1 first day in pre-school
most days in preschool were the same repetition but there were a few unique moments that stand out
for example the first day-- mostly boring but unique-- i must have been ALMOST 3 years old. pa was at his job so ma escorted me to the first day we walked up the steps and i was surprised by the shiny railing it was so shiny i had never seen metal like that. and then i had to meet the children.
i was feeling special about the shiny railing that was the feeling it was shiny and smooth and rouned like a shiny pipe.
not feeling scare of the new place nor crying that i do not want to be there. later i would complain about school but not that day.
i met a really nice girl there. at nap-time i felt that my pillow was scratchy and this young girl offered to trade pillows so i was so impressed.
then there was the brat who grabbed one of my things and threw it out the window. there was the day i watched water- which we all know falls as rain climbed UP the inside of celery... wow but most of the days were same repetitive. i learned how to read english and hebrew and also heard bible stories.
ah the first time i realized i was shy.
i do not remember if there were many days of exercise in bathing-suits but just one day when i felt shy.
i was too shy to change into a bathing suit... everyone else had changed but i was too shy expalining i do not want the girls to see me in bathing pants.
now lets get exciting.
2 my first day at religious school.
many kids are age six in first grade but i would notice later i was the youngest in my class. as i entered "pre-first" a fancy name for preschool [i must have been ALMOST 4th birthday in 1979] the teacher gave us 2 religious books to read from. but WHAT were those books? i did not have the words to ask that i did not undersatand "who decided the things printed in them? who chose the contents and why those contents?
i asked the religious teacher what is the bible? he refused to give any description. is it stories to teach a lesson? is it scientific fact? he wouldnot say either way... first graders cannot EVALUATE "god said to moses" how would you check if that was true or not....
how about a great interesting topic which people refuse to write about.
did you know young boys have "erection" even before they are sexualy mature?
at around age 9 i would put on pjamas and brush my teeth and as soon as i lay in bed like a "pop-up" book the male finger pointed up. why? i did not understand but i did feel the urge to squeeze and "press back on the pressure.
my nature was "the wife must sit on top during coitus" but somehow i knew that the man must be on top.... at age nine?
so boring how about the day i tried to seduce an older sister.? no names.
i told her that i can "stay hard" longer than boys her age AND with no risk of pregnancy...
she ran out of the room in horror and i am shocked i knew that stuff so young but i did stay hard very long and much longer than my own abilities later in life...
eventually one night she heard me rolling around in bed. i did not know this would be a change in direction.
the following evening she brought a friend over to "do homework and sleep over". as usual i was on my back "pressing back" on the pressure... when i heard a sound by my door a froze but it was too late she had heard me awake and crawled on the floor to my metal bed. she whispered my name "tal" and i asked who is that... i thought it was my sister [fixed in editing] but the voice was different. she said a girls name which i do not recall. [i thought it was my sister but ignored the idea of incest]. the girl whispered i should extend my hand so i did she pushed my hand on her shirt covering a spongy soft breast. and explained this is called a boob. then she said i accept your offer [convincing me she was the sister whom i had tried to seduce- despite the different voice i thought due to whispering] i said lets try this so she climbed into my metal bed...
**beside me
then she suggested that her body was bigger so i should be on top but i insisted i enjoyed on my back more. she whispered that she was scared to touch so first we explored each other i felt under her long shirt-gown... her legs which she had not shaved and had long hairs far apart and continued up to where a boys male finger would be and i felt... only smooth stomach. i moved my fingers in small circles around her stomach back towards the legs and felt smooth stomach lower and lower until she sighed! wow i was good!
finally i found the place which i like to call "the man-hole' which matures from a small hole not a man hole until around age 18 when she grows... enuf...
at around 18 the hole is big enuf to finally be the size of a manhole when the teenager grows. her skin was very smooth and no hair in contrast to her legs and hips.
i felt soft skin and finally after discovering girls had no holes in the "front" tried between legs and found more smooth skin and a soft smooth slot. no hairs there.
i froze not sure what to do. she said "its okay put your finger in so i inserted my finger and felt around the inside was moist like the inside of a mouth and i could slide my finger all aroundd the inside then she asked if i was ready to insert my "rekshin" so i responded i wanted her to sit on it. in the dark room with only a bit of light from window she slid her hand along my shirt down to the pants and asked why pants on? i said the "rekshin' is already up and out.
her hand slid nearer to the flap of the pajama and indeed found it was up and ready. she rolled over from beside me apparently sitting on her knees and lowered herself onto the rekshin. then she slowly slid up and down and i lost track of time soon she was moving very fast and finally i felt a pinch from her inside and she sighed again.
next she rolled to the side and handed me a towel while she toweled herself dry.
my sister brought many friends to do homework but whomever... perhaps several had pleasure. it was so good "she" came back often. i enjoyed it because i was rubbing anyway and she must have enjoyed it because she came almost every week. until my parents said i would move to a dormitory.
NO WAY that i would lose this pleasure i intentionally failed my entrance exam to have another year at home with "her" at night was it my sister? or one of her "horny" friends or probably and more plausibly several. so now you know why i argued with the rabbi and wasnot accepted in 8 grade until 9 grade... [the neighbor on saturday in the next post.]
another interesting story is one boy named raymond [fake] he slept over on a weekend and said he could hypnotize me. i asked "if you could hypnotize me what would you do? he said he would tell me to uncover my genitals. so i lied that "i do not want you to see it but try to hypnotize me and see if you succeed"
after three minutes staring into his eyes ray asked me to uncover genitals and with experience "behind me" with at least one girl i wasnot shy. i did and as soon as that thing felt air "pop-up" book style and he did something really unique he pushed the male finger forward and it sprung back like a spring and vibrated that was amazing feelings... if he was an adult that would be considered a crime but he was my age. i guess he felt guilty and confessed to his parents and they never let him sleep at my house after that. but i had "her" almost every week from around age 8 "et" years until i moved to a dormitory school and...
met an older girl who said "you are cute" perhaps next episode.
Saturday, September 29, 2018
introduction "frozen" 2013
the amazing story and wonderful songs in the successful video "frozen" truly deserve praise and an introduction too.
the story begins with working in the ice and the warning ICE IS COLD AND DANGEROUS.
we meet a child who will be an important character later.
next we meet elsa who has super-human abilities to form ice- i interpret she changes the moisture naturally in all air into ice.
the story does not tell why elsa is different from other children and who is her parnts? are they the king and queen who who bring the sick anna to be healed?
i suggest an introductory legend.
THE LEGEND OF IDA
a poor farmer and his wife lived on the lords farm. they worked his land and served his needs the same as their parents had. the farmer was named lablin and his wife was named mea'or. as is common for parents meaor was swelling with pregnancy because a baby was growing inside of her. she complained that she looked fat but the other women scolded her that a baby is much better than extra fat. they urged her to eat more for the sake of the growing baby and not ry to get thinner because a baby is good and a baby is not fat.
[see post on this isssue a few months ago] her husband lablin was very lazy and was constantly getting whipped for not working in the farm.
lablin was worried that when his wife meaor would have the child then the baby would cry all night long and he would not be able to sleep.
he urged his wife to go to a doctor to killl the fetus before it was born. but she insisted that she must grow a family. the summer faded and the cold days arrived. a baby girl was born and the parents agrreed to name her IDA.
from the first moment ida cried like all babies.
she cried when she was wet she cried when she was hungry and she even cried when she was bored too. she cried during the day and the worst for her dad she cried at night.
dad was tired fomworking in the farm all day but soon after falling asleep the infants wailing woke him. he nudged his wife to go feed her... and silence the crying but mom said she might be wet go and wipe her dry.
lablin wanted to sleep and felt so tired and frustrated that he carried the new born baby out of the small room that they lived in. he left the land of the lord and wandered into the forest. ida howled but soon he was far from the other people.
he lay the newborn infant in the snow far from the lands of the lord and walked away smiling as the sound of her crying faded with distance and the howl of the winter wind was strong enuf to hide the cries.
now he would sleep in peace.
in the time it took to walk back to the farmland of the lord the baby was almost completely cold. the tears in her eyes were already solid like the unmelting snow piled around her.
then one of many demons poured his power into the baby and said i will use you for my evil plan. with this power the cold would not disturb her because she would be ice herself.
the demon named her debra and marked the name debra on the back of the baby girls neck.
then he carried the girl to the palace of king errik. the wicked and sinister demon swapped the infant girl with the two year old son of king eric.... who wwould be the one to inherit the throne. the demon took the son far away to a city near the po river.
debra the newborn infant cried because she was hungry and wet. the palace servants hurried to the room of the "criown-prince" and were shocked to hear the sobbing of an infant girl instead of the two-year old prince who usualy slept througgh the night,
they were horrified that the gods had changed the son into aan infant.
well he must be cleaned and as they removed the infants clothes they discovered that the infant was a goirl... the horror what evil to chane a two year old boy into a newborn girl! surely a dreadful withc nmust have done this.
the servants warmed cow milk and fed the baby girl but when the sppoon of warm miljk touched the babies lips it changed solifd like ice and the baby swallowe dit whole like a chink.
the next morning the servants told the queen that the crown prince had been changed by a witch into a newborn girl. feeling powerless the king named her ELSA and they instructed the maids of the palace to work hard to raise her as the crown princess because as born male he must be the next king even if now his body is girls. the maids nboticed the name debra marked on her neck but the king and queen had chosen the name elsa.
a few years later aanother hcild was born and the king hoped this would be a son so i man would take his place but to his chagrin this was a daughter who his wife named anna.
anna loved to plat with her older sister who had power to change the natural moistuure in the air into plentiful solid ice... until one night when anna could not sleep she awoke and went to elsa and asked her to play with the ice.... and the story continues as toild in th video "frozen" 2013 the demon was successfil preventing the first born son from being king in place of eric as the demon had wanted.
POST-LOGUE- the son turned out to be very angry and impatient and led some people in the region of the po river to a reckless battle in which he and his soldiers were butchered by the defenders.
the story begins with working in the ice and the warning ICE IS COLD AND DANGEROUS.
we meet a child who will be an important character later.
next we meet elsa who has super-human abilities to form ice- i interpret she changes the moisture naturally in all air into ice.
the story does not tell why elsa is different from other children and who is her parnts? are they the king and queen who who bring the sick anna to be healed?
i suggest an introductory legend.
