Tuesday, May 11, 2021

fixing the story in smallville series premier

improving the STORY in smallville 1,1
altho a good summary matches the story, so fixing a bad summary should match the story, this time i improve the story which differ from a good summary and from the story. some ideas are FROM the story, credit but i altered some like non-canon fan fiction. especially necessary because  the writers of smallville MISUSED their writer position to ATTRACT audience using an exciting famous hero with powerful explosions just to publish their many bad ideas injected into many episodes.
1, the gray moon and the blue planet earth,  are aligned as rocks with random shapes, meteors fly by the moon toward earth. a symmetrical vee'ikl flew over the moon, its rocket blazing to push it toward earth. space aliens?  the sv has +the familiar superman symbol.
2, +a couple walked toward the glass door of a shop with a sign "Nell's flowers." they pass a young girl [should meet her before lex] who sat by the window, surrounded by many pretty flowers. she wore a shiny silver crown and a puffy princess dress. she held a long silver wand. +who? "Lana" the lady watching her called "your parents will be here soon." Lana smiled. the couple entered. +who? [must introduce characters!] The shop owner greeted them, "good morning Mr. and Mrs. Kent. which flowers do you want today?". He replied "Thanks NELL we will look round." she replied "Martha likes Tulips."
Mrs. Kent went to lana and said, "Lana, you are a pretty princess."--"I am a FAIRY princess..." lana corrected her, "see my wings? make a wish." ma kent shut her eyes... lana waved her fairy wand and granted her wish. Pa selected +various flowers.
3, a business helicopter flew over a farm field and was cruising over a road and a sign "welcome to smallville kansas." a man +encouraged his son "lex, i have big plans for you. one day you will manage a branch of the luthor financial empire." lex +gazed out the window.
4, the sv started heating up as it enterd the atmosphere friction heat glowd
5, in the field mr. l does business with a farmer, as they sign a contract. lex wanderd into the field and +soon saw a teen tied in place off the scarecrow. "call someone to untie me", said the teen. he only wore +jeans, but his bare chest had a large s on it. suddenly hot blazing meteors slam into the field and the blast +knokd lex DOWN. 
6, +at the flower shop, lana +told nell "look". nell led lana out toward her parents... as lana shouted "mommy daddy."  meteors the size of cars smashed into buildings and trucks. one tragicly killd lana's parents... it smashed into a truck which exploded in a huge fireball. more meteors damage more buildings. cars and vans explode, blasted up and crashing down. people ran in a panic as lana +stood holding her aunt nell's hand crying. nell +picked her up. 
on the road the kents were driving. as meteors hit the road he swerved off the road.
in the field luther searchd for his son calling "lex lex." soon he saw his sons orange +head  in the green. he carried lex to the chopper.
in the same field the kents hang, head down from their seatbelts in their flippd truck. a toddler looks in the truck to see them. they +unhook the safety belts and climbed out. they talk about the child. [i like the dialog at this point no alteration.]

