that would lead to making a baby and gary was only age 7 in second grade.
anyway i needed him for my plan. i told him we were gonna black mail the swimming teacher nathan. we were gonna tell the truth he was gay and scare his students that n wanted to poke them in their toilet holes and that would scare the students away then we could convince him to let us milk him... if he wanted money as a teacher.
the next day gary and i swam around the pool searching for the kids who studied swimming. they were gripping the edge of the pool [see the word edge the letter e at the end changes the sound of g from g like get to the sound j like edj.] and kicking their legs. we naughty brats whispeered as a pair like two witnesses. i said "i know n is gay he wants to poke you in your back hole. the terrified student stared at me iin disbelief and when gary nodded... he believed the two witnesses and fled.
we repeated to each kid until all the students left. 
then i did something very evil! i said to the teacher "you probly thout i cant control your money but i just did. i will only let you maake money and get your students back if you let me milk you like a cow." gary added "and i get MY turn once a week too."
i wondered why gary said once a week i thout we neeed to be like cows and milk cows every morning like the baby cow drinks every morning?
the rabbi said "twice a week serves his purpose and that he is grateful that i used a threat."
whatever. i explained my turn was on the weekend and gary would get a turn next week and then my turn on the weekend again" i said that based on the rabbis words twice a week serves his purpose whatever that meant.
thursday came and went and n had no students. friday also no students they were scared maybe they did not BELIEVE s despite two witnesses but f  two came together to warn the then the DOUBT was enuf.
after day care on friday, our victim rabbi nathan rode the bus to my home as my parents invited. i imagined he was angry that i controlled his money but he seemed happy that i "served his purpose." i assure him that i will not tattle on him, nor reveal his real name... after all he under my blackmail.
friday afternnon we reached my home. he left the bus with me and we entered the home. 
the holy rabbi offered: "you want now or later?"... keeping his commitment.
i had doubt "i dunno we could now but better when my parents nap tmoro."
the rabbi explained that sometimes he awakes wet in the morning so i might miss my chance.
i formulated a deceptive plan and we negotiated what he expected. he wanted like the first time from outside clothing while dressed. and... seeing the gross naked men i thout i should agree but.... maybe at his age twenty he looked different and i wanted to see so i said "no. if you wwant to earn money and get your students back then at least once i need to SEE EVERYTHING the forbidden part and the milk and i am gonna catch some and taste it.
GROSS he whispered urgently!  so i asked "did you taste it ever?"  he looked horror "of course not it is not milk!"-- i was stubborn and insisted "well i wanna learn and this is the best way." he was blackmailed and agreed to my extreme demands. he revealed that he was relieved that i did not demand to insert my lil male finger in his back hole. now it was my turn to say "GROSS people can only clean OUTSIDE around the hole. nobody can clean the inside!" i considered gay people enjoy getting there part filthy with waste whose smell is naturally repulsive so we dont eat our own waste. i woulda said gay men in a pair are worse than perverts but we are not allowed to say that whether it is true or not.
he replied that he had not thought about that. he only thought that such an action probably hurts the first time since the body is in the habit of pushing waste out.
i explained my plan that i would lie that i ended my shower... yes i showered at age 5 standing not like some kids who sit in the bath until they are twelve or 13. then he would enter undress and  could see everything then i would milk him so the milk would drip on my hand...
the rabbi interrupted "not drip its gonna jump out so you should stand behind me so you dont get wet." i adjusted my plan to stand facng his so some woud jump on my chest and i could taste sime before showering the rest off. if my parents would know they would beat both of uss with basebabll bats and send my teacher to prison but it was the only way for me to learn the data that i wanted to learn.
sometimes scientists must make "big sacrifices" for new data... isnt that right??
so i entered the shower room whering my swim shorts... colored dark blue. as soon as i entered i screamed my lie so my parents woud hear "i am done showering who is next?"
since i knew my parents used the shower adjacent to their room no problems.
the rabbi obeyed the commitment and enterd the shower room he undressed and i gotta admit twenty year old men are s- ek- sy wow! that looked nice! maybe i was gay??
the hair which indicates maturity was tangled and distracted from the smooth pale skin that made my heart beat faster like a racing car.
but the hair was needed for evolution. we neeed to know when a wife or husband is ripe or else we will waste our time trying to make a child with a spouse who is not ripe for child. a lady can be noticed by her shirt bumps but men... the only way to know if he is ripe is if hair grows.
but if the hair grows... and i find the grows is gross for me then maybe i am not gay??
the instant his body was revealed his male finger inflated even before i could touch it.
i stood in the shower in my bathing shorts my back toward the metal pipes of the shower and he stood facing me and said "i grant permission if you really want but jeez why would you want??' it sounded like he was giving me a chance to retract since he had kept his sde of the commitment. but i needed to know. for science.
then i milked his forbidden place and within a very short time... less rubs than the day at day-care, milk pumped out from his stiff tube and splattered on my chest i continued rubbing until he changed to soft. "wow that was pleasant i wish i could ask you to do that in a few more days but i would get in trouble so no offers." i reminded him in a few days gary had a turn.
i tasted the milk and it was bitter. now i knew. then i showered off his milk from my chest that stuck like fruit jelly only not red jelly, whitish clear opaque and as butters said about many things including male milk "its all gooey". then i granted him privacy to clean himself.
i dressed and kept our secret. we did all the common stuff of religious jews on saturday mostly boring. 
the next day at camp i told all his students that we found out we were wrong and the rabbi was a "safe one" so they returned to study swimming and the rabbi earned his money. on wensday i reminded gary that his turn was today but he said "i already had my turn and it was not what i expected i am not as gay as i thout i only like touching myself not others." well i did enjoy both the abraham club and i did feel exciting milking this rabbi so we repeated all summer for a few more weeks and on tuesdy i took gary's turn only the second and later times the rabbi was dressed and the rubbing took longer time. and if i enjoyed then that made me a pervert.... unless contact on "pleasure nerve cells" are natural and appropriate in whcih case i my evil sacrilige was not perverted. when i turned 16 i learned what "serves his purpose meant" and i wished i had a milker the way i had milked him kuz i believed that i was not allowed to squeeze myself... but luckily my struggle not to squeeze myself directly led me to meet a lady and we satisfied each other for several years until she started college. now that was considered a sin for religion but i considered my lady frend activity natural age appropriate activity. no regrets.
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endnote appendix: when i lived in new york city i was a naughty boy. my name is not  toby. when i was 4 years old i started preschool-5. we sat at desks like first graders. the desks were in rows. i argued with the rabbi about two religious issues as i wrote in other blogs and the year passed boring.
in summer vacation i was still 4 so i was too young for summer camps... so my stingy parents told me. but in first grade the rabbi told us the story of abraham sending his servant to find a wife for his son iss-ac. the rabbi explained that the servant said an oath while holding abrahams "holy part" of circumcision. this idea taught me that the holy commandment is not only godly at the time of the ceremony but holy as a place for an oath even after the religious ceremony. at that age i was too young to think about ethics and pain and morality and...
consent of the victim.... lacking.
i had a feeling that the biblical idea was wrong and sacrilige... but i failed to formulate words for the problem... like i knew we cant touch other peoples forbidden intimate place. and that if an old tickled us there, he was bad and deserved punishment but lacked the words... so i did an expirement. i went to an older kid in fifth grade and said the hebrew phrase that "holy" abraham said "put your hand under my leg". the older boy knew the hebrew phraase and shouted "get away you pervert i dont wanna get in trouble." i argued that abraham was HOLY and he could say it. the kid fled.
all the schol buzzed about this argument. kids yelled "pervert" at me and now i had the word i needed i had harvested the information that abraham=bad sex-pervert. and the book genesis that "justifies" this bad sacrilige as an oath is a bad book filthy.
so i did not mind the shouts due to my success in getting the data. i searched for the fifth grader to thank him for the information but the brats in his class said that he switched school to public school and "because of you" they said he hates the bible and jew religion... so they said.
two young four year olds in pre-school-4 came to me and said that aabraham was holy and the word pervert differs it meaans someone with "strange methods of pleasure" but abraham was swearing an oath not pleasure. they wanted to start an abraham club to show that abraham was holy. they knew that adults would call them perverts so they needed a gard to be a watcher. as a child i would have included "a pair of men" in that category but today we can get sued for saying that whether it is true or not.
at recess break between study classes the pair led me to a secret hiding place and i was the gard by the door while they did the abraham ceremony that i did not see but knew was acting the story of the oath. i watched from the door and no adults nor rabbis nor ther students came kuz the brats were all running outside and the teachers were in their break room drinking coffee except the one recess monitor who watched the brats run and "broke up" the fights.
then it was my turn. one kid garded the door and the other told me to open my pants so he could say the oath i would be like abraham.
i was "naughty" and uncovered my forbidden place and he quoted  the hebrew words of the story acting in action the story of abraham. then he garded the doorway and the gard repeated the ceremony. they decided that i would always be abraham and that we would meet each month for the abraham club. it only lasted a few months kuz once we proved the point we stopped meeting.