THE LEGEND OF IDA
a poor farmer and his wife lived on the lords farm. they worked his land and served his needs the same as their parents had. the farmer was named lablin and his wife was named mea'or. as is common for parents meaor was swelling with pregnancy because a baby was growing inside of her. she complained that she looked fat but the other women scolded her that a baby is much better than extra fat. they urged her to eat more for the sake of the growing baby and not ry to get thinner because a baby is good and a baby is not fat.
[see post on this isssue a few months ago] her husband lablin was very lazy and was constantly getting whipped for not working in the farm.
lablin was worried that when his wife meaor would have the child then the baby would cry all night long and he would not be able to sleep.
he urged his wife to go to a doctor to killl the fetus before it was born. but she insisted that she must grow a family. the summer faded and the cold days arrived. a baby girl was born and the parents agrreed to name her IDA.
from the first moment ida cried like all babies.
she cried when she was wet she cried when she was hungry and she even cried when she was bored too. she cried during the day and the worst for her dad she cried at night.
dad was tired fomworking in the farm all day but soon after falling asleep the infants wailing woke him. he nudged his wife to go feed her... and silence the crying but mom said she might be wet go and wipe her dry.
lablin wanted to sleep and felt so tired and frustrated that he carried the new born baby out of the small room that they lived in. he left the land of the lord and wandered into the forest. ida howled but soon he was far from the other people.
he lay the newborn infant in the snow far from the lands of the lord and walked away smiling as the sound of her crying faded with distance and the howl of the winter wind was strong enuf to hide the cries.
now he would sleep in peace.
in the time it took to walk back to the farmland of the lord the baby was almost completely cold. the tears in her eyes were already solid like the unmelting snow piled around her.
then one of many demons poured his power into the baby and said i will use you for my evil plan. with this power the cold would not disturb her because she would be ice herself.
the demon named her debra and marked the name debra on the back of the baby girls neck.
then he carried the girl to the palace of king errik. the wicked and sinister demon swapped the infant girl with the two year old son of king eric.... who wwould be the one to inherit the throne. the demon took the son far away to a city near the po river.
debra the newborn infant cried because she was hungry and wet. the palace servants hurried to the room of the "criown-prince" and were shocked to hear the sobbing of an infant girl instead of the two-year old prince who usualy slept througgh the night,
they were horrified that the gods had changed the son into aan infant.
well he must be cleaned and as they removed the infants clothes they discovered that the infant was a goirl... the horror what evil to chane a two year old boy into a newborn girl! surely a dreadful withc nmust have done this.
the servants warmed cow milk and fed the baby girl but when the sppoon of warm miljk touched the babies lips it changed solifd like ice and the baby swallowe dit whole like a chink.
the next morning the servants told the queen that the crown prince had been changed by a witch into a newborn girl. feeling powerless the king named her ELSA and they instructed the maids of the palace to work hard to raise her as the crown princess because as born male he must be the next king even if now his body is girls. the maids nboticed the name debra marked on her neck but the king and queen had chosen the name elsa.
a few years later aanother hcild was born and the king hoped this would be a son so i man would take his place but to his chagrin this was a daughter who his wife named anna.
anna loved to plat with her older sister who had power to change the natural moistuure in the air into plentiful solid ice... until one night when anna could not sleep she awoke and went to elsa and asked her to play with the ice.... and the story continues as toild in th video "frozen" 2013 the demon was successfil preventing the first born son from being king in place of eric as the demon had wanted.
POST-LOGUE- the son turned out to be very angry and impatient and led some people in the region of the po river to a reckless battle in which he and his soldiers were butchered by the defenders.
Friday, September 28, 2018
introduction: "the bad news bears" 1976
when i was a kid i wanted to to see the video "bad news bears" about baseball! i could not. so now i read a summary and disover it was a three part series.
i feel that summary is in a bad order. instead i changed the order of the summary and all the details are already in the video not mine.
disclaimer: the ideas are already in the video, not mine altho i added my "interpretation" based on the events which might be wrong because i did not see the video but i only read a bad summary.
title: "bad news bears" 1/3 [first "third" of the series before second third in 1977 and final 1978. later in 2005 another version was published], 1976
introd. the BEARS is a new team added to the youth league [leag]. a lawsuit forced the leag to allow weak players. hence the kids who were rejected from other teams, are assigned to the bears. some are: a near-sighted kid who wanted to be a pitcher, an overweight kid who cannot run but could be a catcher, a dreamy fan of Hank Aaron and more. the new team's coach is Morris Buttermaker=b (Walter Matthau) who was a minor-league baseball player.
The bears play the opening game. they cannot even achieve one "out". when the score reaches 26 to 0 coach b forfeits the game.
coach b recruits 12-year-old Amanda Whurlizer (Tatum O'Neal), who does not want to play. he wants her because she is a skilled pitcher who he trained before she quit. the Bears start winning games and even reach the league-championship game. they will face Yankees, coached by aggressive, overly-competitive Roy Turner (Vic Morrow). tat will be a challenging game. can they beat the yankees?
SPOILER ALERT
a summary of the championship game and the conclusion, for those who LIKE MYSELF, cannot rent the video.
spoilers: coach t shouts directing his team that they should have "no mercy" so one yankees batter moves to get hit by the ball, [for going to first base]. later the yankees are in the field. Joey [Turner's son] is Yankees pitcher. coach T orders his son to "walk" the Bears best hitter, to prevent a good hit and limit only first base. Joey wants to try "strike-out" with good pitches. first Joey obeys with a bad pitch near Engelberg's face. coach Turner goes to the mound and slaps his son for being hazardous. [this is bad he should have punished his son differently and also swapped pitchers.]
next Joey has a new revenge he pitches a good one and Engelberg hits a "ground ball." it rolls back to Joey. he holds it, instead of throwing it to the base-men as revenge against his father's slap. Engelberg has time to run all around to score home-run.
Joey walks to his pa and drops the ball at pa's feet.
coach b is now less pressured because the good yankee's pitcher left and also the bears have a point. he swaps players giving everyone a chance to play. they work as a team keeping the yankees at 7 points and even reach 3 points.
the new yankees pitcher walks 2 bears. with the score 7 to 3 the next player "loads the bases" with a smart tactic: a bunt. if the BEARS get a home-run now they would be tying a four point difference 7-7.
the batter hits far and the bears run... scoring a point, then another... then a third and... the last runner [who was this hitter] gets "out". this ends the game. final score yankees 7 to 6.
conclusion: coach Buttermaker tells them they had a great season and that they can spray each other with his beers. The Bears cheer. even Lupus overcomes his chronic shyness enough to yell at the winners "Wait 'til next year!".
the bears shake the cans and spray beers on each other. this celebration is as great as if they won the championship game.
i feel that summary is in a bad order. instead i changed the order of the summary and all the details are already in the video not mine.
disclaimer: the ideas are already in the video, not mine altho i added my "interpretation" based on the events which might be wrong because i did not see the video but i only read a bad summary.
title: "bad news bears" 1/3 [first "third" of the series before second third in 1977 and final 1978. later in 2005 another version was published], 1976
introd. the BEARS is a new team added to the youth league [leag]. a lawsuit forced the leag to allow weak players. hence the kids who were rejected from other teams, are assigned to the bears. some are: a near-sighted kid who wanted to be a pitcher, an overweight kid who cannot run but could be a catcher, a dreamy fan of Hank Aaron and more. the new team's coach is Morris Buttermaker=b (Walter Matthau) who was a minor-league baseball player.
The bears play the opening game. they cannot even achieve one "out". when the score reaches 26 to 0 coach b forfeits the game.
coach b recruits 12-year-old Amanda Whurlizer (Tatum O'Neal), who does not want to play. he wants her because she is a skilled pitcher who he trained before she quit. the Bears start winning games and even reach the league-championship game. they will face Yankees, coached by aggressive, overly-competitive Roy Turner (Vic Morrow). tat will be a challenging game. can they beat the yankees?
SPOILER ALERT
a summary of the championship game and the conclusion, for those who LIKE MYSELF, cannot rent the video.
spoilers: coach t shouts directing his team that they should have "no mercy" so one yankees batter moves to get hit by the ball, [for going to first base]. later the yankees are in the field. Joey [Turner's son] is Yankees pitcher. coach T orders his son to "walk" the Bears best hitter, to prevent a good hit and limit only first base. Joey wants to try "strike-out" with good pitches. first Joey obeys with a bad pitch near Engelberg's face. coach Turner goes to the mound and slaps his son for being hazardous. [this is bad he should have punished his son differently and also swapped pitchers.]
next Joey has a new revenge he pitches a good one and Engelberg hits a "ground ball." it rolls back to Joey. he holds it, instead of throwing it to the base-men as revenge against his father's slap. Engelberg has time to run all around to score home-run.
Joey walks to his pa and drops the ball at pa's feet.
coach b is now less pressured because the good yankee's pitcher left and also the bears have a point. he swaps players giving everyone a chance to play. they work as a team keeping the yankees at 7 points and even reach 3 points.
the new yankees pitcher walks 2 bears. with the score 7 to 3 the next player "loads the bases" with a smart tactic: a bunt. if the BEARS get a home-run now they would be tying a four point difference 7-7.
the batter hits far and the bears run... scoring a point, then another... then a third and... the last runner [who was this hitter] gets "out". this ends the game. final score yankees 7 to 6.
conclusion: coach Buttermaker tells them they had a great season and that they can spray each other with his beers. The Bears cheer. even Lupus overcomes his chronic shyness enough to yell at the winners "Wait 'til next year!".
the bears shake the cans and spray beers on each other. this celebration is as great as if they won the championship game.