TODAY +the yellow school bus drove near a farm. inside a farm house a teen handed the permission paper and askd permission to play football. pa said "clark you know why i wont sign". while clark discusd the permission,  the bus drove away. clark walked out and saw the bus afar. 
in the bus a girl paid her bet to a boy. "pete, you were right. he missed the bus today."
clark ran to school.
at school pete said +"chloe i want you to be my DATE at the dance" chloe shook her head no. --m11:00-- +"hey lana..." clark called but before he could cntinue, as clark walkd near lana her meteor gem necklace glowed green and clark stumbled. +lana  boyfrend came and imediately led her away. [if sick  delay flaw or not ill].
+at sm' general hospital, a teen boy opend his eyes and unhooked his plastic tube. he walked along a corridor... and out to the parking lot. he +flashed electric at a car to start its engine and open the electric lock. he drove to his home, climbed in a window and changed from hospital clothes to jeans. +as he left home he announced >"payback time".
a car +[FIRST] with the license plate "LEX" drove to the building "luthorCorp." after parking, a bald man climbed out.guess who?
>teams play football. lana and the cheer squad cheered the home team. clark was on a bridge [not at the stadium then!]
lex drove. an +approaching car was in his lane so he swerved and >hit clark crashin thru the rail into the water. clark pulled the unconscious lex out.
that night lana gave her green meteor stone necklace to her boyfrend. he wore it. 
the next morning he went to the other players and told them he chose clark to be scarecrow this year.
the lightning lad entered a mechanic shed and said "remember me?" the mechanic replied "we were just teasing you. nobody got hurt."
note: at this point the writers missed a chance to insert a MORAL dialog which would explain his violence. the writers of smallville  MISUSED their writer position attracting viewers using an exciting famous hero with powerful explosions just to publish their bad ideas. so i fix.
+"maybe i will tie YOU to a poll"--"no. dont even TOUCH me" warnd the mechanic waving a tool. +silently the teen approached. the mechanic added "it was just a +prank"--"here is a prank" concluded l.l. as he zapd the mechanic who fried. 
elsewhere [censored] clark +told his pa that a car hit him. "how is this possible?" pa said "you wont believe me unless you see it." pa led clark down into a cellar and showed his the space-vee-ikl. >clark shouted you shoulda told me--now you are old enuf to know." replyd pa. clark stormed out.
+m25
lana's boyfrend walked near clark and said "you are this year's scarecrow."
said "you are this year's scarecrow." clark collapsd as the meteor glows green. l.l. watched them ABDUCT clark and followed their truck. he watched to see what they would do.
the bullies puld off clark's shirt and dumped ketchup in the shape of s on his chest then they tied him to a post but before they lifted... "ENUF" hollered lightning lad and zapd at the group of bullys. lana's boyfrend +DIES with a pile of other bullies while the rest of the team of spectators fled in all directions. one ran along the road so l.l. drove after him and said stop. "i did not DO anything" insisted the football player. "precisely you did not stop the others so you are part of the crime." zap and another guy collapsed. he returned to the school and reported that many of the players are in a field. "something terrible happened" he told the coach. coach drove out to the field and untied clark. "return lana's necklace" gaspd clark so coach unhookd it and put in his pocket. then he went to the sherriff who came to identify the corpses. that year the game was canceld. clark faced l.l. and complained why did you MURDER them."--you should thank me for saving you from the bullies--true but you did not have to KILL them. "if you tell the sherriff you saw me do it, i will kill you too!" clark went and tld the sherif to arrest l.l. for killing the sport team. "what did you see?"--" i saw him zap lightning and kill all of them"--that is impossible you are delusional." sherriff did not believe him. 
note: this replaces the mass-murder story. the victim was killing the oppressors not everybody. the moral argument was about killing the bullies not about killing everyone.
coach gave lana her locket. clark met chloe who said "i know how much you like lana go comfort her." as usual when he neard the stone he collapsed. a different jock asked lana out for a comforting evening. the end.