jewish zionism in the early 1900s

 jewish migration around year 1900
after a  wave of jew came to the "ancient land israel" in 1880's the jews debated different angles of jewish homeland.
was the solution to change the situation "in russia"? or  to find a new land in east africa? or to generate a new system of marxism in the ancient israel?
in year 1903, herzl "secured the british offer for territory in est africa." page 64. herzl met with prime ministers. land in east africa would be arranged for a jew regime there like a colony. however, these efforts were fruitless because after herzl died the zionist congress insisted on the ancient home. in 1905 decided settle there. zionists were active in mzany countrys germany russia briton and eastern european countrys. also in 1905pogroms in russia caused jews to flee some to the "holy land".
*** second [kuz first in 1880's]
 the "second" wave of aliya was from 1905 until the war, 30 k jews left europe for the "holy land". most did not stay under turks. 
jewish national fund, was an organization for dnations and "land purchase" under the turkish rule. in 1911 insisted on "extensive land purchasing". then weizman convinced others to use hebrew and zionists emphasized studying hebrew in many countrys. famed scientist einstein joined the german zionists. marxism caused a "rift" jews in the holy and who owned land felt threatend by the marxist arrivals who wanted socialism meaning public ownership. later collectivism showed success but at this time,  around 80% of the aliya enterers did not stay.
one orthodox rabbi joined the zionists: mohilever. he and reines wanted orthodox judaism as the revival of ancient israel.
jews in russia wanted jewish equality "in" russia. this cased conflict with zionists. a marxist system could be generated in the almost empty land by jordan river under turkish rule. this could blend zionism of reviving the ancient land with the popular marxism. jews could work in "all parts" of economy in contrast to the limits in russia in places to live and limited types of jobs.
in these decades over "50 thousand jews" were living in ancient israel the "holy land". rothschild had an organization pica buying land. plan to sell land to arrivals who would work their land. the plan included preparing the future farmers with training. this materialized p. 88 around 1909, as loans were used to buy land and a company sold plots to settlers. [before the plan?? in 1911 on an earlier page!!]
several "collectivist" like public ownership worked together and several such settlements succeeded. plantation settlements grew fruits and sold for profit. perhaps "talk" with prime ministers was only talk but successful settlements attracted government interests. which led to the balfor declaration in 1917 when the brits wanted help fighting ottomans. they made deals with arabs and with jews... replacing the 1903 offer mentioned above.