Wednesday, September 26, 2018
do you notice the pattern?
the pattern of "democrat" political party.
do you notice the pattern?
whenever the democratic people do not want a man to get a certain job first they try "due process" when they see that is not keeping trump and kavaniughh away-
they do what they hoped they would not have to do- bring a loyal woman who never ever accused trump or kavanaugh in the past... who will speak for the political purpose and say accusations with no pictures and only the political context... to accuse them, clealry based on the contyext only political desparation to prevent trump and kavanuogh as we see the pattern of trumps election and now kavanaugh.
we must punish the democrats for using such methods and recognize how evil they are. i mean if it were not a lie why did the girl not complain within a year? instead the CONTEXT is purely political and we must not only ignore the accusers and those but also harshly punish the accusers based on the political context. instead the republicans are accomdating "as if they are not saying political lies' those women alll deserve punishmant for politicaly motibated character accusations.
do you notice the pattern?
whenever the democratic people do not want a man to get a certain job first they try "due process" when they see that is not keeping trump and kavaniughh away-
they do what they hoped they would not have to do- bring a loyal woman who never ever accused trump or kavanaugh in the past... who will speak for the political purpose and say accusations with no pictures and only the political context... to accuse them, clealry based on the contyext only political desparation to prevent trump and kavanuogh as we see the pattern of trumps election and now kavanaugh.
we must punish the democrats for using such methods and recognize how evil they are. i mean if it were not a lie why did the girl not complain within a year? instead the CONTEXT is purely political and we must not only ignore the accusers and those but also harshly punish the accusers based on the political context. instead the republicans are accomdating "as if they are not saying political lies' those women alll deserve punishmant for politicaly motibated character accusations.
dear diary
some fun parts from my autobiography now that enuf time has passed that nobody remembers who i emt.
dear diary
i recall the afternoon when my mom gave me a diary to write in she wanted me to write my feelings
but iu was not 'born yesterday" and i knew her sick personality so the first hing i did was ask her if it was "private and as expected she lied that it would be secret i could write any secrte so iasked do you promise not to read it? and she promised not tp read it? do you trust her? adults lie all the time sucker.
so i had to decide what i should write to cathc her reading it
as soon as i write th eltter i ma was back in the room pestering me to write something "i am" so "let me see it" but you promised not to read it at that moment i felt like i hated her so i wrote "today i feell like i hate my mother". then i hid it under the mattress.
at dinner mom said "i am so angry at you for hating me.... now you know she is a liar she promoised not to read it.
did i say i hated you/ --"i have proof in writing"== after you promised not tpo readit and lied you deserve more than hate.
she ran out of the room and dad punished me for "makming ma cry' he would have hit me too... except the last time my parents hit me i wentto a neighcbors house and called the police on them and they were arrested and questioned and warned that i would go to a foster home.
so i vhave many gret stories to write in a diary and some worth sharing unlike a diatry but like an auto biography simply because i had such gross parents.
so here is an excitindg story
around age 16 years i started feeling very strong urges for sex. i was signifacant;ly ;ater than the boys around me some homosexual who invited me to join the gay club but i was not interessted in sex yet.
now around age 16 or 15 the bulge in my pants was almost constant and i could not concentrate on school studies so i would walk around pacing trying to calm down and everyone around me saw the bulge in the pants.
one afternoon a young boy perhaps age 9 came to watch because he had heard about the sight to see.
he sent a friend to call me tp meet him on the steps. as i turned the corner to go down some stairs he leaned his hands upwards with just a few inches between then about an inch from either side of my fly. the pressure felyt AMAXZING i wanted so badly tp squeeze with my own hands but thought that was bad so now i had some counterpressure and it dfelt sp good.
i told him my name and what city i was from [i grew up in new yrk city] and he made small talk like his name was peter [fake] until the sensation calmed and then he offfred me the deal of the cuentury
if i would let him put his male finger in my backdoor he would give me a twenty dollar bill of his birthday i rplied i do not need money and that sounds weird.
but fate had a plan my roommate raided my briefs drawer and was shocked thgat my size was so mucg smaller than his.
one fateful evening after the dormitory dinner of chicken nad boiled peas a boy said that my roomamte from park heights [fake] wanted to meet me in the dorm room for a fun social freindship.
so i walked from the "mess hall" to the dorm and as i opened the door my roomamte grabbed my shoulders adn spun me so i fell onto his bed with my shoulders pinned and announced lets wrestle.
"no i dont want to wrestle get off of me" i protested and he did he flipped me over so i piinned his shoulder and then pointed out that he saw that my bried size was 32 which was odd considering i was not skinny and his were 38. and he was skinny i was mad that he went throuhgh the drawer but the fact was he felt i should buy bigger size briefs.
but i would need money suddenly the 20 dollar bill was just what i bneeed.
suddenly his arms slid from my shoulders down the sides of my shirt and towards my hips i leaped backward off him and said i am not ready for that now. i offered to meet him in the shower during hoemwork time.
skip ahead to the youth.
the next afternoon i searched for the nine yearold and named peter [fake] and said i will not accept cash but if he would go woith me and pay for the underwear i would let him insert for sixty seconds on the clock.
that night wwalked together off campus to the suit shop and i bought the mens small size of briefs many sizes larger than the timy briefs my parents had bought for me only because they had to...
the kid paid with his birthday present and i was tempted to say 'i tricked you" biut i was actually curious to see if he would realy do it.
so we went to the mall toilets and he stood on the toilet and opened his pants and took a "wipe" from his backpack and said clean his male finger. i said i am scared to touch it soi you clean it. so i watched him wipe from all sides and was syurprised that it stayed soft. my own finger was bulging. apparently because my briefs were to small and were pressing too much. then he said time to clean you and i faced my back to the 9 year old and he reached around from both sides to unbuckle my belt and open the button and zipper. then he slid the pants down my hips nad and slowlslid his hands up my hips
next he grasped the waistband and rolled it down my hips and said lean forward.
he reached in with the "wet wiper" and rubbed many times around the back door.
nexyt he put oil around it and that felt slimy and finally his soft male finger leaned against the rounded right side of my back as he leaned the pressure made his male finger swell and harder with his other hand he spread oil on my male finger i almost forgot to count the sixty seconds. as he slid his oiled ale figer in the back door slowly slding inward and at the same rate sliding his finger along my own extended male finger once he was fully inside he honestly beeped his watch for the sixty second timer and began sliding back and forth as he moved away hsi hand slid in teh same direction towards my stomach and then he leaned forward and his finger slid forward i felt so much p;leasure i lost track of time but soon he pulled out and it was time fr cleanup. he announced his surprise that no milk came out of me. said we need to meet again o he can milk me. he used the wet wipees to clean the oil from my back door and others o claen his male finger. thejn he held the new briefs and i stepped into them and slid them up they were much roomier stupuid parent buying me the wrong size underwaera if not for gay teenagers i would never have thought to buy a bigger size but more stories will follow if i have time to type now that twenty tears passed and nobody knows who those people are. to be continued when i get a chance.
dear diary
i recall the afternoon when my mom gave me a diary to write in she wanted me to write my feelings
but iu was not 'born yesterday" and i knew her sick personality so the first hing i did was ask her if it was "private and as expected she lied that it would be secret i could write any secrte so iasked do you promise not to read it? and she promised not tp read it? do you trust her? adults lie all the time sucker.
so i had to decide what i should write to cathc her reading it
as soon as i write th eltter i ma was back in the room pestering me to write something "i am" so "let me see it" but you promised not to read it at that moment i felt like i hated her so i wrote "today i feell like i hate my mother". then i hid it under the mattress.
at dinner mom said "i am so angry at you for hating me.... now you know she is a liar she promoised not to read it.
did i say i hated you/ --"i have proof in writing"== after you promised not tpo readit and lied you deserve more than hate.
she ran out of the room and dad punished me for "makming ma cry' he would have hit me too... except the last time my parents hit me i wentto a neighcbors house and called the police on them and they were arrested and questioned and warned that i would go to a foster home.
so i vhave many gret stories to write in a diary and some worth sharing unlike a diatry but like an auto biography simply because i had such gross parents.
so here is an excitindg story
around age 16 years i started feeling very strong urges for sex. i was signifacant;ly ;ater than the boys around me some homosexual who invited me to join the gay club but i was not interessted in sex yet.
now around age 16 or 15 the bulge in my pants was almost constant and i could not concentrate on school studies so i would walk around pacing trying to calm down and everyone around me saw the bulge in the pants.
one afternoon a young boy perhaps age 9 came to watch because he had heard about the sight to see.
he sent a friend to call me tp meet him on the steps. as i turned the corner to go down some stairs he leaned his hands upwards with just a few inches between then about an inch from either side of my fly. the pressure felyt AMAXZING i wanted so badly tp squeeze with my own hands but thought that was bad so now i had some counterpressure and it dfelt sp good.
i told him my name and what city i was from [i grew up in new yrk city] and he made small talk like his name was peter [fake] until the sensation calmed and then he offfred me the deal of the cuentury
if i would let him put his male finger in my backdoor he would give me a twenty dollar bill of his birthday i rplied i do not need money and that sounds weird.
but fate had a plan my roommate raided my briefs drawer and was shocked thgat my size was so mucg smaller than his.
one fateful evening after the dormitory dinner of chicken nad boiled peas a boy said that my roomamte from park heights [fake] wanted to meet me in the dorm room for a fun social freindship.
so i walked from the "mess hall" to the dorm and as i opened the door my roomamte grabbed my shoulders adn spun me so i fell onto his bed with my shoulders pinned and announced lets wrestle.
"no i dont want to wrestle get off of me" i protested and he did he flipped me over so i piinned his shoulder and then pointed out that he saw that my bried size was 32 which was odd considering i was not skinny and his were 38. and he was skinny i was mad that he went throuhgh the drawer but the fact was he felt i should buy bigger size briefs.
but i would need money suddenly the 20 dollar bill was just what i bneeed.
suddenly his arms slid from my shoulders down the sides of my shirt and towards my hips i leaped backward off him and said i am not ready for that now. i offered to meet him in the shower during hoemwork time.
skip ahead to the youth.
the next afternoon i searched for the nine yearold and named peter [fake] and said i will not accept cash but if he would go woith me and pay for the underwear i would let him insert for sixty seconds on the clock.
that night wwalked together off campus to the suit shop and i bought the mens small size of briefs many sizes larger than the timy briefs my parents had bought for me only because they had to...
the kid paid with his birthday present and i was tempted to say 'i tricked you" biut i was actually curious to see if he would realy do it.
so we went to the mall toilets and he stood on the toilet and opened his pants and took a "wipe" from his backpack and said clean his male finger. i said i am scared to touch it soi you clean it. so i watched him wipe from all sides and was syurprised that it stayed soft. my own finger was bulging. apparently because my briefs were to small and were pressing too much. then he said time to clean you and i faced my back to the 9 year old and he reached around from both sides to unbuckle my belt and open the button and zipper. then he slid the pants down my hips nad and slowlslid his hands up my hips
next he grasped the waistband and rolled it down my hips and said lean forward.
he reached in with the "wet wiper" and rubbed many times around the back door.
nexyt he put oil around it and that felt slimy and finally his soft male finger leaned against the rounded right side of my back as he leaned the pressure made his male finger swell and harder with his other hand he spread oil on my male finger i almost forgot to count the sixty seconds. as he slid his oiled ale figer in the back door slowly slding inward and at the same rate sliding his finger along my own extended male finger once he was fully inside he honestly beeped his watch for the sixty second timer and began sliding back and forth as he moved away hsi hand slid in teh same direction towards my stomach and then he leaned forward and his finger slid forward i felt so much p;leasure i lost track of time but soon he pulled out and it was time fr cleanup. he announced his surprise that no milk came out of me. said we need to meet again o he can milk me. he used the wet wipees to clean the oil from my back door and others o claen his male finger. thejn he held the new briefs and i stepped into them and slid them up they were much roomier stupuid parent buying me the wrong size underwaera if not for gay teenagers i would never have thought to buy a bigger size but more stories will follow if i have time to type now that twenty tears passed and nobody knows who those people are. to be continued when i get a chance.