Saturday, May 8, 2021

japanese warplane carriers improved grouping

 i improved my previous lists.
japan warplane carries group [kuz nazi only one incomplete. in '45 self-sunk.]
dec' '41=six major not including 17 minor
akagi dec' '41? v 80 warplanes major
hiryu v major sunk like akagi
kaga v major sunk like akagi
shokaku v v,  Commissioned Aug 1941,
soryu vv sunk like akagi
zuikaku vv
any added in 1942? nope until mar' '44 only 2 remained.
all six wrere involved in the battle by carrying warplanes that bombed u.s. ba'
4 sunk in '42 leaving 2 until mar''44 sho'  n zui. after new u.s. sunk those 2 older.
  by name: 
akagi dec' '41? v 80 warplanes major but u.s. dive bombers sunk june '42 by midway 
amagi no. commisiond aug' 44 major 60+.
hiryu v major sunk like akagi
kaga v major sunk like akagi
kats' after, major but Commissioned Oct' 1944
shokaku v v,  Commissioned Aug 1941, Sunk 19 Jun 1944 [related to leyte battle].
soryu vv sunk like akagi
taiho late Commissioned Mar' 1944, Sunk 19 Jun 1944 by sub?
unryu late, Commissioned Aug 1944, Sunk Dec 1944
zuikaku vv Sunk Oct 1944
*not include light =30warplanes=escort, or less than 60 not major. 15+2
**fate: AKAGI, j.w.c. on june 4, 1942, by midway isle, sunk. bomb from w' dive bombers hit caused sink june 5.
HIRYU j.w.c.  june 4, 1942, by midway isle, bombs from w' dive bombers hit caused sink june 5.
KAGA, j.w.c. on  june 4, 1942, by midway isle, sunk. bomb from w' dive bombers hit caused  sink.
SORYU  j.w.c.  on  june 4, 1942, by midway isle, sunk. bomb from w' dive bombers hit caused  sink.
then two remained sho+zui until 1944.
 year 1944
SHOKAKU  j.w.c. on June 19, 1944,  by phil' sea east from phil' isle group. u.s. subs sank 2 more w.c.: shokaku and taiho. now only 4 remained for the battle in oct'.
TAIHO  j.w.c. on June 19, 1944,  by phil' sea east from phil' isle group. u.s. subs sank 2 more w.c.: shokaku and taiho. now only 4 remained for the battle in oct'.
ZUIKAKO j.w.c. in oct' 25, '44, NE from luzon, [basicly north from magat isle group] w' group wasp and more sank z' and minor carriers torp+bombs.
france one minor.

Friday, May 7, 2021

the timeline of the "beginning of protons"