two holy tales

the twelve holy ravens and the glowing dwarf
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intro: i read two similar tales yet different  by grimm. this pair of tales had a similar idea with one theme a sister saved "her brothers from being birds" by silence for many years.
although this tale is less holy than the tale of the thumb sized giant, and only its core is true, recording a real event that occurred and is not only true but also holy as holy as the holy prophecy in book  jeremia which is a holy book still both have been mixed and the holiness of both jeremia and this tale is impure. therfore less holy than the tale of the thumb sized giant which not only occurred and recorded in the "legend" but is holier than both the holy tale of the "twelve ravens" and the holy prophecy of jeremiah.
in the same way that the "religious people blindly" accept whatever is in the book of genesis simply because it is in the book, which is a wrong attitude for several reasons, most importantly due to the book genesis, in contrast to holy prophecy jeremia as above, but book genesis is not holy but truly separate from god. still similar to the faith, the tale of the thumb sized giant from grimm preserves a tale not only a true amazing event, but a holy story to belive the story occurred. in contrast to genesis which god bothered to inform our generation that book genesis is truly separate from god and not a holy book and even most of its details are known to be false or simply did not happen.
so i begin with summarizing and publishing the holy tale of the thumb giant due to it holier than the bird tale and then the bird tale to obey the message commanded to me yesterday.
the main part is the ending the defeat if the demons which is the cuse of the holiness of the book. the demons were harmful and this chosen child had a purpose in life to be small and weak yet grew to the purpose and defeated the demons. preferably if you have time read "thumbling dwarf thumbling giant" however to save you time i will summarize iy here both to allow recognizing which tale and to save time for whoever reads this story and believes it honors god. but whoever claims the tale never happenes cannot truly know if it occcurred or not and is only rejecting a holy story and so insults god.
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summary of thumbling the dwarf giant
a poor farmer lived a hard life with his wife who yearned for a child. the next part is something we never saw, yet the tale records a true event and is holy. 
yesterday when i read this tale among other grimm tales, God sent me as a messenger to publisg that this tale is one of the tales that are not only true events but is a holy and sent me to publish this message that it is holy and even revealed some of the details to complete the story. so i obey this commandment and publish a summary and announce the story is not only true but also holy and therefore anyone who reads this summary or the original grimm story of the thumb giant, one of the few holy tales preserved among grimm legends, and believes this story, honors god and will be rewarded with pleasure both in life despite its difficulty, so pleasure will be added and after the body dies pleasure will be added... but rejecting it... when you do not know and cannot know if at the time of the story it was false, insults the holy story and insults god and is worthy of pain.
after a hard day of toil in the field the farmer [in contrast to cain who toiled in the field and considered bad, in the wrong book genesis as explained in intro but not now] who was a good farmer with a pure heart returned to his farmhouse to his wife. he knew that working the land is good to produce food [in contrast to cotton or coffee which people produce for money]. he was very so tired from working the earth he barely had strength remaining to eat the supper his wife had prepared. she had cooked some potato with cabbage so the flavor of cabbage granted flavor to the potato. then she had separated and served the potatos, to herself and her husband and they ate together. the cabbage was saved in the pot for breakfast.
they ate silently. the fatigued farmer barely had strength to stay awake that evening as he chewed the soft boiled potatos. the wife moaned that she wished she had a child. the farmer sighed and said that "we tried but god has chosen not to grant us one. perhaps if you beg from god he is only waiting for you to ask with begging."
the woman prayed to god, she believed jesus and god were the same one, and begged "my god, please grant me a son even if he is as tiny as a finger." 
god heard and granted her a small son who had a great destiny both to symbolize other people and to physicly defeat demons.
before she finished her brief prayer of begging, the farmer soon fell asleep at the table and the wife lost her hope in getting a child.
she went to her bed in their room and full of hopeless despair she cried herself to sleep.
the next morning she awoke and heard her husband already awake doing the many chores of the farm which grew animals and sheep and more imporatntly food such as potato and oat and more grains such as barley which is food for man and beast and wheat and more.
the woman had been lying in her bed and stood up. she felt a moving in her stomik. and heard a voice "woman, lay again for a few minutes." the woman did not accept this as real. and went to eat the cabbage for breakfast. as she ate the moist cooked cabbage she felt her stomik again and heard the voice "you are wise not to believe everything you hear however i will tap three times and you will know i am real." then the lady felt three taps in her stomik. she believed and returned to her bed.
she lay on the soft bed and waited a few more minutes to obey the commandment.
the young boy climbed out onto the bed and he was as small as her thumb and explained he had grown in one night therfore he was small and the birth was painless.
she looked at his tiny body and felt a great love for him. he was born covered in a glow like clothing.
she carried her tiny son to the table and gave him some cooked cabbage. he ate a few bites and was filled. she also ate cabbage but less satisfied her today due to the joy of the child.
soon the farmer [named i dont know his name so i invent... no i must keep the story pure so i will breifly write "purity" to shorten "the poor farmer" and faith to shorten "his wife].
purity returned to the farmhouse carrying fresh milk from the cow. he met his tiny son and the three drank the fresh warm milk.
then the son who they named tom thumb told them the future "greedy merchants would come to buy grain and they will ask to buy me." faith interrupted "never! we wanted you and will never sell you away!" purity nodded but tom continued "i can escape and return to you so i command you to agree."
they had faith.
soon the farmer returned to the many chores and his wife did the many chores in the home. tom was inn the pocket of purity shirt.
a very luxuriously decorated car came to the gate of the farm. two black horses with decorations pulled the car. the farmer went to greet the merchants.
the greedy humans [for that is what they were] offered to buy and process his grain for a small price. purity protested that this was only half of the common price for buying grain. the greedy men tried to convince him "we will process it and buy the whole cut straw and we will separate the kernels so we are doing so much work and even paying you for the useless parts so we will pay less." purity explained that the common price was higher for whole stalks for processing and that they can use all the parts some for human food and some for anmal food.
one man said "if you do not agree that is your choice we can buy from other farmers who will sell for our low price. we do not need your grain." as one turned to walk away tom climbed to the top of the pocket and the partner saw the glow and said "if you add that glowing fairy in your pocket then we will pay the common price for your grain and buy all the grain you can cut today before the sun disappears aand pay the common price per weight.
purity felt pain giving his son away and felt the pain that his wife would feel yet he also recalled the prophecy and saw tom was right so he agreed.
the partners immediate ly gave some money and the farmer began cutting as much grain as he could before sundown.
the fancy car left and as the sun reached the edge of the sky the car returned. purity led a horse pulling a wagon that he filled with cut grain that he cut all day. the partner paid the common price for the cut stalks and attached the wagon to their car. tom clibed out f the pocket and purity gave tom to the greedy men.
the horses pulled the car and the wagon away. at the threshing place tom watched them weigh the grain and warned them to weigh accurately so they did, obeying the magical glowing tiny dwarf.
they saw the weight was more than they estimated and decided not to tell the farmer. however tom warned them to be honest so they obeyed the glowing elf. immediately the artners gave the grain to the workers who processed the grain. they drove the car and the wagon back to the farmer that evening and returned the wagon. they also paid the money of the correct weight.
meanwhile tom climbed thru a window and started to return home to his parents.
tom faced some dangers eaten in the stomik of a cow and later in the stomach of a wild animal but finally he returned to his parents. [this is a summary but you can read the detail in the tale by grimm "thumbling dwarf thumbling giant."]  purity thanked tom for participating so the sale was a justly set price.
the day after he returned home, a giant came to the farm. purity felt terror at the huge giant giant... and stood frozen in fear that the giant would accidently step on him or faith or break things on the farm land. tom called to the giant who spread his palm open. tom jumped and flew up onto the palm of the giant. tom told purity that he would return.
the giant carried tom into the vast forest to his home among the trees in the woods.
the giant "ate something" and gave "the same food" to tom. what did they eat? ceratnly a giant would need a huge amount of bread to fill his giant stomik. however the giant had a magic plant  that grew in a simple clay pot. he would pick one blossom from the flower and eat it while letting the other blossoms open into flowers. this magic plant was only one plant yet its flowers were each different colors. swallowing one small blossom of a normal sized flower satisfied the giants hunger and needs. tom also ate a bite from the blossom and it caused him to grow to be a giant that moment. tom the thumbling giant returned to his parents to aid them in the farm work. [this part makes me think of the magic beans but these differed were the size of common flowers but each flower of the same plant was a different vivid and livey color].
when purity saw a giant return he heard tom claim to be his son. purity was scared of the giant and did not accept nor believe that claim. he knew his son was tiny and this giant who was so frightful could not be the same one. giant tom helped plow the field and accomplished the work of two days in a short time.
they offered him food as payment for plowing, which tom ate. tom asked them to bring a thick bar of metal so thick he could not snap it and then he would leave so he would not eat all their food in his giant stomik.
purity went to the black smith who worked with iron and metals who made a very thick metal bar.
tom snapd the bar easily. still he left so he would not burden them for his food. tom went to work for a greedy human [for that is what the employer was: a greedy human].
tom offerd to work for the human in exchange for the "fun" of hitting the boss. the boss was happy he would not need to pay him so he agreed.
tom worked at some job. when the sun reached the edge of the sky in evening the boss paid the workers and the time came to pay tom. now he feared the giant even a small hit from a giant would hurt very much. so he begd the giant to change the deal he would give all his land and property to avoid getting hit by the giant.
tom knew he was only speaking from fear and did not want to lose his property so he insisted "we must obey the original agreement."
boss was terrified and promised "i will obey the deal and you may hit me only give me time to prepare for this hit." tom agreed.
boss ran to his friends to think of ideas how to kill him however they all realized that killing a gian who was so strong and giant would be difficult. after many ideas they decided to send tom on a dangerous mission. [this following part already published by grimm was imitated in star trek discovery first episode].
they sent tom to "clean a well." this well that was dug deep into the ground had stopped providing water. it lacked the common stone wall to prevent people falling in. first the boss instructed tom to break giant boulders from a medium mountain and carry them to the edge of the well. then boss instructed him to widen and deepen the well and clean the bottom so water would gather at the bottom as before.
tom praised him for using his strength to provide water. boss hid his true intentions that he did not care that the well had stopped providing water.
tom dug the well wider and deeper digging the bottom and cleaning the bottom and digging deeper until finally water from underground started to gather in the bottom of the deep well.
now that the well was much deeper boss thought the boulders would fall faster and smash the giant so he could avoid the painful hit. his buddies helped and they all pushed the heavy boulders to save their pal. the boulders toppled down and hit tom but he was not even injured by the huge boulders.
tom jumped and flew up as water flowed from underground into the well. he told them to build a simple stone wall circle around so nobody would fall in. they obeyed because they feared his strength. tom announced "now i have done the job of cleaning the water well now is the time for my fun and i will hit you." boss trembled in fear and said "i will obey our agreement but i must have time to prepare please only one more day." tom graciously granted "two weeks" for that is true.
the pals gathered and thought of another dangerous job. they knew of a grinding mill which had real demons that awoke at night. people who used the mil by day did not know about the demons however some people had stayed after dark to finish their job and never returned. boss immediately that same evening, sent tom to grind wheat into flower. when tom reached the mill a man warned him that he must wait until morning for during the dark time dangerous demons killed any man who was in their home. tom ignored the warning and did his job immediately right away during the night. while he worked turning the stones and grinding the wheat into flour, a demon came and hit tom. his glow sheilded him from the spiritual harm. tom hit back and when he touched the spiritual powerful demon, his glow changed to flesh. the force of the blow of the giant killed the deadly demon who had already killed some workers.
other demons came and tred to hit him for entering their home after they slept during the day and each one who hit him the glow sheilded tom and helped his hit destroy demon after demon until only the last one was alive. the last one warned him "you have killed all of our group but you are in our home and you must leave or else i will hit you." tom rebuked him "i am no harm to you i am only using the mill stones so you must not hit me with violence". the demon like most demons are evil and hit tom. again the glow sheileded him from the demon and he hit the demon back and changed him to flesh. the hit killed the deadly demon. 
NOW that his purpose was accomplished his glow brightened like a silvery glow of a star and the corpses of the demons changed to flesh crumbled to piles of dust. then the glow resumed as the usual golden glow.
a voice came from heaven and said "you have done your purpose and correctly killed the evil deadly demons and even warned them but they were evil now you can return home to your parents and you can eat the same blossom as the giant."
tom saw time remained before dawn so he searched in the woods for the giant who had fed him. he came o the place of the home ut it was not there. however in that place he saw the plant growing in the ground so he scooped it up from the forest floor and carried it to purity farm where he put it in a clay pot same as he saw the giant do. now purity and faith would not use up the food on his giant stomik. 
as the sun appeared at the edge of the sky after dawn, tom came to his boss and said that it is time for my fun. he gave the flour which he had grinded and swung his giant hand at the boss who had been greedy and hired him without pay as tom had offered. the swat caused boss to fly up into the air and soar far... and "if boss has not died from old age, then he is even now soaring and flying through the air."
note: although tom dug the well, to provide water from underground by digging deeper he did no build the wall, but instructed the pals to build a circular wall so people wud not fall down the well and they obeyed.
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part two
the twelve ravens.