Monday, September 24, 2018
what idea is "god"
in christianity god is the one who can clean sins and because we need that therefore we need god.
there are other ideas of god bot those ideas are easily refuted.
primitive humans thought that "lightning" happens because the god of lightning caused it. or the jews even today say the primitive "benediction" thank you god for for making the fruit of the tree or fruit of the land so primitive they did not know about "cells" but we do the difference between "dead grass" and a tree that gives fruit is the the tree is ACTIVE the cells of the tree are active building stuiff and thta makes the fruit- there is "nothing for a god to do" because the cell is doing it,
in fact the human farmer that waters teh plants and connects the river to the field with irrigation is the one causing it tp grow not god and we can prove that because if we do not irrigate or give the wrong aount of water the plant does and god does not make the plant grow when we put too much or too little water-
after this anal;uysis we see that the jewish idea of god is certainly wrong.
the dictionary said that "god is supernatral" so how would we test if that supernatural being is real? if we cannot est tthen it is as imaginary as the tooth fairy.
some people say it is "low probability" that chemicals could attacjh and form life- that is like saying "i d o not know how so the mystery of lightning proves the god of lithning and thunderbolts" yet when we consider the propbability of number on diece altho EACH number is low probability one in six for each number yet still CERTAINLY one of the possibilities will happen... one of the numbers will show
i only need MANYdice roles to show ALL numbers but still it is possible that the first role will be the one which is desirable
so when people say we neem "millions of years of evolution" that is false we only need mullions of years for ALL COMBINATIONS yet still the desirable combination possibly is teh first one.... i only need many attempts to show all the number of the dice however still if the number 3 is the one desired three dots it is possible that 3 is the forst one shown on the first attempt so the first moment it is possinble the chemeicals assembled into life the same as it is possible that the first attempt in dice is the desred one and that started cellls which are active as above and the cell builds itself there is nothing for god to do in nature so god is defined as supernatural but that is as imaginary as fairies
religious books say "if you sin it will not rain" that is atest- people sin and rain does fall proving the bioook is wrong.... so waht remains? ONLY the chrisytian idea of god remains that god cleans sin and since we need that we do not want to reject it.
the other ideas of god are easily refurted a natural god is nonexistent because the farmer does the action or the cell does the action. a supernatural god as descrivbed ni nenglish dictionary is as imaginary as fairies and dangerous dracula- do you hang garlic on oyour door to protect you from dangerous dracula? you cannot prove he does not exist so hang that garlic... only one idea of god remains the one which cleans sins and christianity wins.
truly the most poipulous religion on the plante is christianity because it is the only one which is "solid logic:".
there are other ideas of god bot those ideas are easily refuted.
primitive humans thought that "lightning" happens because the god of lightning caused it. or the jews even today say the primitive "benediction" thank you god for for making the fruit of the tree or fruit of the land so primitive they did not know about "cells" but we do the difference between "dead grass" and a tree that gives fruit is the the tree is ACTIVE the cells of the tree are active building stuiff and thta makes the fruit- there is "nothing for a god to do" because the cell is doing it,
in fact the human farmer that waters teh plants and connects the river to the field with irrigation is the one causing it tp grow not god and we can prove that because if we do not irrigate or give the wrong aount of water the plant does and god does not make the plant grow when we put too much or too little water-
after this anal;uysis we see that the jewish idea of god is certainly wrong.
the dictionary said that "god is supernatral" so how would we test if that supernatural being is real? if we cannot est tthen it is as imaginary as the tooth fairy.
some people say it is "low probability" that chemicals could attacjh and form life- that is like saying "i d o not know how so the mystery of lightning proves the god of lithning and thunderbolts" yet when we consider the propbability of number on diece altho EACH number is low probability one in six for each number yet still CERTAINLY one of the possibilities will happen... one of the numbers will show
i only need MANYdice roles to show ALL numbers but still it is possible that the first role will be the one which is desirable
so when people say we neem "millions of years of evolution" that is false we only need mullions of years for ALL COMBINATIONS yet still the desirable combination possibly is teh first one.... i only need many attempts to show all the number of the dice however still if the number 3 is the one desired three dots it is possible that 3 is the forst one shown on the first attempt so the first moment it is possinble the chemeicals assembled into life the same as it is possible that the first attempt in dice is the desred one and that started cellls which are active as above and the cell builds itself there is nothing for god to do in nature so god is defined as supernatural but that is as imaginary as fairies
religious books say "if you sin it will not rain" that is atest- people sin and rain does fall proving the bioook is wrong.... so waht remains? ONLY the chrisytian idea of god remains that god cleans sin and since we need that we do not want to reject it.
the other ideas of god are easily refurted a natural god is nonexistent because the farmer does the action or the cell does the action. a supernatural god as descrivbed ni nenglish dictionary is as imaginary as fairies and dangerous dracula- do you hang garlic on oyour door to protect you from dangerous dracula? you cannot prove he does not exist so hang that garlic... only one idea of god remains the one which cleans sins and christianity wins.
truly the most poipulous religion on the plante is christianity because it is the only one which is "solid logic:".
Saturday, September 22, 2018
equinox and equa-nox
in Nature we know the cycle of shorter nights and longer nights-- as the length changes we reach a point when the length of night is EQUAL to the length of daytime. this occurs on different dates in different cities i call this event "natural equa-nox" [to distinguish from "equinox" which means something else and is correctly spelled with letter "i" and is usually taught as september 21] for me the letters "equa" in "natural equa-nox" represent the equal lengths of night and day.
I begin the list first with a location "very north from equator" and near the artificial dateline:
named: City of Shishmaref, Alaska, USA because it is very far north and very near the date-line.
we should consider the length of sun-time on date 24, 12 hours plus 3 minutes hence if we think of "equal" then the night-length before it, is the same length. [in contrast the length of the night following it, is less: 12.01 so not "equal"]
in other locations this event occurs on different dates but see end-note, later. other cities in abc order:
canada/ottawa december 25 day-length equals its following night
egypt/cairo [one of the most populous cities in the entire nile continent] date december 27, has day length 12 hours
israel/jerusalem, december 26, day-length equals its following night. similarly china/beijing december 26 day-length 12 hours and following night has length nearest in length.
south-africa/johannesburg december 18.
sri-lanka/colombo the natural eqau-nox is not until october 10 when night length is 12 hours and day length equal.
*note; near the equator is very different because near the equator almost the whole year is "exactly 12 hour days" with only a few minutes difference.
I begin the list first with a location "very north from equator" and near the artificial dateline:
named: City of Shishmaref, Alaska, USA because it is very far north and very near the date-line.
we should consider the length of sun-time on date 24, 12 hours plus 3 minutes hence if we think of "equal" then the night-length before it, is the same length. [in contrast the length of the night following it, is less: 12.01 so not "equal"]
in other locations this event occurs on different dates but see end-note, later. other cities in abc order:
canada/ottawa december 25 day-length equals its following night
egypt/cairo [one of the most populous cities in the entire nile continent] date december 27, has day length 12 hours
israel/jerusalem, december 26, day-length equals its following night. similarly china/beijing december 26 day-length 12 hours and following night has length nearest in length.
south-africa/johannesburg december 18.
sri-lanka/colombo the natural eqau-nox is not until october 10 when night length is 12 hours and day length equal.
*note; near the equator is very different because near the equator almost the whole year is "exactly 12 hour days" with only a few minutes difference.
Thursday, September 20, 2018
one combination for a game
although in past posts i described a game which adjusts the framework of "axis and alies" 1984=the one with the cool shaped pieces, there is another interesting combination. some details are the same as in that game but many need to be fixed like real war. for example when the soviets retreated they destroyed the stuff so the capturing forces would not get similarly the "money" of production potetntial should not be at the time of capturing but only at the start of the turn the places still controlled and buy immediately and the prices of that gam are good rifle 3 and tank 5 etc. except no battleships also the "probability' of dice and values i accept except bettleship so if soviets 14 they can buy build 4 rifles not the number i wrote below which is not realistoic jsut as a combination to comapre but those details price rate and probability seem good but the map and geography and potential i have tried to fix also the order should be objecuytive see below..
setting up
1 as the places see sun rise from coast of "whitney mountain region" long so marked "w.m." and westward which see sun rise later- that region has 2 RIFLE and one Plane. its pp=production potential same as fuji m.r. eight 8 pp. [in contrast to mississippi r.r. m.r. same as main river region ten pp.] its coast one transport marker which includes the few battleships there which are too few to deserve a marker. consider the game a-a if japan with twelve ba. only got 2 markers in game mentioned then each marker 6 so states not enuf for marker.
so only tr. there. north of it british yukon r.r. named b-yukon r.r. empty with pp1. states=s-yujon r.r. pp1 with one rifle.
this concludes the mississippi continent because the time represented in this combo is DECEMBER 10, year 1941 so then mexico and brazil were nutral until 1944 or later.
the transport needs to travel two steps to reach "loa" m.r. same as ship from tokyo to midway atoll. this corrects the unfair marking in the game mentioned because truly far and too far away to reach "wake" island.
the only submarine markers are 2 for nazi and one for soviets. see below even japan which is the only one which deserves a marker for battleships does not get any marker for battleships. setup does not include the "units" for production potential. instead at the start of each turn that moment the pp is given and spent together and almost no "money" is out of the "bank" piles.
loa m.r. has one rifle=r and one aircraft carrier with p on it. midway atoll has one r.