 the timeline of the "beginning of protons"
selected and fixed from s. weinberg "first three minutes" 1987, pp. 102-163!
  introduction: assume that  as we travel toward the anciently remotest past, the volume of the universe is shrinking to less than one liter and smaller....
phase one:  from the earliest protons until the temperature 10^9 degrees kelvin; time frame 182 seconds.
between infinite density and status of "heat 10^11 degrees kelvin", the temperatue may have droppd from infinite heat [page 136] to 10^11 in 1% second, or from max-heat 2x10^12 k' [page 135] to 10^11 in 1/100 second. in the time equal to one second the heat will lessen to 10^10k. protons formed from thermal energy [sources below] but many phases of cooling until nucleus of p+n.
@0.01 seconds, after infinite density [v=10^-oo]. [both models coincide this time].
heat 10^11 degrees kelvin. protons CAN form from thermal energy "materialize". one model [faith believe] protons formed without any delay immediately but quark model claims a slight delay during the first 1/100 second.
density per liter volume around 4x10^9 kilogram mass. rapid expansion of volume and "rapid heat loss". in just one second the heat will lessen from 10^11 to 10^10k. protons exist but few relative to tiny photons.
radius of volume? since c=3x10^5 km/s therefore the radius of the volume of mass must be less than 3x10^3 kilometers of volume for a sphere of volume whose diameter x<6000 kilometers.
@ 0.1 seconds after infinite density, v@r<3x10^4 kilometers like c/10.
heat 3x10^10 degrees kelvin. the rate of expansion slows. ratio, 38% nutrons to 62% protons. in just one second that ratio will "shift by 14" when the more mass-ive nutrons decaying into protons while releasing radiation. 
@1.1 seconds, volume: the expansion of mass such as protons must be less than speed of light. the radiation at speed of light in one second, same 299,792 k.p.s. for radius but of sphere-volume of mass: radius x<3x10^5.
heat 10^10 degrees kelvin. almost/or-exactly 1.1 seconds [from 10^11+1%s! from infinite density]. the universe will  need three minutes to expand enuf to cool from 10^10 degrees kelvin to 10^9k. also thermal heat is "packaged" in mass instead of energy. @1.1s the density is 380,000 times denser than liquid water. too hot for nutrons to bond with protons... and remains too hot until 226 seconds.
ratio 24% neutrons to 76% protons... and n will change to protons despite "stable for 920 seconds" still in 13 more seconds the ratio will shift by 8. now still too hot for electrons to materialize/survive until later cooler 5.9x10^9 [source page 1963] so around 10 seconds:
@14 seconds, radius of energy 14c. radius of mass volume <14c.
heat 3x10^9k, [now and a bit earlier 5.9x10^9] electrons with mass "can form from thermal energy" page 163. electrons were now hotter than massless nutrinos. although helium nuclei could survive this temperature it cannot evolve from hydrogyn until cooler because the nutron is not bound enuf to the proton of the hydrogyn.
ratio 17% neutrons 83% protons. why no he2? same reason the heat suffices to break the "strong" bond related to pion exchange, until heat lessens. heat continues lessening.
#phase two: from heat 10^9 until hydrogyn2 era
@182 seconds, heat [of photons] 10^9 degrees k'. three minutes of expansion and cooling lowerd the temperature to 10% of 10^10. the massless photons are hotter than the massless nutrinos [which can cause a nutron to split into a proton-electron pair, page 105]. 
protons still  cannot bond so helium cannot evolve from hydrogyn to he3, which could survive this heat, because the heat splits hydrogyn nuclei so still no h2 until later nor he3 which would evolve to helium [he4].  despite helium could survive, still cannot evolve from hydrogyn. when heat lessons p/n will start bonding by exchanging pions [p. 102 a force that MUST be stronger than magnetic repulsion but how much more? 100 times p. 131]. no helium yet kuz cant evolve from p1 hydrogyn.
the ratio 14% neutrons to 86% protons.page 109. less neutrons means less heavy hydrogyn when the heat allows p+n bond. in 3 minutes significant cooling but the heat still prevents helium from evolving. if we end the story here no helium yet. therefore we add a fourth minute beyond his title.
@226 seconds, the deuterium helium era begins. when the heat lessens to 0.9x10^9 around 226 seconds, after infinite density, h2 [meaning 1 proton with 1 neutron called hydrogyn/deuterium] can now survive the heat and evolve into helium as follows: the steps are proton+neutron=h2, h2+p=he3,+n=ordinary helium he4, or: h2+n=h3+p=helium 2p+2n. no need for fusion simply moving near when temperature does not split the nucleous. near enough for pion exchange. helium did not need star fusion.
#part 2
science verse religion:
to "twist the bible enuf" to match modern science the "first day" not only must ignore jewish tradition in tosfot and bahya, both sources specifying "not long", but must "stretch" the first day over 700,000 years  until the nuclei join electrons to complete an atom... far from water molecule and far from the first "3 days" from the beginning. no atoms before year 700,000 the atomic era... based on observed temperature states and cooling rates.
only h2/deuterium and helium nuclei since 226 seconds. we can estimate ratio of elements: around 25% of nuclei are helium to 75% hydrogen either a sole proton or bonded to nutron/s. so no "water" of genesis chapter one. 
sure... modern jews are happy to say a "day is a billion years" guiltlessly.... but the jewish tradition that they themselves insist "the oral law" is from god... god said the dates of the month for that week in the oral tradition which for "religious" jews overpowers the written scripture.  perhas shorter 12x6=72 hours for all six days... the opposite of stretch... but rabbis rely on students not knowing those sources nor checking, to say any lie that will sway the student into the religion which leads to donations and controlling money same as any evil cult. six days seems short? it means six long era... and ALSO methusale living 900 years that just means less than 80" hahaha. the same TRAINING  lecture the rabbi said "stretch this and shrink that" yet nobody but me noticed... hahaha. no nobel prize for those jews.

the faith of science: in the beginning?