מבין הסיפורים הרבים של גרים, שהם מעניינים אך רגילים הקדוש ברוך הוא שהוא אלוהי ישראל שלח אותי לפרסם שני סיפורים ולהודיע שהם שומרים סיפור אמיתי שלא רק התרחש אלא שני הסיפורים גם קדושים
intro: the core of the story is not ony true which occurred in the past, a few hundred years ago, in the region of the south edge of the baltic sea, but also holy. therefore God sent me to publish this holy story, and told me which of the stories are holy and true so that i should emphassize and publish them for the core of this story is not only true but truly many witnesses saw on the day of the fire "birds flew down and changed into humans except one who retained his wing". the commandment and message contained details for me to "include and complete the holy story." due to its holiness,  therefore anybody who reads this summary or the original grimm story either story of the birds that changed back to brothers, whether twelve ravens or six swans, one of the few holy tales preserved among grimm legends, and believes this story, honors god and will be rewarded with pleasure both in life despite its difficulty, so pleasure will be added and after the body dies pleasure will be added... but rejecting it... when you do not know and cannot know if at the time of the story it was false, insults the holy story and insults god and is worthy of pain.
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the twelve ravens [a parallel story had the title "six swans" both stories preserve the parallel  versions of the same event and complete each other.]
in a small kingdom where a king ruled only one small city, near the coast of the sea called baltic, his queen was pregnant. the king believed that the lessons of the bible were wise and justice. he appointed judges to judge in pairs. a group of two young students studying the local laws including the books of the bible, and other more modern laws and judgements, would listen with their older guide an experienced judge. they must listen to the claims of the two sides accuser and defendant in arguments about business money sales or about damages or other topics. the pair would then discuss and together decide "pay or not punish or not" and the punishemnt. the teacher would watch and make suggestions but only the pair would decide. if the pair did not agree only then the teacher would side with one of them to tip the majority of the votes. otherwise the teacher only suggested ideas which the students either accepted or rejected and the pair of judges agreed while the teacher was silent.
the following tale has some exciting amazing details which we never saw. god sent me to select and publish that the core of these two versions is one true story but not only occurred but also is holy in contrast to the stories in the book genesis many which are false and therefore not from god and others in book genesis that simply did not occur and those authors were separate from god and the book genesis neither true nor holy however this story with its supernatural event is not only a true event but also holy. therefore whoever reads this summary or the original versions of grimm about the birds changing back to brothers and believes it occurred, is worthy and will have pleasure added into his life despite the difficulty we all face during life and after he dies pleasure will be added however those who reject this story selected from among other legends, and rejects that this story is true or holy despite the warning which god sent me to warn you, is truly worthy now that you have been warned... of added pain.
this king was married to a queen. he also had three "treaty harem" which means he only did the wedding to join one but the others were part of his harem like wives without a wedding as a treaty with neighboring rulers.
each of the four women gave birth to three sons so he had twelve princes [this also preserves the true birth of the twelve sons of jacob that was not accurately preserved in book genesis.]
in the fifth year of his marriaage to the queen, she became pregnant. the king wanted a daughter because he knew eventualy the queen would die and if he only had sons, then no child would replace the queen. he told the queen that he hopes she will have a dauter.
the king about the book of numbers "if a man dies lacking any son then the inheritence will go to his daughter." this idea troubled the king because he believed in the books of the bible yet his heart told him this was not justice. due to the bible he acted: he personnally shaped wood and assembled wood coffins for his twelve sons and expalined to his queen: if you have a daughter then i decree that she must inherit even if i must kill all the sons so people do not protest her inheriting. the queen was sad that her three sons would die... the other nine were not hers anyway.... and thout of a protest and suggested to him "if you kill the boys then no son will replace you as king." he replied that his daughter would be the king and her husband would be like a queen.
he warned the queen not to reveal his plan to anybody who might interfere.
the queen swore to keep the secret and altho she secretly wanted a dauter... she hoped the pregnancy would be a boy so her sons would be safe. ma was even angry at god for making such a rule in the bible that a dauter inherits only if no sons. due to this her sons were at risk.
the fact was: the king decided and acted that he would kill the sons if he had a dauter due to the bible that the only way she would inherit even part of a portion was if he killed his sons the royal princes. 
god sent me to teach you that this detail and many others in the bible were not from him nor holy nor truth nor justice. those books such ass genesis and numbers and more except jeremia  which is holy, the many others and specificly book numbers are not from god nor holy nor true nor justice. and god bothered to send me to respond to those who are fooled that those books are true or correct.
ma kept her oath and did  not tell the harem about the danger to their sons. she did not even warn her own sons due to the oath. however the youngest son saw his ma was worried and he begd her to reveal what troubled her emotions? at first she resisted and insisted she must not reveal the secret but seeing his deep care for her worry combined her love for her sons, she found a solution. silently and obeying the oath not to tell, she led her son to the room with the twelve wood coffins and said "count them."
the wise son understood and told her he would keep the oath and lead the brothers to safety. when the birth will occur she should signal with a flag if boy or girl.
y [for that is how will shorten the youngest] told his brothers that they must leave home due to the danger of a secret. however his brothers doubted any danger. they refused to believe him that there was any danger and refused to leave their home. for the sake of saving their lives y violated the oath and explained that pa wanted a dauter and the only path to her inheriting was if the king killed his sons.
the brothers felt very angry at their father for deciding to kill them. soon their anger was redirected at god for making such a rule... since they thout, as many religious people now believe, that this rule was in the book numbers, is from god, that a dauter inherits if no sons. they were angry that god made such a rule that resulted in this situation.
the twelve sons walked out from the royal palace. they went to live in the woods. they wandered among the many trees until "a floating light led them to a glowing house." it was a magical home in the woods. the sons did not see that as each one enterd the door a flower sprouted from the land behind the home and its bud instantly opened in a blossom of six colored petals.
soon the twelve brothers enterd the home. soon the twelve flowers were a complete row.
the brothers went to hunt for food to shoot birds and other forest beasts. all except the youngest who stayed home and discovered precisely twelve beds with soft mattresses and fabric covers and all the needs. y learned where everything was stored. each morning he would climb a tree while his brothers hunted and wait for the signal from the palace. however day after day no flag of any signal.
the months passed and the brothers enjoyed the meat of the wild beasts that they hunted and that y boiled in water with herbs that y gathered.
finally one fateful morning y saw a flag from a window in the palace. it was a "red flag" symbolizing a red flag.... red like blood they must not return to the palace for the king would kill them and bury them in the coffins he built why? for inheritance.
the brothers despite being twelve and different personality all cooperated [this preserves the real story of the twelve sons of jacob in contrast to the book of genesis much of the story of josef never occurd only a bit but the brother cooperated and almost never argued.]
when they did not agree they would use the king method and ask a third brother to mediate and take sides and whichever side he took the one accepted in practice despite continuing to believe they were wrong.
"ten years passed". the princess saw a row of shirts hanging to dry and for the first time noticed they were varying sizes many not fit for pa. she askd ma "who are those royal clothes for?" [aah back when we were allowed to say that phrase in that order... even good authors ended sentences that way. that is the way people spoke.]
ma revealed to her young ten year old dauter that she had brothers, her 12 sons, who she had never seen nor heard of.
the wild ten year old youth was so excited that she ran into the forest to search for them. again "a floating golden glow led her" to the glowing home.
the brothers except for y were hunting the food for the day to feed their hunger. only y was home. she grabd the handle of the door but could not open it for the magic door protected the home and anybody who lived in it. y heard her and opened the door for this beautiful young princess in royal clothing. he felt such love that he kissed her and they almost sinned together but the young girl protested saying she was too young to have a child so they must wait.
she asked why he lived in the forest and he told the story of the cruel king of this kingdom. the princess knew that was her kingdom and they realized they were siblings. now they hugged as siblings.
y warned her that his brthers might be angry that she caused them to lose their home so he sent her to hide until they returned from hunting.
later, the brothers returned with the birds and forest beasts and y said he has a secret that he can only reveal if they promise not to kill their new gest.
the brothers were eager to hear the secret and said an oath that they would not kill the gest. then y announced that "our sister has found us." some of the brothers were angry that she was the cause of their loss. others explained that they must not blame her... for she did not do anything to harm them.
at first they all ate together and she told her brothers about the palace and the kingdom. she begd to reunite with them and live among them. they agreed and she helped y in the house chores.
the following morning she looked out the window and saw a row of colored flowers. she saw twelve and said "such good luck a wonderful omen. exactly the number i need for each of my brothers to give at breakfast." quickly she picked the twelve flowers... and as she turned around... the glowing home was not where it had been. could all this have been a dream? many ravens were on the ground pecking the earth and some flew away.
the princess started crying and felt that she had lost her brothers when she had finally reunited with them. and they were only together one evening. she sobbed and cried for a long time. the voice of a lady asked her "why did you pick the flowers those were your telve brothers." but she did not believe the lady. she was so sad that she refused to eat all day she did not search for any food even when she felt hunger because her sadness was so great.
later when the sun neared the edge of the sky at evening six swans flew near her. they landed near her and as the sun vanished each one split into two brothers. y explained that magic had changed them into birds. she said "at least now you are all free from the magic..." but in a short time they changed back into twelve black raavens and the oor princess cried for her loss and soon cried herself to sleep.
in her dream she saw a message that she must be silent for a long time and not even laugh. if she would make six shirts and be silent until she completed the task she would free her brothers from the magic.
she waited in the place of the gowing house and as the sun reached the edge of the sky again twelve ravens were flying in circles. they landed in pairs on branches and changes into six swans.
the swans flew to the ground aand when they stoood on the ground they split into her twelve brothers.
she told them her dream and gve them hpe and promised to make the shirts and from the time she started to make the shirts she would be silent. before her brothers could answer they changed back to ravens and flew away.
the princess felt hope and hurried home to get the fabric and sewing materials to make the shirts. she returned to the place in the forest and spent her day making the six shirts. she was silent because nobody was in the forest to speak with.
each night the twelve ravens visited. they attached into six swans but then flew away so she was not tempted to talk to them.
week after week she sewed the shirts and was almost finished her purpose when a king from the nebir kingdom came hunting. his dog found her. [note the core of the story is true but some details in the two legends need to be fixed so the legends complete each other and some details removed].
the king asked her why she was alone in the forest. she believed her dream and refused to speak even to answer the king.
her refusal to speak made the "impatient king" very angry for he was king and everybody must obey the king. he roughly grabd her arm and led her to his palace. the poor princess sobd because she had only sewn five of the shirts the sixth was still missing a sleeve. how would she save her brothers?
the king warned her "you must tell me why you are alone in the forest sewing?" but she refused to answer due to her dream that she must be silent until she "completes the six" shirts.
the impatient king felt angry and yelld at her and warnd he would kill her if she did not answer but she refused to speak and hurried to sew the sleeve on... stitch by stitch by stitch... the king drew his "sword"... and was ready to "cut her in his anger" but then "an angel" of god flew down from the sky and warned "do not move your hand to the girl" [this fixes and preserves and replaces the corrupted story about isac saved by an angel  in the false book named genesis].
the king obeyed the angel but called for his advisors. "i decreed death on her for not answering me." the advisor agreed that surely she deserves death and immediately while the king re-vaginated his sword, the soldiers quickly gathered wood and built a "pyre" for burning her.
the angel came again and said "do not move your hand to the girl" but the soldiers did what they thout was justice and dragd the young prindcess to the wood. sadly they had assembled the wood before she finished sewing the sleeve... as they dragd the princess the needle dropd from her hand and she could not finish the last stitches to secure the sleeve to the shirt the poor girl wailed... she had hope and now the hope was lost... 
as a soldier lit the wood twelve ravens swooped down and began pecking at the soldiers... but the fire soon spread in the wood and a pair of birds each landed on the shirts that she had carried... they instantly changed into white swans... even before sunset by the love of their sister sewing the shirts.
happily even the sixth shirt did its job and changed the swan into man... all the soldiers saw in amazement the ravens change into swans and then into men... except the one with the partly attached sleeve whose wing remained a wing... the six brothers hurried to throw dirt on the fire and she seeing her brothers as men finally spoke... and promised the king she would explain what happened.
the brothers threw dirt and extinguiushed the fire and saved their sister... and all the soldiers were witnesses that the birds changed to men and saw one brother with a wing. 
the king was awed by this wonder and promised he would not be impatient ever again.
the brothers lived long happy lives in the kingdom of this king who refused to pass the kingdom to his son the heir but instead established a council of his sons and the gests to decide together how to govern.
elsewhere the king who had decreed death on his sons died. his kingdom was divided by the three harem wives who inherited the childless king and added the land to the kingdoms of their fathers. the mother suffered from loneliness but had the comfort of knowing that "somehwere" her sons had lived and survived.
even the son with the wing... "if he has not died of old age he is living even today."
endnote: i now obey the command to publish these holy tales so they are available and those who believe can have pleasure added to their lives and benefits and good while those who reject this have a chance... and therefore are worthy of pain for rejecting the gift.