2 japan setup i will fioll in later but japans "turn" was to attack hawaii and altho i protested this choice in previous posts still in this combination begin the cycle by announcing "japan used its turn to attack loa m.r."
start of play the order would be japan first however since the date represented is december tenth beging play by announcing as above "japans turn was attacking loa m.r. and second is soviets.
the first phase of soviets is now get pp.
correcting the a-a- game and also previous suggestions soviets should get 14pp.
because one region muscva r.r. industruailized pp8 and ob rr pp2 and s-amur r.r. 1 each area of australie besides not on map north russia pp-zero.
soviet itself is almost empty ice so 8+2+1=11 plus potential from china conditionally because nearby. the troop movements in china are the trune of soviets and the pp is conditional se below.
the playing begins by announcing "japan was first its turn was to attack loa m-r as above and second is soviet
soviet gets 8+2+1+2+1=14. in this combination they could build two tanks 6 units each or seven RIFLES each 2 units so 2*7.
in thsi combination soviets build 7 cheap rifles. spend all 14 pp.
desperate to protect capital city no battles in east. to simplify no "technology development only first phase get money and with it spend to build but do not place until built at end of turn and only in capital city so no factory marker uunless built in other region for price of bomber 16 units.
attack phase in this combination soviet will use its two p. and t and 3r in muscva r-r to attack neighbor adjacent dnepr r-r.
units rifle=r, tank=t, plane=p. bomber=b. transport=tr submarine=s. aircraft carrier=a. no ba as above.
defender is balanced 3r face 3r amd t faces t but 2p soviet ounumber nazi p in dnepr r-r.
muscva r-r is from caspian sea to north coast including baltic coast in one region area of australia. 7.7 million square kilometers and moscow near dneiper river as above adjacent fixing unjust game more regions and unjustly more rifles because truly balanced so 3r+ for each. and nazi one plane facing 2p of soviets.
first attack from east part china? rifle not likely to succeed and weaker offense like a-a game attack 1/6 but defend 2/6 so better to save for defence than risk the better defense of japs so no attack in east neaithr chang r-r nor amur r-r/
attack nazis as above
then land planes and regroup as described tomoro.
to be continued.
setting up
1 as the places see sun rise from coast of "whitney mountain region" long so marked "w.m." and westward which see sun rise later- that region has 2 RIFLE and one Plane. its pp=production potential same as fuji m.r. eight 8 pp. [in contrast to mississippi r.r. m.r. same as main river region ten pp.] its coast one transport marker which includes the few battleships there which are too few to deserve a marker. consider the game a-a if japan with twelve ba. only got 2 markers in game mentioned then each marker 6 so states not enuf for marker.
so only tr. there. north of it british yukon r.r. named b-yukon r.r. empty with pp1. states=s-yujon r.r. pp1 with one rifle.
this concludes the mississippi continent because the time represented in this combo is DECEMBER 10, year 1941 so then mexico and brazil were nutral until 1944 or later.
the transport needs to travel two steps to reach "loa" m.r. same as ship from tokyo to midway atoll. this corrects the unfair marking in the game mentioned because truly far and too far away to reach "wake" island.
the only submarine markers are 2 for nazi and one for soviets. see below even japan which is the only one which deserves a marker for battleships does not get any marker for battleships. setup does not include the "units" for production potential. instead at the start of each turn that moment the pp is given and spent together and almost no "money" is out of the "bank" piles.
loa m.r. has one rifle=r and one aircraft carrier with p on it. midway atoll has one r.
2 japan setup i will fioll in later but japans "turn" was to attack hawaii and altho i protested this choice in previous posts still in this combination begin the cycle by announcing "japan used its turn to attack loa m.r."
start of play the order would be japan first however since the date represented is december tenth beging play by announcing as above "japans turn was attacking loa m.r. and second is soviets.
the first phase of soviets is now get pp.
correcting the a-a- game and also previous suggestions soviets should get 14pp.
because one region muscva r.r. industruailized pp8 and ob rr pp2 and s-amur r.r. 1 each area of australie besides not on map north russia pp-zero.
soviet itself is almost empty ice so 8+2+1=11 plus potential from china conditionally because nearby. the troop movements in china are the trune of soviets and the pp is conditional se below.
the playing begins by announcing "japan was first its turn was to attack loa m-r as above and second is soviet
soviet gets 8+2+1+2+1=14. in this combination they could build two tanks 6 units each or seven RIFLES each 2 units so 2*7.
in thsi combination soviets build 7 cheap rifles. spend all 14 pp.
desperate to protect capital city no battles in east. to simplify no "technology development only first phase get money and with it spend to build but do not place until built at end of turn and only in capital city so no factory marker uunless built in other region for price of bomber 16 units.
attack phase in this combination soviet will use its two p. and t and 3r in muscva r-r to attack neighbor adjacent dnepr r-r.
units rifle=r, tank=t, plane=p. bomber=b. transport=tr submarine=s. aircraft carrier=a. no ba as above.
defender is balanced 3r face 3r amd t faces t but 2p soviet ounumber nazi p in dnepr r-r.
muscva r-r is from caspian sea to north coast including baltic coast in one region area of australia. 7.7 million square kilometers and moscow near dneiper river as above adjacent fixing unjust game more regions and unjustly more rifles because truly balanced so 3r+ for each. and nazi one plane facing 2p of soviets.
first attack from east part china? rifle not likely to succeed and weaker offense like a-a game attack 1/6 but defend 2/6 so better to save for defence than risk the better defense of japs so no attack in east neaithr chang r-r nor amur r-r/
attack nazis as above
then land planes and regroup as described tomoro.
to be continued.
Wednesday, September 12, 2018
who should i be loyal to?
i recently saw a tv show from disney [used and copyrighted] "pals before gals" that is a great rhyme instead of ho-s which implies they are after money... sadly true but bad to generalize
other parallels which i like for buddies are "matee before lady" and "adams before madams" the others could be good but do not rhyme and rhyme is better. i do not know what is better for a gal? her gal or her bo? hos before bo's? but for guys certainly good advice.
so why is that phrase good advice? because girl-friends will not last but boys are far more forgiving if you apologize then girls... sad but true you want a friendship to last? pals before gals... you know? you will separate from the manipultive gal soon enuf...
problem i cannot find which series used it except "amazing world of gumball' but i did not see that series and did hear the quote.... or heard soathing similar.
other parallels which i like for buddies are "matee before lady" and "adams before madams" the others could be good but do not rhyme and rhyme is better. i do not know what is better for a gal? her gal or her bo? hos before bo's? but for guys certainly good advice.
so why is that phrase good advice? because girl-friends will not last but boys are far more forgiving if you apologize then girls... sad but true you want a friendship to last? pals before gals... you know? you will separate from the manipultive gal soon enuf...
problem i cannot find which series used it except "amazing world of gumball' but i did not see that series and did hear the quote.... or heard soathing similar.
Monday, September 10, 2018
the pi-rets
the pi-rets
1 the battle
my name is Sper. my parents always told me that pirates were bad, bkuz they steal and take the things being sent by ship and worse- kill the defenders. however i wanted the excitement and i always hoped that one day i would be the one leading a group of brave men and women to take the riches from the rich. it would be exciting and the rich do not really need it anyway.
So here i was on the tenth of september, on a ship with sails raised and passing the great port of gibraltor at a great distance. We were sailing towards the rising sun and we could barely see the rocky coast. i thought it was to our starboard side [which hand is right? that port was north, so whatever... it seemed stupid calling it starboard it should be called port bkuz the port is to the north] I had been outvoted by my partners who wanted to chase the spanish warship and we were nearing it, with cannons ready for battle. i recalled that all the stories which i heard had a pirate captain and then the crew must do all the things that the captain said. sometimes the crew did a "mutiny" and removed the captain so i had a solution based on the name "pi-rates" which sounds like the letter "pi" in greek there would be 3 leaders so the crew would trust us. yes i found 2 more partners who agreed that we would vote to make decisions and under us would be the crew of 14 crew for the jobs of the ship and to attack ships. like 3-point-14 "pi".
now my idea was in my detriment as they had voted to attack a warship with trained gunners and which was not carrying cargo. sometimes the majority is wrong. dangerously wrong. as we neared its aft i was scared that they saw us. but kept silent. suddenly the spanish warship seemed fatter and wider- it was turning... instead of the narrow aft which we were following i could see it was turning and appeared wider so i knew they certainly saw us and our black pi-rit flag. my partners named "Boor and Quin" were busy preparing for the attack. they felt that in the long term if we destroyed worships oops warships then it would be easier to take the rich ones. boor [his first name and not burr] was inspecting the crew preparing the cannons while quin was calculating the distance and guiding my precise steering. at the right moment quin called me to turn port- so i turned toward the port which as above was to our north. and spun the wheel so that we turned towards the port. i knew this action would pull ropes which would turn the rudder. soon our side cannons faced the long side of the warship with its many cannons in two rows. one row in the sides and another row on the deck's edge.our ship shook and rocked dangerously backward as all the cannons on one side of our deck fired. i cringed expecting the warship to shoot but they did not. we continued sailing parallel for a few seconds towards north toward the port. something unexpected then happened. i saw an almost perfect row of splashes indicating the cannon balls had landed in the water we had been too far away and the warship soldiers had known the range and that is why they did not shoot yet a few seconds later orange flames burst from the side of the warship... wow! the cannonballs had hit below the water line not only ripping a hole in the wooden side but exploding inside the fire spread upward and almost the entire side was burning. yes my partners were surprisingly accurate in the amount of powder and range.
i relaxed and thought back to my youth. then i had prepared a list of names to choose for myself when i would become a pirate. in the end i changed my name from the gross name which my parents chose, to the name "Sper", as my pi-rit name. some of our crew also changed their names and the ones they chose were: rasin, trur, hossir ajin, ressir. the other 9 kept their birth names. in the coure of battles two more of the crew had died and thir rplacements chose from my list the last 2: senob, repob [a b at the end] i remembered and hated that my parents were poor.
ma always complained that she wanted new clothes but the money which pa brought from his job at the clothing factory was for paying the needs such as the home and food and similar urgent things.
i would complain that we should just take stuff but pa said that was evil. well being good we only suffered.
i mean what did he think? if he obeyed the law the police would reward him?? certainly not. that was not the way i wanted to be. pa would go to the factory early in the morning and ma would give me soup for breakfast. mostly water and then walk me to the small school. it was the anglican christian school in my small town in west britain. they forced us to learn many languages like welsh and english. we had to read the holy book.
we also needed to learn writing and that was very hard for me- hard to hold the long wooden marker and shape the letters. i was mildly annoyed that i needed to write i mean consider i only need to write because the school made me learn it and then the teachers would read the things i wrote but after completing school nobody would ever read anything i would write anyway! so i did not want to bother but one kid who said "no" to a teacher got punished when a teacher beat him... that was the same as a pi-rit so why do they "pretend" they are "good" and against pirates when they are the same violent and forcing us to do everything the way the wanted and decided.