the faith of science:
the beginning?
science claims that the universe had a beginning. two of the respected models coincide... that the time before the heat was "10^11 power kelvin" of heat was less than one second... far less.
to simplify these complex ideas... imagine... no, instead of imagining remember when you saw a person inflating a balloon with air or helium.
the balloon material was near itself and later separated. this is the model to describe the galaxies moving apart. science faith claims that the universe spreads apart and therefore in the past was nearer denser in the way the inflated balloon surface is further than before the inflation. we caan choose a random point in time and say on your birthday the expansion was "a certain radius" and we know that  after that point the inflation spread apart more than that status at that time. before that time the mass of the universe was nearer and denser... than at the defined time. [in other words: the status of the universe at a point in time at a certain time frame, after that, the balloon spreaads inflating and continues to separate. in contrast before that time and earlier, the earlier in time the nearer the galaxies and mass was in density until infinite density as explained below.
when the mass of the universe was in a small volume, in the distant past, calculated as over ten billion "years" [the time equal to one circling of our planet around sun, before it started circling] ago... at some ancient time,  there was a time when the temperature can be known by calculation 10^11 degrees kelvin.
how much time would pass for the matter of the universe to cool from "infinite density" to that temperature? both of the respected models coincide: 1/100th of a second. source w' pages 135-136.
in one model they calculate the "max-heat" possible.  all the mass in the universe at infinite density. the heat is not infinite due to the variety of particles. calculations show that max-heat at infinite density is 2x10^12k. [source weinberg page 135]. the universe cooled from  infinite density and that temperature to 10^11 in... very quickly... around 1% of a second.
in contrast the quark theory... preferd despite no observed quarks [some call that particle straton] interprets protons as built from quarks. the equations "work". this model coincides with the time calculated... the time to cool from "infinite density and infinite heat" until the less hot 10^11 is known to be around 1/100 or 1% of a second. we dont know which... happened was the temperature higher than 2x10^12 like the quark model or never higher hotter than that like the max-hi model... yet both coincide about the time calculated before the temperature cooled to 10^11 degrees  kelvin.
we also know the time when the first hadrons for example protons formed even before the first electron formed. a proton isolated called hydrogen not an atm due to lacking electron but a positive hydrogen ion of one proton.
the particle called proton is famously known having positive magnetic charge. and is far more stable than neutrons which survive and regenerate around four times each hour [source w' paage 163] in contrast protons are stable. protons can exist at 10^13k so at max-heat, as above 20^12, there was not an earlier hotter phase. instead at infinite density protons existed during that time era corroberted 0.01 seconds. however in quark model protons did not exist until the temperature cooled to 1.089x10^13k during that era 1% second. the the temperature cooled quickly to 10^11 degrees kelvin as above. 
in the faith of science i notice a "paradox."
at the moment when the temperature was 10^11k as defined above 1%s after the beginning as defined above by corroberation of models.... science has faith that electrons were present  [w' p. 103] despite admitting on page 163 that is too hot for the threshold temperature of electrons... until 5.9x10^9. 
on the other hand if we assume infinite time for the universe then the heat would have dissapated to zero except near stars which generate heat. we know between stars has some heat greater than zero degrees kelvin around 3 k as observed as radiation even far from stars for example above our atmosphere. the gas giants are gas state not solid despite being far from the sun.
if iwould start i would accept the time frame 10^11 for calculating infinite density but jump from 10^11 to 10^9 when electron first "materialized" as mass from thermal radiation.
in simple terms if we ask "how was matter created" science has an answer thermal radiation materialized as the universe expanded and cooled... adn during that 1%second before 10^11 k protons existed... ergo religion changes and alters it claim "fine we know how matter formed but who made the energy? must have been god" so they prove... but who can realy reach any conclusion? just kuz the book genesis is the only claim is that the one to accept? what if a group of weak magical fairies made the first thermal enery? that is also possible we did not see.
if i accept and believe the detail in science that "threshold" is 5.9x10^9 as above then at the time when the temperature was that temperature and hotter whether to max-hi 10^12x2 or hotter i cannot accept that electrons existed at that heat as claimed in the science book... so if i dont accept science anyway nor religion book genesis which is known to have "misleading details and wrong information" i can offer a better explanation... no beginning. instead of asking when was the beginning ask if a begining occurd? i doubt it did. we never saw with observation.
can an electron exist hotter than its threshold? that violates the definition of threshold. he coulda wrote that point and described as "before electrons materialized" but instead wrote a paradox that both protons and electrons existed at that time of that heat. 
so if you have trouble accepting "man was shaped from dirt" in genesis chapter 1-2 you dont need toaccept that electrons existed at the time hotter than threshold.
the book corinthian echoes this old testament claim kuz christians aaccept that idea too god could... but could from nothing without dirt what actually ooccured "we" never saw by observation.