july 23 not leo

people who follow the zodiac are led by sources to think if the birthday is july 23 then from then for 4 weeks is called leo but not!!

the sun was on the background of the group of stars called Gemini until around july 20. then "we" orbited so the stars behind the sun now, are the group cancer as background of the sun. as we spin that is the background all 24 hours including noon... ANYWHERE. until we move further around the sun from the new point the stars in the background LATER wil be leo.

the guardian part 1

 the girls' guardian
in jerusalem in 1996 a student entered a dorm of a school near the residential homes in talpiyot section of south Jerusalem, israel.
his lover in u.s. had recently "dumped him" to start college in the spring semester. he got into trouble with a single girl only she and he knew before her parents noticed she was pregnant. after he left america, they separated the biological pa, me from her and their family.
after a series of arguments with students in israel to skip until end. after a harsh coughing virus of two weeks the student not named sol finally healed from the illness.
he was age 20. 
as he regained strength from the illness, his desire for a lover gradually returned and grew. in a few days the desire intensified and he could not concentrate on his studies.
after a long inner battle which i will skip kuz over secmveral days, sol finally decided he could not resist the urge to satisfy his "urge for a lover" even without a lover. he would squeeze out his male milk from his male finger.
as he walked to the toilet room, the walking somehow eased the stress and he decided to delay just one more hour walking outdoors before doing the action consider a sin in some religions. yet a natural process that does not injure any person nor harm any property.
in contrast to abortion which is considered acceptable.
anyway sol left the structure and began pacing the sunny streets beside his school in talpiyot in south jerusalem israel.
note: if you were either girl in the next part and feel regret for these events in that place and that year... then you met a DIFFERENT man. the story was actually in a different  place.
pacing in the street he noticed that nobody was out under the blazing hit sun.
he was the only idiot trying to delay his sin a bit longer. as he paced a lone lady left a building, a residential apartment tower and sat on the public  bench as sol passed. sol continued to the corner and returned pacing. the lady stood and asked "do you speak english?" he nodded yes. "i want to hire you for a job to watcch my little sister every day after school."
 in 1996 for a male student to be near a young girl was considered dreadful. far from the exageration NOW in 2021 but shockingly dreadful. but hey SHE trusted him. if they had cameras then they would see that he did not do anything to a young girl so they would see on the cameras that he did not hurt her. no problem.
he nodded again and she said "come meet my parents at 6pm in this building number bleep and bleep".
sol turned away but the lady presd a paper into his ryt palm. the  she ran down some steps to a bus stop.
sol continued pacing. the sun made him sweat like a hippo exiting a pond!
he returned to the dorm and showered no need for hot water in this heat. his mind only amazed that the lady trusted her.
he returned to study the rest of the day with a clear mind like a new start.
at nyt he begd his body to empty and drain the male milk while he slept so he could concentrate the next day.
the following morning sol awoke... dry. dam he whisperd. if stuff needs to exit then it should.
he obeyed the instructions on the paper he had got and read that fateful Tuesday.
at 9 am wensday he went to the building. as his hand moved to the button to buzz the lady... the door buzd so he entered and returned again to the home of his new employer.
the lady, the daughter of the parents was standing in her long pale-yellow-green dress. 
"no time" she urged. then added in English "one for you and in an hour one for me."
before sol could ask "one what" tara grabd sol's belt and opened it. sol was OVERJOYED  that he found a new lover. 
i will spare the pleasant details but they acted like lovers.
with protection that she had kuz had purchased and she unrolled onto sol.
tara explained that she was substituting as a teacher from 10 to 11 but i must commit to be there at her home until 11. i said in hebrew "i commit. one for me one for you". 
i waited in the cool room with its air conditioning. i switched the number to 23 degrees centigrade so i would enjoy the cool but not get cold. then i studied rabbi books until she returned from her job.
tara buzd the door open and sighed in English  "he left the lyt on when he left". i reassured her "i am here."
she entered and said "you had some rest now my turn."
they acted like lovers again and after emptying tubes at 9:10 the system was much more apt for pleasure. in fact she reached climax and was satisfied before any male orgasm.
then the wave of guilt "that was SO worth it" she moaned in english.
then continued, "you probly think i am a dirty whore" i wagged my head no.
she pulled herself up to my knees and her green dress continued to cover us 
"if we limit ourselves to each other we can be in the category pilegesh. as long as you dont expect money."
she scofd "money? you are a student i know you dont have money. these meetings are for my urges and i dumped the last lover. you are far better in personality and in pleasure.
i hoped she was not lying and that she would invite  me to return.
i confesd the truth "i enjoyed too."
good so come in a few days Sunday at 9. i wont substitute and i can explain what i expect. 
now prepare yorself for bella she will be here soon and we dont have time to talk.
i did not know how to prepare so i simply washed my face.
checked my shirt, which i had not removed was tucked neat around and went to the sofa. 
two plates of beef stew sat on the long table. we ate silently as the time neared 12 and when tara finished her portion she ran the plate to the kitchen and left.
i ate my beef stew slowly. finally at exactly 1205 a girl not named  bella entered her home.
she wore a pink and white backpack. she walked pass me at the table and i said in hebrew "want lunch?" bella started crying and ran to her room.
i guess i scared her so i better be loose. i ate the rest of my stew slowly. i cleaned the plate and filled a glass of milk. then i walked to bella's door and said "i brought you milk".
"enter" she called.
so i entered she was lying on her bed wearing stretchy sport pants. a shade of blue. want a drink? i offered and put it on the desk.
"nobody has time for me i am not important for anybody" bella moaned and started sobbing again.
"your parents sent me too show you are important to them" i tried to console her.
"but i want tara." bella explained and concluded "tara does not want to be with me."
i had an idea "you like kids your age so that explains tara wants frends HER age."
"i guess so but i still feel sad." 
"you are not alone. choose a game or a book and we can do activities together."
bella was cynical "i can guess the one activity you MEN wanna do."
i expected that and shot back "your parents trust me they know i am not like that."
bella did not believe me and almost wailed "i wish you would leave. just use me and get out already."
"no. i promise i wont touch you. now go choose a game."
"i know the story of rebeka. i was not born yesterday" she scolded. "i dont want any wife yet" i guessed trying to annul her worry.
"why wont you leave already?" bella wailed frustration. i tried explaining "your parents care about you and if you are bored you can tell me about your school and your life and anything."
"why do you have time for me?" 
"kuz i am the same as your parents. they go to a job and i come here for my job."
"what if i dont wanna play?"
"talk"
"what if i dont wanna talk?"
"then i will wait outside. meanwhile drink some milk."
sol left the room and sat in the cool air conditioning. sol studied the book of rabbis that the school curriculum had assigned.
he forgot that only yesterday he could not concentrate on studying and raced line after line of rabbi arguments.
finally bella emerged from her room. she carried her empty glass to the kitchen.
i tried again "want lunch?"
"no. i will get fat and nobody will want me same as you dont want me."
so she was setting a trap. whichever way i chose i would lose.
"i am holy that is the real reason i sont notice if you are pretty or not."
bella asked in english "am i sexy?"
"nope you are still too small".
"you think i am gross and ugly."
"no. just still small. when you grow taller find me."
"as if i would drop to a guy like YOU" bella scoffed. ouch.
i changed the topic "which book should we read.--none she retorted.
"bring a game or dice."
bella brought two cubes of dice.
"now please bring paper and pencil."
she did.
now copy this shape." i drew a large # with 9 spots.
"you choose any numbers from 2 to 12 and put them anywhwre in the nine spots."
she put 2,3,4
5,6,7
8,9,10.
i put 7 in the center. and around it 10 down to 2.
she rolled the dice 5,1 she marked x on her center square and i marked my six.
i rolled a dice 5,6 no mark.
she rolled 2,3 and marked x on 5.
i markd x on my 5 too.
i rolled for my turn. 2,5  she marked 7 and shouted "tic tac toad". yes she had a row i had the bottom corner.
"did you let me win?" bella accused? tou chose the numbers mine were different order.
now tell me about your school what do you study.
bella  brout her list of subjects and showed me which topics she learned. i asked which teacher was nicest. and we talked about school and teachers and studies.
suddenly b interrupted. "school is boring, what are you reading??" 
"if school is boring this is worse. i am reading about arguments."
"i dont care. i wanna know whatever you are studying."
well if that is what you ask for...
i turned to the first page of study text and started reading.
bella protested "no. start from the cover".
i explained every word on the hard cover and showed the title pages only show what is inside so we dont need to read every word of that. then i started teaching her the rabbi book.
again she interrupted "in hebrew you must start at the ryt side of the line".
so i explained the order the different parts were written and who wrote them so that is why i start in the mid column with the oldest text and then read the later explanations printed around the  sides.
so we passed the tome as i explained the ancient debates and she found flaw after flaw in the logic... that i had not noticed and i said "you are right. your alternative is better."
we read nany lines and i checked 2 of the commentaries to see if any influential ideas were added and i pointed the difference betweeen the two on a certain detail.
b said she liked that i explained the difference. we studied line qfter line and i explained and expected her to say she was vored of reading debates but we continued until her watch beepd.
ma is almost here. bella announced rrunning to her room. she returned with a book about unicorns and princesses and sat across me at the table.
ma enterd and saw we were both reading.
she handed me the paper money and said "open a bank account i dont want anyone stealing the salary we pay you". she explained the type of "toshav" account and i left.
i would be back to gard bella the next day for food and money and study until one day she would gard me.
to be continued.