2 my first good idea which was adopted
as a compromise i said to the teacher when we write for tests we should just mark beside the correct answer in choices instead of writing the answer. the teacher agreed for many of the subjects since he said that would save time if the choices of answers were already on the coarse paper. so only the specific subject of writing we needed to write but bible and math and other subjects we would simply circle around the number with the answer from the available answers- if the student knew then he would mark the correct one and if he did not listen, like myself, at least one of them would certainly be correct and i could choose one that felt better than the others.
my pa worked many hours at the factory. one summer day when i did not need to listen at skool i went with him to the hot factory. the windows were near the tall ceiling and open. my father stood in section "b". after the first team wove the cloth somehow, he would receive the cloth with it rows of threads. team b then cut the woven cloth into shapes . i complained because i felt most of the cloth was being wasted, but pa warned that he would slap me if i would not be silent and that reminded me of the one time he had slapped me in my shoulder. it stung so bad since then i always did what he said at least until i was bigger then i would defend myself from that "good holy" cruel man and he would feel pain. he would regret hitting a future pi-rit.
next a tall man with dark skin carried the shapes of cloth to the third team who slowly stitched the shapes together into the clothes. i never wanted to return to that hot smelly factory again. even after just one hour i felt i could not continue this suffering. at the time i thought that this explained why pa was so very grouchy every day after suffering in the factory for ten hours. that is why I MUST be a pi-rit! just take stuff- this factory situation is not an option!
ma would always walk me to school and then stay to teach the bible class. my teacher was so bad he made each student read and when we made a mistake reading he hollered at us. but ma taught her students by her telling the summary of the story in her own words. the school headmaster liked her way best but my teacher was so stubborn.
3 my second recognized suggestion
finally i reached age ten and every morning i joined my father in the factory.
i would gather the cloth after my pa's crew cut the shapes and carry the remains to the giant door. there the remains were sold to the poor tailors, i complained to my foreman that some pieces were large enuf to cut some of the shapes from them. he liked my idea and together we drew pictures of how to plan the different shapes to use almost all of the woven cloth.
we brought the drawings to the factory manager. at first the manager did not want to change anything but when i said the idea of "less time weaving" per day because more of each piece would be used, then the manager accepted our idea.
from the next day my foreman instructed my father and his crew the new manner of cutting the shapes from the same woven cloth. the instruction took time and the pile of woven cloth began to grow to a high pile. the manager told that team of the loom device to stop just for one hour. as the same number of shapes were cut from fewer woven cloths, the pile of woven sheets was not shrinking as fast. the manager looked very -very -happy that our idea was even better than he had expected and he gave my foreman and myself a rare sweet as a reward like sweet sugary bread. then the manager instructed the loom crew to work for only one more hour and then go home.
after that one unique special event all the other days were repetitive and boring. the main difference for me was from then we carried lighter piles of woven cloth to carry top the giant doors after my pa's team cut the shapes for sewing and stitching. also i was now walking much fewer times from the cut section to the door. each hour instead of clearing a pile of remains fifty times, now the pile only grew around ten times per hour. my foremen was promoted to a different job.
the days passed with a boredom i would call "tedious." which means boring but sounds more boring than boring. each day was the same and i dreamt ahead for the day iu would simply take what i needed.
the exception was in the winter when the walk to the factory was very cold and the heat inside was lovely because they closed almost all the windows and magically the heat from the bodies was enough. so the years passed. i was mildly annoyed that the money i earned bought ma's clothing she always wanted more so greedy while pa almost never bought new clothes only new shoes each winter. pa's pay paid for the home.
4 my first act of evil piracy
every year the owner wanted more money for the home. he would come in a fancy "carriage" each month to collect the rent money fee and each autumn would warn that the following months wemust pay more an increased amount. when i was age 15 i argued that the building was OLD and now one year older than the previous year so the price should be worth less! not increasing the rent money but decreasing because the building was a year older. the owner was furious and said you must pay more or leave! pa agreed to the new price but i felt that now was the best time to be a pi-rit.
i followed the owner called a landlord out and jumped onto his wagon's back. i rode along to his home. the wagon entered a large gate and rode around a curved stone path for almost quarter hour from the gate to the huge building of the house. it was like a mansion building. this guy did not need the extra money which he demanded from my poor family he was being terribly greedy and would be the best victim of piracy.
as he climbed down from the wagon to the path i jumped from the back of the wagon and began pounding the rich guy with my fists. he was screaming in pain and his shouting scared the horses who pulled the wagon and its driver away.
guards by the door of the mansion hurried down the steps but i shouted "stand back or i will strangle your boss." the guards stopped and stood. i snapped the mean landlords neck and pretended to strangle him. i yelled "lay down your swords and go inside and lock the door." they obeyed me and i took a sword and cut the head from the dead corpse. then i opened the guys bag to put the head in but saw many coins in the bag. also paper money.
well i did not want that to get dirty so i threw the head into the bushes and dragged the body into the bushes near the mansion. just in time as the wagon returned to the door of the mansion. i paid the driver a coin to take me near the factory. there i buried most of the coins. i hid the paper money in my clothes and walked home. i hid the paper money in my straw mattress.
+++to be continued
1 the battle
my name is Sper. my parents always told me that pirates were bad, bkuz they steal and take the things being sent by ship and worse- kill the defenders. however i wanted the excitement and i always hoped that one day i would be the one leading a group of brave men and women to take the riches from the rich. it would be exciting and the rich do not really need it anyway.
So here i was on the tenth of september, on a ship with sails raised and passing the great port of gibraltor at a great distance. We were sailing towards the rising sun and we could barely see the rocky coast. i thought it was to our starboard side [which hand is right? that port was north, so whatever... it seemed stupid calling it starboard it should be called port bkuz the port is to the north] I had been outvoted by my partners who wanted to chase the spanish warship and we were nearing it, with cannons ready for battle. i recalled that all the stories which i heard had a pirate captain and then the crew must do all the things that the captain said. sometimes the crew did a "mutiny" and removed the captain so i had a solution based on the name "pi-rates" which sounds like the letter "pi" in greek there would be 3 leaders so the crew would trust us. yes i found 2 more partners who agreed that we would vote to make decisions and under us would be the crew of 14 crew for the jobs of the ship and to attack ships. like 3-point-14 "pi".
now my idea was in my detriment as they had voted to attack a warship with trained gunners and which was not carrying cargo. sometimes the majority is wrong. dangerously wrong. as we neared its aft i was scared that they saw us. but kept silent. suddenly the spanish warship seemed fatter and wider- it was turning... instead of the narrow aft which we were following i could see it was turning and appeared wider so i knew they certainly saw us and our black pi-rit flag. my partners named "Boor and Quin" were busy preparing for the attack. they felt that in the long term if we destroyed worships oops warships then it would be easier to take the rich ones. boor [his first name and not burr] was inspecting the crew preparing the cannons while quin was calculating the distance and guiding my precise steering. at the right moment quin called me to turn port- so i turned toward the port which as above was to our north. and spun the wheel so that we turned towards the port. i knew this action would pull ropes which would turn the rudder. soon our side cannons faced the long side of the warship with its many cannons in two rows. one row in the sides and another row on the deck's edge.our ship shook and rocked dangerously backward as all the cannons on one side of our deck fired. i cringed expecting the warship to shoot but they did not. we continued sailing parallel for a few seconds towards north toward the port. something unexpected then happened. i saw an almost perfect row of splashes indicating the cannon balls had landed in the water we had been too far away and the warship soldiers had known the range and that is why they did not shoot yet a few seconds later orange flames burst from the side of the warship... wow! the cannonballs had hit below the water line not only ripping a hole in the wooden side but exploding inside the fire spread upward and almost the entire side was burning. yes my partners were surprisingly accurate in the amount of powder and range.
i relaxed and thought back to my youth. then i had prepared a list of names to choose for myself when i would become a pirate. in the end i changed my name from the gross name which my parents chose, to the name "Sper", as my pi-rit name. some of our crew also changed their names and the ones they chose were: rasin, trur, hossir ajin, ressir. the other 9 kept their birth names. in the coure of battles two more of the crew had died and thir rplacements chose from my list the last 2: senob, repob [a b at the end] i remembered and hated that my parents were poor.
ma always complained that she wanted new clothes but the money which pa brought from his job at the clothing factory was for paying the needs such as the home and food and similar urgent things.
i would complain that we should just take stuff but pa said that was evil. well being good we only suffered.
i mean what did he think? if he obeyed the law the police would reward him?? certainly not. that was not the way i wanted to be. pa would go to the factory early in the morning and ma would give me soup for breakfast. mostly water and then walk me to the small school. it was the anglican christian school in my small town in west britain. they forced us to learn many languages like welsh and english. we had to read the holy book.
we also needed to learn writing and that was very hard for me- hard to hold the long wooden marker and shape the letters. i was mildly annoyed that i needed to write i mean consider i only need to write because the school made me learn it and then the teachers would read the things i wrote but after completing school nobody would ever read anything i would write anyway! so i did not want to bother but one kid who said "no" to a teacher got punished when a teacher beat him... that was the same as a pi-rit so why do they "pretend" they are "good" and against pirates when they are the same violent and forcing us to do everything the way the wanted and decided.
2 my first good idea which was adopted
as a compromise i said to the teacher when we write for tests we should just mark beside the correct answer in choices instead of writing the answer. the teacher agreed for many of the subjects since he said that would save time if the choices of answers were already on the coarse paper. so only the specific subject of writing we needed to write but bible and math and other subjects we would simply circle around the number with the answer from the available answers- if the student knew then he would mark the correct one and if he did not listen, like myself, at least one of them would certainly be correct and i could choose one that felt better than the others.
my pa worked many hours at the factory. one summer day when i did not need to listen at skool i went with him to the hot factory. the windows were near the tall ceiling and open. my father stood in section "b". after the first team wove the cloth somehow, he would receive the cloth with it rows of threads. team b then cut the woven cloth into shapes . i complained because i felt most of the cloth was being wasted, but pa warned that he would slap me if i would not be silent and that reminded me of the one time he had slapped me in my shoulder. it stung so bad since then i always did what he said at least until i was bigger then i would defend myself from that "good holy" cruel man and he would feel pain. he would regret hitting a future pi-rit.
next a tall man with dark skin carried the shapes of cloth to the third team who slowly stitched the shapes together into the clothes. i never wanted to return to that hot smelly factory again. even after just one hour i felt i could not continue this suffering. at the time i thought that this explained why pa was so very grouchy every day after suffering in the factory for ten hours. that is why I MUST be a pi-rit! just take stuff- this factory situation is not an option!
ma would always walk me to school and then stay to teach the bible class. my teacher was so bad he made each student read and when we made a mistake reading he hollered at us. but ma taught her students by her telling the summary of the story in her own words. the school headmaster liked her way best but my teacher was so stubborn.