Thursday, May 6, 2021

modern vs REAL superman

 in superman 1940s, we can compare episode 12: 
12 war! japan bombed u.s. warships when u.s. was nutral. superman as clark was with lois in yokohama. he starts pulling jap warships underwater and putting their bombs to bomb warships and trucks [during war in contrast to modern superman-writers who say "never cross the line of killing a human]. the japs took lois hostage and hang signs they will kill HER if he harms them... despite she innocent and no threat they will kill her.
superman puld another incomplete warship to sink at sea and saw the sign. he flew to the execution and blokd the bullets. the captain with stereotype big teeth tried to murder her with a sword... the culture of uncivilized japs... so s saved her.
 then he flew her to safety. clark n lois return to u.s. [note: imagine the clark of smallville drafted to the vietnam war "nope i wont shoot at the vietcong that action is crossing the moral line.... i will block the bullets... while the u.s. soldiers and doctors in other battlefields around him drop in bloody piles.]

Wednesday, May 5, 2021

the new memory of "bible-boy."

deeper memory
  this morning after my painful DREAM, i lay in bed trying to comfort myself with pleasant memories from my toddler age...
i awoke and recalled that in the dream i made plans to join a meeting. then a lady spoke with me by phone that she wanted to interview me to compare her foriegn culture to mine. i forgot the meeting and committed to meet her. the time came to leave the building and my cellular rang she wanted to know how long until i arrived... i realized i had set two meetings at the same time... so for an agonizing ten seconds i spoke stalling on the phone unable to decide kuz i had committed to the meeting but also committed to the interview finally i chose meeting a lady, even for an interview would be closer to fun than a meeting. i told her i would be by her soon kuz i was nearby and decided to walk to her interview instead of the meeting... suddenly i was at the meeting with many men... and i felt agony i had DECIDED already to go to the lady !! but i had not done my decision and now i was even further away i felt pain... (the first time in a long time that i felt PAIN in a dream. rarely i cry in a dream maybe 3 times in a year... or the common fear felt in dreams... but the frst time pain emotional AGONY for not doing my decision...) so i decided to lie to her that an emergency occurd but before i could call her by cellular, i heard gun shots and the manager of the meeting yeld to run near him, to tell me three secret words that i emphasized in my memeory the secret and then gunmen enterd the meeting and shot all around and the manager dropd dead... i did not feel pain nor sadness... nor fear actualy i have not felt fear during a dream in many years. 
the gunmen demanded "reveal and say the secret or they will kill the last survivors in the room and more people in the building."
i believed the manager that the words were secret and stood silent. they fired guns  killing everybody in the room except me kuz i had the info... if they kill me they will never know. then one went and brought at gunpoint more men into the room and said he would kill them unless i say the secret and i was silent so he shot them too.
finally i askd "if you kill me you will never know so will you torture me?" they said "we have different ways to get the secret and grabd my arm yanking it... which woke me from the dream.
when i awoke i realized hat i had never ever had that type of dream with  that type of pain... ever of realizing i had DECIDED to go one place but went to another... and missing the commitment. the rare dreams when i cried in the dream were different from this pain and the crying was rare... maybe in a year i cry in dreams only three times.
i tried to comfort myself with happy memories... and UNLOKd an old compartment of memoies...
i thout back to the "kiss face" story. day after day i enjoyed the attention and symbolism that a girl with black short hair kissed my right cheek day after day saying remember me... and i did and do recall her face. her skin TAN like after many days at the beach. she kisd me in the room of the home-nursery [like the start of the video daddy daycare but a decent home nursery] ergo i must have been age two. i did not feel pleasure from the kisses but knew they symbolized her love that i enjoyed.