save money say "climate change"

china flooding 
heavy rains. 
PIPES to drain?  do not spend money on digging and buying pipes we can blame climate change.
india monsoon is annual and so is china it flooded last year too called monsoon.
in canada "dangerous heat waves". hmm. dangerous to cherries. 
dangerous if you dont drink water. 
if you ignore the DESIRE  to make a sensation as bait called  click bait... you might believe the exagerations. we do not HAVE any good source for news since companies are tempted to exaggerate for sensarion.
barely honest to say "this week a heat wave. this week hundreds died according to experts at the cemetery oh and we are still checking if any were HEAT RELATED." 
"flooding was harmful... bla bla climate change oh and monsoons in china are ANNUAL" 
we have no reliable source for information anymorr. the more sources we have the more we can be certain  they will exagerate for sensation and try to make fear... over "no change nothing new" and lie that it is news.
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book 80 days around world

 book review, around world 80 days.
this book was cleverly written and with excitement until the let down trip from new york.
it starts with the then "concurrent event" of the completion of the canal that extends southward until it reached suez at its south end.
the newspaper claimed the total 80 days, if using the new canal to travel around the world from london to london. the people argue about surprise events that can delay. f.f. a clever name, wagers he can overcome any obstacle.
just for the wager he will travel via that canal, therefore from southern italy, south to suez and across india... using the "then new" technology of steam engines in trains and boats.
the author cleverly wove obstacles into the story, such as a cop who wants to delay ff. later the cops bias is to aid accelerate to move him toward briton so he can arrest him. in india a surprise that led to rescuing a widow from religious sacrifice.  after some troubles and adventures, and dangers....
the last chapters were a major let down. in fact this pattern is consistent in several verne books lazily avoiding endings: in leagues, he "banged his head" so does not know how the story ended, lazily saving the author trouble writing the ending. same in the technology tale master of world... again the guy "bangs his head" allowing the author to lazily skip the conclusion. but this anti-climax and story is horrible i mean a bad storyline for the climax.
i propose an alternate ending.
keep the danger on the train across northern u.s. where the longitudinal degrees are less between themselves around the thinner part of the globe... clever Americans. the exciting "flying over the damaged bridge" which holds the train just long enuf... then crashes down into the water. i liked that climax. keep the fuel and the clever "snow sail" over ice in late autumn. keep the emotional and suspenseful missing the trans-Atlantic ship!
at THAT point the story needs to change direction and not continue with the author's bad ideas.
the "alternate ending instead of hiring a ship to france": he simply finds a CARGO ship to liverpool. 
a.e.   ff saw he missed the passenger ship which left on time as scheduled, and for the first time "showed emotion". ff sat and pushed his hands around his head and wrinkled his forehead in worry. he came too late for his planned ship. despite the ice sail.
p offerd to help find a cargo ship if f would pay his gas expense. f agreed. p searched new york harbor with its ACTIVE ports and EASILY found a cargo ship to liverpool in west briton north from the wales peninsula. 
the cargo ship had fewer stops than the passenger steamer. his missed boat helped him arrive sooner at liverpool before that boat. 
IMMEDIATELY on england,  cop arrested f. sadly f and his friends: lady n aid all ride the train to london.
he arrived in london december 18. however, he must get to the club! n he cant!! kuz cop led them to the london prison. 
BEFORE  cop locks f in prison, the jailor reveals that they caught the "real theif" back in november after the warrant was sent.
he went to celebrate at the club and THERE discovers the date locally is 17! despite the many sunrises. surprise. he made it in less than 80 days. ( note: move the idea of breaking wood of the ship to the trip from suez to west india motivation by a bribe to use more steam n get to west india faster.)
when the other gentlemen return his document for payment and take out their checkbooks, f says "instead of cash, let the widow choose her wedding style for you to pay. the buddies arrange a "lovely wedding" with the wager money. 
describe the lovely wedding and END".
that would be a climax instead of the desperate deception and other bad  ideas and plans that ruin an adventure by giving the description of f as a rock until pushed to crime. was verne really a good author??
plus endnotes 1, f wrote a letter to the Russian government  urging them to learn from u.s. to build  a railway across the northern part of Russia where the length is less around the ball. 
the russian advisors reject the idea but inspired by his idea begin planning a rail along the southern border which they started building in 1905. once completed f WILL orbit without suez canal! how many days would that take? end endnote!
endnote 2 f did not cheat going north and around north pole and down south to liverpool in a week. he also need not go to the fattest part of the globe to orbit only by equator kuz london is latitude 50 the only time he nears equator was to "double" the malay peninsula near singapore n equator. instead he can use 50 degree latitude but has no options there so must go fatter all around, so went to a fatter orbit:  trains, 1 "from london to channel ferry, and 2 from calais on french coast to south italy. then the ship trip from italy thru canal til suez on east coast of nile, and steaming to west coast of india. all that is more length than the latitude of london along the fatter part of the globe. even moving north to yok' is fatter part than 50 kuz yok' is 35! and across rail of north u.s. 42 still fatter than 50. the train from west india to east india was less length than a boat around india and would be less time at same speed (train was 20 miles per hour ergo steam ship faster but not enuf) if not for the rail surprise that led to rescuing a widow from religious sacrifice.

proving scientific history

 now i can reveal that i changed the units in the "rate of expansion" calculation.
i had a bias that matter mass such as protons do not move faster than speed of light. so i copied the amounts of expansion from the physics book, and exchanged the units, i called the units meter instead of light year, to remove this bias and measure the  volume.
background and consequence: when i read a physics book that claimed the rate of expansion in the first second (when the young universe started expanding called big bang) might have been 4 light years in less than one second it conflicted that idea. and i had a problem which to believe? also another issue related: i had thought that the idea of "oscilating universe or expanding" were only "unknown possibilities beyond science" until the physicist mentioned  those two ideas as "possible models".
that gave me the idea that i could define the size of the oscilation based on the limit of speed of light.
once you computed that the expansion rate was ">1m" in both expansions, and truly meter was truly light-years we can define that the repeated cycles of oscilation were never smaller than 180 light years volume. as i will explain.
1,  "if the universe expanded from infinitismally tiny volume" that model
must include "protons moving faster than the speed of light" 4 ly and 180 ly in less than one year, therefore we can not only prefer oscilating  model but even define "not less than 180 light years radius of volume". as i will explain in story form. the preceding cycle of oscilation the volume of mass "contracted" [+ my claim: caused by cold causing contractions see below], until the mass of the universe was concentrated in a smaller volume around 200 light-years radius. then the density and pressure, can and did generate heat as we know it can. the heat caused expansion as we know and from the volume of 200 l.y. the expansion started (due to heat causing expansion) and not less as you proved mathematiccaly, mass scattered until NOW the year we call 2021 when galaxies are speeding apart from each other and the universe continues cooling. 
the intense coolness could cause a contraction, as we know cold contracts, to repeat the oscilation.
all i needed to compute was the rate of expansion < or > one l.y. 
on this background your computation seems to PROVE oscilating model of repeated expansion and contraction while defining the point of reverse, and while rejecting even PROVING  false the model that the universe "started" from tiny volume less than one cubic meter or one liter!! which would include many expansions where protons "needed to move apart" faster than the speed of light which would be impossible according to physics.
in other words we can look at the past when mass was nearer each other but never less than the point when mass such as protons would move more than one l.y. in less than one year. 