3 my second recognized suggestion
finally i reached age ten and every morning i joined my father in the factory.
i would gather the cloth after my pa's crew cut the shapes and carry the remains to the giant door. there the remains were sold to the poor tailors, i complained to my foreman that some pieces were large enuf to cut some of the shapes from them. he liked my idea and together we drew pictures of how to plan the different shapes to use almost all of the woven cloth.
we brought the drawings to the factory manager. at first the manager did not want to change anything but when i said the idea of "less time weaving" per day because more of each piece would be used, then the manager accepted our idea.
from the next day my foreman instructed my father and his crew the new manner of cutting the shapes from the same woven cloth. the instruction took time and the pile of woven cloth began to grow to a high pile. the manager told that team of the loom device to stop just for one hour. as the same number of shapes were cut from fewer woven cloths, the pile of woven sheets was not shrinking as fast. the manager looked very -very -happy that our idea was even better than he had expected and he gave my foreman and myself a rare sweet as a reward like sweet sugary bread. then the manager instructed the loom crew to work for only one more hour and then go home.
after that one unique special event all the other days were repetitive and boring. the main difference for me was from then we carried lighter piles of woven cloth to carry top the giant doors after my pa's team cut the shapes for sewing and stitching. also i was now walking much fewer times from the cut section to the door. each hour instead of clearing a pile of remains fifty times, now the pile only grew around ten times per hour. my foremen was promoted to a different job.
the days passed with a boredom i would call "tedious." which means boring but sounds more boring than boring. each day was the same and i dreamt ahead for the day iu would simply take what i needed.
the exception was in the winter when the walk to the factory was very cold and the heat inside was lovely because they closed almost all the windows and magically the heat from the bodies was enough. so the years passed. i was mildly annoyed that the money i earned bought ma's clothing she always wanted more so greedy while pa almost never bought new clothes only new shoes each winter. pa's pay paid for the home.
4 my first act of evil piracy
every year the owner wanted more money for the home. he would come in a fancy "carriage" each month to collect the rent money fee and each autumn would warn that the following months wemust pay more an increased amount. when i was age 15 i argued that the building was OLD and now one year older than the previous year so the price should be worth less! not increasing the rent money but decreasing because the building was a year older. the owner was furious and said you must pay more or leave! pa agreed to the new price but i felt that now was the best time to be a pi-rit.
i followed the owner called a landlord out and jumped onto his wagon's back. i rode along to his home. the wagon entered a large gate and rode around a curved stone path for almost quarter hour from the gate to the huge building of the house. it was like a mansion building. this guy did not need the extra money which he demanded from my poor family he was being terribly greedy and would be the best victim of piracy.
as he climbed down from the wagon to the path i jumped from the back of the wagon and began pounding the rich guy with my fists. he was screaming in pain and his shouting scared the horses who pulled the wagon and its driver away.
guards by the door of the mansion hurried down the steps but i shouted "stand back or i will strangle your boss." the guards stopped and stood. i snapped the mean landlords neck and pretended to strangle him. i yelled "lay down your swords and go inside and lock the door." they obeyed me and i took a sword and cut the head from the dead corpse. then i opened the guys bag to put the head in but saw many coins in the bag. also paper money.
well i did not want that to get dirty so i threw the head into the bushes and dragged the body into the bushes near the mansion. just in time as the wagon returned to the door of the mansion. i paid the driver a coin to take me near the factory. there i buried most of the coins. i hid the paper money in my clothes and walked home. i hid the paper money in my straw mattress.
+++to be continued
fixing hebrew letters
many years ago i thought that the shape of hebrew letters was importnat and having found a source which gathered traditions with evidence of the shapes i wanted to comper the sources but... we have many "fonts" for english so the ancient shape is not important as lond as it is simialr and readable.
we ned to stidy allpossible characters to identify the words but the truth is some words are "homo-phonic" mening the sound the same and should have the same letters. and same as emglish the same word can have many menings
so i suggest to edit each hebrew word assumingthere is a boook worth presrving and simplifying it to have the minimumu letters.
tradition groups letters by th epart of the mouth making the sound like "bmp" all push lips togetyher for all 3 letters
first rename
alf instead of modern hebrew name because like first letter of greek alpha and later fix order
bet same like beta but then fix: gam. del.heh.vav.zet,hhet,x,yed,x,lem,ma,na, xx, next "pe" same good
zzet [like sound in piZZa] kap, ro, sig, tet. total instead of 22 needed now to learn shapes which change when last letter remove doubles and remain eighteen 18 or "et'in shapes and never change shape and simply know meaning by story arroound same as english words have more than one meaning for example spell the same " row" =tur" =other same sound should fix same leters no need for extra shapes and vowels sounds see previous posts.
we ned to stidy allpossible characters to identify the words but the truth is some words are "homo-phonic" mening the sound the same and should have the same letters. and same as emglish the same word can have many menings
so i suggest to edit each hebrew word assumingthere is a boook worth presrving and simplifying it to have the minimumu letters.
tradition groups letters by th epart of the mouth making the sound like "bmp" all push lips togetyher for all 3 letters
first rename
alf instead of modern hebrew name because like first letter of greek alpha and later fix order
bet same like beta but then fix: gam. del.heh.vav.zet,hhet,x,yed,x,lem,ma,na, xx, next "pe" same good
zzet [like sound in piZZa] kap, ro, sig, tet. total instead of 22 needed now to learn shapes which change when last letter remove doubles and remain eighteen 18 or "et'in shapes and never change shape and simply know meaning by story arroound same as english words have more than one meaning for example spell the same " row" =tur" =other same sound should fix same leters no need for extra shapes and vowels sounds see previous posts.
Saturday, September 8, 2018
fixing biblical hebrew
assume the contents of the bible are good.
one detail preserved in the bible is the lettter "I" preserved in a manner that shows the true pronunciation was like the vowel sound in "bEAd" for example the letter "I" written for feminine and other uses where the name place is spelled both with the letter "I" and the letter" ' " called yowd.
pniel is spelled both with yowd and with " I " preserving the sound altho most of those books are not worth preserving for many reasons see other posts.
we may split the sounds into vowels like "ay" and consinents like "b"
a good system to arrange the order of the vowels- which do not appear in the written bibles but were preserved in "leningrad" codex and other ancient writings from yemen- can be from simple dot to multi-dot.
the first in this order is one single dot.
hebrew uses two such symbols so they are in one group and the order will be by position
FIRST one single dot near the TOP of the letter is a vowel. in this context of bible we DO have a preservation in josephus the only word he preserved using the greek letter omicron which is vowel sound in "sOft" from the choices of omicron and omega he preserved omicron so only modern hebrew is omega sound like "bOAt" not the tradition and not the bible and i know that rabbis teach... both of the rabbis sounds are wrong and refuted by evidence.
we know the ancient greek sound from colliers encyclopedia [1960's] preserving the ancient sounds of greek characters. and josephus preserved the sound with omicron that is the evidence and anything else including omega which he could use but did not is not real hebrew.
admittedly modern hebrew is different from the biblical hebrew in many ways including vowels.
other marks symbols have the SAME SOUND and this should get fixed as below we can identify: the letter "vav" is added with that single dot near the top of the letter then the letter is silent and the sound is vowel "sOft" as above because the dot is over letter. also the hebrew word for boat is marked with a symbol like "a plus with colon" since it is the first letter of the word pronunciation is same sound which is NOT the vowel of "bOAT" for the word boat but is the pronunciation of the vowel in "sOft". this refutes at least 2 details of how rabbis teach also if the words are worth preserving then we SHOULD simplify ONE symbol for this sound and remove the silent "I" which is silent anyway. similarly the hebrew word for boat could be marked with the dot above and we should fix such and never need to see the other symbols from this sound group because they are the same sound especialy when read quickly. it only makes more symbols to learn which is against the jewish tradition to "teach briefly" so have one symbol allows teaching less total symbols. i will not preserve what is known to be wrong and hopefully the rabbis will FIX the many errors related to this evidence.
SECOND one single dot under the letter. sound like vowel in "bEAd" or "bEE".evidence shows that the shape of vav shaped " I" and a dot near center is same sound and perhaps also the same sound for the diagonal 3 as preserved by some jews. maybe. but now we are in the group of one dot.
so one dot over is in biblical contaxt like the vowel in "sOft" that is tradition and below a different sound "ee" as explained and this is second in group because of next group.
group 2
THIRD a pair of dots under the letter. which? i prefer colon shape 3. considering it means "only the letter" with zero=no vowel- this should not even appear. same as the last letter in the word has no vowel mark also the first letter for example "ntanya" no need for a vowel with the first letter we hear the letter fine. so a "nu" with a colon below it is only the sound of the letter "n' with zero vowel just sound with the letter which follows like "nta" or english block. the first vowel needs no vowel nor mark. and we should not even see nor need to learn this symbol except the bad decision to publish with it needs to learn and that it means "null" as above and this should be fixed.
FOURTH a pair of dots but instead of vertical pair like colon shape as above ":" this pair is a horizontal pair.
this has been preserved in the only ancient word which josephus preserved the sound is vowel in "hEld" and i know that both moder hebrew and as well as rabbis differ but this is PRESERVED and this is the tradition for the bible. sad that rabbis refuse to fix known errors so i publish to fix. so when you go to israel and speak hebreww know modern hebrew differs- except this one israelis say it so fast that the teaching book groups the horizontal pair like "hEld" yay!
FIFTH after a group of single dots [over or under] and 2 pairs [horizontal or like colon ":" but both under the letter] the next group is three dots.
which? a diagonal of 3 dots is fifth. what sound deos it preserve? that is in doubt. perhaps it is the vowel of "bOOt" or as some jews preserve it same as the vowel of a single dot under the letter and considering this sound already has a mark perhaps it is a different sound yet we know that there are extra letters so it seems best to simplify never use the diagganl 3 and since it is in doubt whether it is same as "ee" or same as "oo" be passive and not preserve something in doubt so only in modern hebrew the vowel in "bOOt" which cannot be used in newspapers with no dots! so they use "I" which in modern hebrew is the vowel of "bOOt" however we are trying to preservee thae tradition so we must simplify and and make it null because the jews did nt preserve this and jospehus only preserved one word.