jule verd n the cherry tree

many years ago... 
BASED ON A TRUE STORY names and places changed for privacy.
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summer vacation was boring, so boring; better than stupid boring school but boring. i had a tv but my zealous parents forbid me to watch even a bit. they called a neighbor, whose son was a violent bully in my new york public school, and arranged for me to play with their son. 
ma drove me in her car to 220 street in new york city. i jumped out and knocked on the door. the bully not named jule peaked out the window and shouted "dont you see the bell?"
he knew i was there so i waited for jule to unlock the door.... and waited. 
next i pushed the button for the doorbell.... no sound... it was broken.
so i knocked again.
jule peaked from behind the curtain and repeated  "dont you see the bell?" i reply its broken. finally he opened the door. 
"hi jule, whatja playing?--"none of ya biznis" he answered tough as ever. i continued "are you watching tv?--we dont have a tv." i knew he was lying kuz i heard him talk about tv shows with a separate bully who he was friendly with.
"go home. why are you here?" he demanded. "my ma arranged for us to play together." jule cussed and then turned back and hollerd "MA WHAT THE BLEEP DID YOU GET ME INTO??"
pa hollerd back "stop yelling!" it was a distant holler. jule left me at the  door and the curtain swung back to hide the window. i waited. finally ma came with jule. she opened the door and said "go play in the backyard". jule looked angry but he must obey.
we walked to the tiny city back yard. barely 2 yards wide... i mean 6 feet in this yard. all covered in a  layer of poured gray cement. high cement walls separated from the neighboring yards.
in the center was a cherry tree.  it was around 4 yards tall and i could see marks where low branches had been cut down like round scars.
jule said "i didn't decide which game, um, which ball to play. so climb the low branch and eat some cherries while i bring something..." as he walked away he added "i will come in ten minutes so if you're bored jump on my trampoline".
i looked up and searched for the bee hive... coming from HIM the bully he probly sent me to the bees... but i saw the branches and no beehive hung. so i climbed the low branch and picked some black fruit. the shape certainly differed from cherry in the shop and the taste differd from the cherry i had tasted in the after school study program sweet cherry candy reward, that i had quit that year. i tried to recall what the fruit-cherry tasted like but this was a thicker sweeter texture and taste. probly he lied that they were cherry but it was sweet n fruit so i picked some and waited. i looked at my digital watch to count the ten minutes. i was certain he would not return and wanted to count the minutes to see if i was wrong.
i ate some more sweet fruit and then climbed down and walked to the trampoline. i started jumping but i did not enjoy it.
suddenly a man exited the back door of the semi-detached house and shouted angrily "get off our sons trampoline!"
i jumped down and said "he let me." 
pa stood quietly thinking. "well if he is sposed to play with you, and left you by yourself i am gonna SMACK that brat." 
"WAIT!" I hollerd in a panic as the puzzle assembled in my mind. many combinations! which did i have time to say first?? "firstly he promised to bring a ball at 10:20" 10 minutes  from when i had looked at my watch. as i hoped, pa asked "and second?" "did you know your son hits kids at school??" pa stared at me gazing "so i should hit him for 2 things. hmm." i protested "OPPOSITE!" then i explained "until now when he made you angry you hit him as a punishment." pa nodded and squinted, clearly puzzled at my long speech. i continued, "then HE hit other kids." pa repeated "i already said i would punish him." i protested "OPPOSITE!" and explained "tell him that its bad to hit..." pa echoed in a cynical tone "tell??" i hurried before he got bored "and that is why you WONT hit him." pa wrinkled his forehead and said "but the punishment is a hit." i added "he likes sweet sugary stuff, right? so that can be his punishment INSTEAD." i made two fists and moved them toward each other attaching the ideas "BECAUSE after you hit him, he hits kids... so tell him hitting in school is bad that is why you wont hit him." pa echoed "no sweets for a month, hmm?" then i lied "like my parents just for a week then if he doesnt hit he can have, as before. "i wont REWARD him for not hitting." so i explained "as before as usual". pa gazed at me clearly shocked. i had time for more "you probly give weekly money allowance. so if he does a second trouble you skip a week as a punishment." pa continued gazing then blurt out "WHAT!!" and ran inside.
had he assembled the many details? adults never listen to kids... i waited for jule. 
call it a self fulfilling prophecy but as i expected he continued his familiar bully attitude and had not returned. 
from the yard i heard hollering, at 1020, "jule where are you." then a long silence. i guessed that if he stopd shouting then jule must have came. i hoped they were talking. nah. he had not heard me.
finally jule walked out to the yard and accused "why did you tell my father i was sposed to come back?" "kuz he caught me on the trampoline."
"i hate you. kuz of you i cant have candy this week." he sulked clearly stifling anger. "he was gonna hit you," i hurried. i saw i had time to add, "until now he hit you. right?"
jule blinked three times.... then hollerd WHAT!!!!! and ran inside.
now what should i do? would he understand the new punishment was INSTEAD of a hit and bring a ball or was he angry so i should leave.
pa came out to the yard and told me several things. he handed me the candy bar, that he had planned on giving to jule and hissed at me "you are SUCH a KID!!"
finally  he said i should go home and then in a harsh tone ordered "look at me!" then he winked one eye and screamed in angry tone "NEVER EVER jump on our trampoline. promise me you wont jump on it". "i promise," answered. "i cant hear you. PROMISE you wont use our trampoline." so i announced "i'm sorry i wont anymore." he winked and mived his hand like pushing me out of the house. 
i walked thru the dark home n out the front door. i wondered "if jule saw that pa stop hitting, would he also stop hitting?" either way i got a candy out of it.
i enjoyed the sweet candy as i walked home to 240 street. my parents were not home so i noticed which channel their tv was at and flipped from channel to channel to see something interesting. 
most stations were static some had boring talking... the home door was opening before i found anything, so i switched the two dials back to their position and grabd a book. i snuck out from the room as they unloaded bags of food. i snuck into my room and then from there yelled "his pa sent me home".
"get down here." i handed the book from their bedroom. and they scolded, "serves you right for being mean to their son. no surprise you have no friends. we work so hard arranging for you to have friends and you are rotten to them."
i knew i must not reply... but at least i got a candy bar.
THE END

abortion stats

 around a million abortions listed each year in u.s. 
a. did the "u.s. constitution" say either way?
if limiting abortion is "unconstitutional" what exactly APPEARS in the document constitution on this topic? nothing !! about abortion.
the same as "me breaking your window is evil harm... same harm and worse to kill a fetus".
wat about supreme court? 7/9 s.c. ruled an escaped slave remains a slave should we keep that "judicial" supreme court precedent?
if you cant divide a line in time then do not... as soon as ma knows, then prevent harm to fetus... whether God "gave fetus life" so do not oppose. if doubt God still abortion still worse than me breaking your window.
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stats
which city in  u.s. has highest abortion rate?
new york city "wins the prize" with more aabortions in one city then almost every other larger area state in the 50 states of u.s..
which states have the most abortions?
despite the huge population in califrnia and new york states they have so many abortions that the percentage is 22% of pregnancies in ca' that means less than 80% pregnancies were "allowed to continue".
133 thousand fetuses were aborted in california in 2017 [most recent data kuz try to hide the shame ergo delay]. 22% of pregnancies. in each ten two killed.
new york state rate like n.y.c. 31% 3 in ten pregnancies killed. harm to fetus until dead.
that is not "healing" not "health care."
second most abprtions 105 thousand in nys, despite great population 31%.
third florida 71 thousand 24%.
texas 55 thousand 13% but balancing that some texan cities voted that killing a fetus is murder... but in texas no death penalty for murder unless two in the same transcation action event.
new jersey 48 thousand 32% kuz less pregnancies and population than nys.
those top five. cal' most abortions and most in single ergo matches "cali-forni-cation!"
top ten, those 5 and:
illinois 42 thousand 22%
georgia 36k 22%
pen' 31k 19%
mar' 30k 29%
n.c. 30k 20% other states less than 30 thousand and around a miilion abortions each year in u.s. 

review of j. verne 20,000 leagues

 book review. i heard that j. verne was an "amazing" author. sadly i did not see the quality until late chapters after many poor quality chapters.

althoe the first chapter used a clever technique... it was too vague to enjoy. many boring and bad quality chapters before the detailed description of under sea beauty. he wisely started with mystery and excitement. but wrote 7 pages poorly and ignored the possibility that different distant places could indicate many long objects or a new discovery of a longer species of wwhales.

so i replace the first chapter with less vague details.

also the title "under" is vague it seems the depth was thousands  of leagues and what is a league anyway?

i suggest a clearer title "the beautiful and long submarine journey" specifying that the journey  was long and the story will describe the beauty. also the chapter name is stupid since he specifically wrote moving! and places separated by continents  cannot be reef singular. instead better to begin with "the mystery".

chapter one: the mystery

in 1866, people were excited and debated the reports from sailors who claimed they saw an odd whale that was longer than the largest  known whale. when reports included mysterious damage to ships, governments were very interested.

if the reports were about the same one in many distant places, then it was faster than any known whale. could many exist? was this a newly discovered species?

the reports corroborated each other that it was at least 200 feet long. they described its rapid movement, faster than  any known whale but its shape was odd like a cigar and unlike a whale it lacked a tail. insted both ends seemed to taper.

Many sailors on many ships from various companies reported seeing this long mysterious thing moving rapidly. one reported seeing it moving "east from the east coast of Australia." too soon after that another report "700 leagues" that is 2,800 kilometers away in the Pacific Ocean. could it be the same one thing? "15 days later" sailors reported seeing  this thing or things moving in the "Atlantic ocean east from the east coast of canada". It had inexplicably went far and around the continent... had it gone south or north? ships in various places reported seeing it. science directs to accept observations yet such a long thing was unprecedented. some doubted the sailors as the "legends from sailors" of other imaginary beings. Were they reliable witnesses?

newspapers and even science journals debated this discovery. however, more important than a new species, was the new danger. Ships reported collisions in places where no reefs existed.  one ship got damaged and water poured in. when it came to port the inspector saw a symmetrical triangular shape cut in thick iron. it seemed unnatural! when a ship crashes against a reef the damage is different. this mysterious harm inflamed excitement and interest.

now that people knew of the new danger, this seemed like the BEST explanation for other mysterious losses, because the best explanation is the one related to "things already known." People demanded that governments must stop this harmful danger.

The u.s. government invited a scientist named Pierre Aronnax to join an expidition to hunt this harmful damager.

chapter 2 the dangerous mission 

i, pierre Aronax, heard about the debate. at first i refused to accept this new discovery. However, when a ship got damaged the evidence swayed me that an animal with a horn like a narwhal must have caused the damage. i wrote an article about it and joined the mission aboard the "Abraham Lincoln" to hunt it. Althoe the most recent report of damage was in the Atlantic ocean, we were sent to hunt it in the pacific. [was verne  really a good author??]

Each government denied that it built any under-sea ship that collided with any ship. My explanation of a natural cetacean seemed best. our ship sailed from new york city in 1867. crowds cheered. we steamed south passing the tropic of cancer at around 23 degrees north latitude. we continued south-east around the amazon continent, so we crossed the imaginary equator midway between the poles of spin. our ship turned south-west and passed the tropic of capricorn off the east coast of land.

soon we steamed between the mainland and the isles south of it. even the narrow land sufficed to block our way to our destination so we were compelled to go around the south horn of the continent. At which point did the atlantic ocean end and the Pacific ocean border was entered? if we can estimate the area of each then there must be some imaginary line to separate this continuous sea. somewhere we entered the part of sea named Pacific Ocean.

we steaned north-west and again uneventfully crossed the tropic of capricorn then the equator and even the tropic of cancer. by now our excitement had faded. 

each day we had searched for the long thing spotted in the Pacific straining to see as far as we could. people watched from both sides to earn the reward for spotting the long whale and killing it before it could collide as we already had experienced.

our ship wandered around the sea until we lost hope of seeing any long narwhal... only after we lost hope... one sailor reported the light at night. the best explanation was a natural phosphorescence based on known glow worms. the Abraham Lincoln fired at it... suddenly it moved toward our ship accelerating as i, and my assistant consiel, watched the light move nearer and nearer... we gripd the rail and braced for the impact of collision. 

CRASH it slamd into the side of our ship. consiel and i were knocked upward and i could not hold the rail.

i fell and splashd into the sea near Japan. i started swimming toward the lyt, almost certain our ship was sinking. i was shocked with surprise and  horror to find that the collision was with a metallic vehicle! consiel and one other man named ned succeeded at swimming to the lyt before it this iron vehicle moved away from the site of the collision. 

NOTE: now we can continue with the adventure! on page 46 replacement for many uneventfull pages and flawed paragraphs and quickly reach the adventure starting with the mention of the unexpected "sheet iron". 

Biden did not fire a nuke atom bomb

 DISCLAIMER: all characters and events in this post even those based on real people are entirely fictional. biden has not nuked any city... yet.

story: on the date January 20, 2021, joe biden swore to uphold the constitution as president 46 of u.s.a. 

the Chinese prime minister knew that biden was a weak pushover. biden even had business connections in China which were under china government influence. that same day he ordered the first wave of atomic bomb s. now that trump  was away he knew  Biden  would not retaliate using nuclear bomb s called h-bomb or a-bomb meaning atom bomb s.

obviously he chose the u.s. capital city first but that might have protection. so he met with the war minister to plan. the war minister did not agree but he felt compelled to obey. together they assembled the list of ten targets. war insisted  3 for capital in case they had defenses. pm said i want new york too. war explained that city was very big aand would need a giant yield bomb. "what would i do without you!" pm praised.

the h-bomb for hydrogen was stronger. so that was selected. other cities would use small yeild plutonium a-bombs.

 war felt encouraged and suggested, for his own reason the 5 cities with most murder. first chicago and then.... but pm interrupted "my turn, los angeles.--now i 3, kuz you chose washington, ny and la, so i chose Chicago, Philadelphia,  Baltimore." pm nodded and added san Francisco for its naval value. war added Houston for it and the others he chose had the highest murder. these war the mist evil cities in his opinion. the fact the people there chose mayor dnc from Democratic-political party, who did not work to deter murder motivated him to choose these. pm asked if they had enuf for that many city? 3 for capital and then ny, la, sf, Chicago Philadelphia Baltimore and Houston exactly ten. perfect. 

war sent the order and the soldiers on the submarine chose the missiles with the coordinates for the city the comrades selected. war wanted to destroy  the evil city in america. 

the missile fired and then more. they arched up from the sea and flew quickly toward the cities. satellite saw  the missiles rising from the sea. norad got the warning and informed biden. biden told them mass murder was wrong morally. we must not bomb a whole city that would be "sinking" to the bad low level... as he had read in the book by clancy. 

the chinese were correct they were able to shoot without retaliation. the missiles flew in. Biden and Harris flew out from the danger zone and the Pentagon ordered  f16 b with two crew to intercept the missiles. 

before the warplanes coud jet up, san Francisco and Los Angeles were incinerated in a heat that shattered every molecule of human animal and structure for many miles. 

i was on my missile destroyer. a small warship but it had 4 atom bomb s. i also commanded my small team of two eacort submarines off the coast of la. since MY orders were to patrol la i decided i  had authority for that war. oops. 

as the missiles arched down toward the east  coast, i awaited  orders to fire for my destroyed city. the jet that shot at the Chicago missile was a sidewinder that chased heat with a sensor for infra red so exploded  in the blaze of the missile too far from the missile. the same flaw over Houston. 

the pentagon decided that they would not inform the other city and orderd sidewinders. the jets tried... at least we did something... Philadelphia and nyc changed to boiling lava instead of buildings and people. 

i was boiling too. watching many city burn. alreadt la sf Chicago Houston were burnt. maybe more. i orderd without consulting... my team of sunmarines to shoot their high yeilds at different cities in China. i ordered to select the ten industrial port cities with most people to avenge  my coastal port city and all the rest based on jet factory cities.  

the executive officer of my sub interpreted the order in 2 parts. he chose some of the ten major ports and non ports that had more population than the ports. all 22 from each of my 2 subs arched up to the 44 most populated cities. my own 4 went 2 to the capital of china and one to the capitals of each india and pakistan kuz i hated those countries. 

shanghai on the coast and all the heads of the Chinese  national government were shattered to protons kuz they had not bothered to enter the bomb shelter. correctly understood Biden who felt immoral  to use nuclear  weapons.

the 40 largest cities in china hold barely 20% of population so almost 900 million remained. with beijing flattened like a shallow plate and no communist leaders the remaining 900 decided to arrange options for a multi-party election for the first time since communism started. a communist party was allowed in case people  wanted that but also others. for the first time since communism started in china people had options besides communist. most chose the descendant of an emperor  so he won based on 63% of votes. only 2% wanted communism and the other votes were scattered to small paties. any with less than ten percent were declared illegal including communism. i had rescued china from communism.

meanwhile all 7 cities, including the 5 murder city, Chicago, new York city,  Philadelphia, Baltimore and Houston were incinerated by atom bombs. only the jet over Washington was warned not to use sidewinders. the f16 zipd up to intercept and fired radar fuided missiles at the 3 approaching missiles. sadly even radar guidance failed due to the high speed, and only one was destroyed. two detonated over Washington and although they were over the residential areas the blazes extended and melted the statue of lincoln and blasted the obelisk monument into the white house wall. which was beyond the range of the 30 kiloton bombs.

biden and harris returned to the white house and announced  we are morally holy we will not use atom bombs on cities.

needless to say based on that policy i did not "restock" since we would not shoot anyway.

the few pictures of missiles llaunched from the coast of la were "fake news" the only real news was that 63% of chinese wanted the anti-abortion group. to prevent abortion anybody requesting an abortion would be imprisoned until birth to save the fetus and the parents punished for  request. also after first birth every woman was operated to remove ovaries and egg cells to prevent abortion. 

both sides of Washington were burnt and the monument obelisk crashed thru a wall in the white house. so biden moved to a temporary bunker until it was rebuilt. when people criticized him for not retaliating biden explained "at least i am not a mass murderer". 

when the AUTHOR  of this story completed it, he decided and actually threw the only manuscript of this story into a fire. and he never wrote another copy until his death, nor told this story verbally to anybody... including myself!