SICTH the next symbol in this group is shaped "three dots grouped like electric outlets" or the two horizontal of the 3 have a third centered under them. the sound is the same as the line [refuting my previous order but i admit my mistake and have fixed and so should others] traditionally biblical hebrew had a sound for words with this symbol as the vowel in "pA" or the a in "father" almost lost in english unless we will change the word "amen" to the vowel in "pA". the same vowel sound as the vowel in "bOb" and ancient texts preserve that such words never had the 3-dot symbol but were read the sound of "pA" as explained so after we know that the sound is preserved in the following we group we should FIX and simplify never even seeing the "3-dot" neither this "added symbol which changed the traditional reading as proven from ancient texts nor the diagonal 3 dots which evidenc leaves conflict. so this group should be removed never see a 3 dot symbol for the resons explained this must be fixed because it changed the traditional way of reading the ancient words.
seventh he last symbol is pronounced with "open" mouth like the vowel in "pA" or the a in "father'' this sound is almost lost from english yet it is the most common sound in traditional hebrew. so i need to preserve it.
the rabbi named solomon rashi preserved that the word with a different symbol is "open" mouth same a sthe a in "father and this matches modern hebrew and to simplify we should remove the other "undifferent" symbol so when we see the "plus" we identify it as solomon preserved in year 1050 as open mouth like a in "father" which is almost lost in english because we only sound apple or bay for the latter a.
to make learniung diffficult jews at least 1000 years ago added a colon to the "_" symbol and this is useful in signifying fast but not needed and altho logic would say "plus shape + with colon shape:" should be a fast a of "father that is not how the vowels are grouped and since both types of + symbols are extar not needed we must fix and simplify the one like "sOft" as above mark with single dot as above and the one like "_" mark with that symbol "_" to simplify and fix.
in the end we have four sounds and the fifth is in conflict so we do not know which manner to preserve and can remove all 3-dot symbol and only replace the electric socket shaped symbol with the traditinal vowel "_" as in tradition.
so 4 SOUNDS and no need to preserve THIRTEEN symbiols for just 4 ort 5 sounds.
next fix name of letters but no time!
one detail preserved in the bible is the lettter "I" preserved in a manner that shows the true pronunciation was like the vowel sound in "bEAd" for example the letter "I" written for feminine and other uses where the name place is spelled both with the letter "I" and the letter" ' " called yowd.
pniel is spelled both with yowd and with " I " preserving the sound altho most of those books are not worth preserving for many reasons see other posts.
we may split the sounds into vowels like "ay" and consinents like "b"
a good system to arrange the order of the vowels- which do not appear in the written bibles but were preserved in "leningrad" codex and other ancient writings from yemen- can be from simple dot to multi-dot.
the first in this order is one single dot.
hebrew uses two such symbols so they are in one group and the order will be by position
FIRST one single dot near the TOP of the letter is a vowel. in this context of bible we DO have a preservation in josephus the only word he preserved using the greek letter omicron which is vowel sound in "sOft" from the choices of omicron and omega he preserved omicron so only modern hebrew is omega sound like "bOAt" not the tradition and not the bible and i know that rabbis teach... both of the rabbis sounds are wrong and refuted by evidence.
we know the ancient greek sound from colliers encyclopedia [1960's] preserving the ancient sounds of greek characters. and josephus preserved the sound with omicron that is the evidence and anything else including omega which he could use but did not is not real hebrew.
admittedly modern hebrew is different from the biblical hebrew in many ways including vowels.
other marks symbols have the SAME SOUND and this should get fixed as below we can identify: the letter "vav" is added with that single dot near the top of the letter then the letter is silent and the sound is vowel "sOft" as above because the dot is over letter. also the hebrew word for boat is marked with a symbol like "a plus with colon" since it is the first letter of the word pronunciation is same sound which is NOT the vowel of "bOAT" for the word boat but is the pronunciation of the vowel in "sOft". this refutes at least 2 details of how rabbis teach also if the words are worth preserving then we SHOULD simplify ONE symbol for this sound and remove the silent "I" which is silent anyway. similarly the hebrew word for boat could be marked with the dot above and we should fix such and never need to see the other symbols from this sound group because they are the same sound especialy when read quickly. it only makes more symbols to learn which is against the jewish tradition to "teach briefly" so have one symbol allows teaching less total symbols. i will not preserve what is known to be wrong and hopefully the rabbis will FIX the many errors related to this evidence.
SECOND one single dot under the letter. sound like vowel in "bEAd" or "bEE".evidence shows that the shape of vav shaped " I" and a dot near center is same sound and perhaps also the same sound for the diagonal 3 as preserved by some jews. maybe. but now we are in the group of one dot.
so one dot over is in biblical contaxt like the vowel in "sOft" that is tradition and below a different sound "ee" as explained and this is second in group because of next group.
group 2
THIRD a pair of dots under the letter. which? i prefer colon shape 3. considering it means "only the letter" with zero=no vowel- this should not even appear. same as the last letter in the word has no vowel mark also the first letter for example "ntanya" no need for a vowel with the first letter we hear the letter fine. so a "nu" with a colon below it is only the sound of the letter "n' with zero vowel just sound with the letter which follows like "nta" or english block. the first vowel needs no vowel nor mark. and we should not even see nor need to learn this symbol except the bad decision to publish with it needs to learn and that it means "null" as above and this should be fixed.
FOURTH a pair of dots but instead of vertical pair like colon shape as above ":" this pair is a horizontal pair.
this has been preserved in the only ancient word which josephus preserved the sound is vowel in "hEld" and i know that both moder hebrew and as well as rabbis differ but this is PRESERVED and this is the tradition for the bible. sad that rabbis refuse to fix known errors so i publish to fix. so when you go to israel and speak hebreww know modern hebrew differs- except this one israelis say it so fast that the teaching book groups the horizontal pair like "hEld" yay!
FIFTH after a group of single dots [over or under] and 2 pairs [horizontal or like colon ":" but both under the letter] the next group is three dots.
which? a diagonal of 3 dots is fifth. what sound deos it preserve? that is in doubt. perhaps it is the vowel of "bOOt" or as some jews preserve it same as the vowel of a single dot under the letter and considering this sound already has a mark perhaps it is a different sound yet we know that there are extra letters so it seems best to simplify never use the diagganl 3 and since it is in doubt whether it is same as "ee" or same as "oo" be passive and not preserve something in doubt so only in modern hebrew the vowel in "bOOt" which cannot be used in newspapers with no dots! so they use "I" which in modern hebrew is the vowel of "bOOt" however we are trying to preservee thae tradition so we must simplify and and make it null because the jews did nt preserve this and jospehus only preserved one word.
SICTH the next symbol in this group is shaped "three dots grouped like electric outlets" or the two horizontal of the 3 have a third centered under them. the sound is the same as the line [refuting my previous order but i admit my mistake and have fixed and so should others] traditionally biblical hebrew had a sound for words with this symbol as the vowel in "pA" or the a in "father" almost lost in english unless we will change the word "amen" to the vowel in "pA". the same vowel sound as the vowel in "bOb" and ancient texts preserve that such words never had the 3-dot symbol but were read the sound of "pA" as explained so after we know that the sound is preserved in the following we group we should FIX and simplify never even seeing the "3-dot" neither this "added symbol which changed the traditional reading as proven from ancient texts nor the diagonal 3 dots which evidenc leaves conflict. so this group should be removed never see a 3 dot symbol for the resons explained this must be fixed because it changed the traditional way of reading the ancient words.
seventh he last symbol is pronounced with "open" mouth like the vowel in "pA" or the a in "father'' this sound is almost lost from english yet it is the most common sound in traditional hebrew. so i need to preserve it.
the rabbi named solomon rashi preserved that the word with a different symbol is "open" mouth same a sthe a in "father and this matches modern hebrew and to simplify we should remove the other "undifferent" symbol so when we see the "plus" we identify it as solomon preserved in year 1050 as open mouth like a in "father" which is almost lost in english because we only sound apple or bay for the latter a.
to make learniung diffficult jews at least 1000 years ago added a colon to the "_" symbol and this is useful in signifying fast but not needed and altho logic would say "plus shape + with colon shape:" should be a fast a of "father that is not how the vowels are grouped and since both types of + symbols are extar not needed we must fix and simplify the one like "sOft" as above mark with single dot as above and the one like "_" mark with that symbol "_" to simplify and fix.
in the end we have four sounds and the fifth is in conflict so we do not know which manner to preserve and can remove all 3-dot symbol and only replace the electric socket shaped symbol with the traditinal vowel "_" as in tradition.
so 4 SOUNDS and no need to preserve THIRTEEN symbiols for just 4 ort 5 sounds.
next fix name of letters but no time!
Friday, September 7, 2018
fat children
the size of the clothes alone does not indicate fat even the children size "xl" does not mean "extar fat" only means the age 14 years because adult size begins 35 waist so must have 34 waist only if a younger child needs "l and xl" then it indicates overweight and change habit is important see below. but at the age 14 need a size called xl for that age that is the normal range unless younger because of adult size at 35 must have 34 so that is a needed xl not extra..
in contrast adults "large' is almost always "overweight" in bmi measure so check your bmi. body mass.
i mistakenly set a goal to lose weight from obese to "large size" when i succeeded i was shocked to find that i was still overweight- despite size large fit- i was so shocked because in children large only means age as above but for adults large means "fatter than average."
normal has a range bmi 25-29 is normal range being in that range is good but being overweight is something to fix and being obese is dangerous.
even after losing enuf weight not to be obese and size "large" fit... was that a victory? yes and hard one yet still, still overweight and that range of overweight can be mildly overweight and very overweight until almost obese so the only way to set a long term goal is not by circumfrenece unless stage one is circumference 42 inch hips and then ready for stage 2 get below overweight bmi. not easy so be careful at ages 14-19 or you will be in trouble later like most americans. who habit with a donut and sugary coffee every morning.
in contrast adults "large' is almost always "overweight" in bmi measure so check your bmi. body mass.
i mistakenly set a goal to lose weight from obese to "large size" when i succeeded i was shocked to find that i was still overweight- despite size large fit- i was so shocked because in children large only means age as above but for adults large means "fatter than average."
normal has a range bmi 25-29 is normal range being in that range is good but being overweight is something to fix and being obese is dangerous.
even after losing enuf weight not to be obese and size "large" fit... was that a victory? yes and hard one yet still, still overweight and that range of overweight can be mildly overweight and very overweight until almost obese so the only way to set a long term goal is not by circumfrenece unless stage one is circumference 42 inch hips and then ready for stage 2 get below overweight bmi. not easy so be careful at ages 14-19 or you will be in trouble later like most americans. who habit with a donut and sugary coffee every morning.
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