today i UNLOKD the background  of that memory. this was the first kiss of my life later i would get my first lip kiss... involvng the opposite left cheek.
that girl liked me kuz we were the two toddlers FIRST to be "traind to control" our waste exit like adults.
the story was: the teacher with a hebrew title ! that i had not recalled for years, until today, had announced a huge fuss of honor for the first girl to be "trained" to ask to use a toilet.  teacher praised and fussed and encouraged all six other kids to control and train like her and like adults.
i recalled my feeling of horror that i WAS wearing panties same as adults and the teacher only praised her. so after the big fuss and praise, i went to the teacher and said "i also dont need diapers" and the teacher said "you are a boy. boys are always older than girls when they first control."
i left her confused. then i decided on a plan! i lied to the teacher that i "need her help to unstick the diaper tape so i could sit on the potty."
she argued "just let it go, it is normal for boys to wait until older"
so i argued "but it is easier for you not to clean and change diapers."
she argued "she does not mind and that is her job for all seven kids."
i argued "but you SAID that we should be like her... so you were lying." then she agreed to escort me into the toilet room and i lied "i cant unstick the sticky tape myself so she opened my pants and saw the panty thin cloth and... what word for the sound? not exactly scream but a short shriek of surprise like a yelp. i was startled by her yelp... luckily i did not feel the pressure to drain or i may have let loose from her shrill high pitched yelp cry of surprise.
then i puld the panty down to the floor sat on the potty and let loose a jet of fluid. she gasped "i dont believe it," as she walked out from the room. i was surprised that she was surprised.
after she returned to watch me wash my hands with soap and water she sat me and the queen at a separate table to motivate the other girls to train and control their waste and get the honor we had... she was the girl that kiss-cheek me. the first girl to be trained.
day after day she kissd my right cheek and said remember me.
at lunch we sat at a table just us two. but the other toddlers not ready for panties i mean thin cloth, not absorbant thick cloth, sat separate.
one new detail that i never remembered until tday...
after many days when she simply believed the teacher, she said she wants to see that i dont wear "absorbant" i said "i wear cloth not plastic" she argued no PROOF kuz cloth-diapers are thick but still cloth and still diapers.
so i immediately and shamelessly even proudly yanked down my thick dark pants and proudly showed my white brifs... she asked why is the cloth "missing" so as i yankd up the thick dark pants i explained the cloth is like curtains to pull apart aside... same as yours" she then grabd my left hand and pressed it against her dark green dress on her side so i could feel her thin fabric under her  dress "see it is thin not absorbant".
we continued day after day, to sit together, the only two kids at the adult table... a low table for the kids "trained like adults" but the other 3 boys and two girls never "graduated" to our low adult table by the end of the school year in nursery.
so that is the story of how we were together with the "common first" for toddlers in the group for control. and she was the girl that first kisd me ever, a kiss on the cheek day after day.
so that is the new memeory i unlokd adding to the later stories:
later i would have a blond girl frend that was easier to remember. the one who shared the round cookies and hugd me day after day...
the one who taught me the bodily difference between a girl and boy kuz i thout girls were same shape...
and in one of the hugs i taught her how to use her leg to feel i was a boy. but we hugd every day and she shared her round cookies day after day.
on the first day after we hugd, 3 brats chanted at me "you have a girlfrend you have a girlfriend" i argued "HAVE" like sonething good so one of the three said "like having a stain" and i felt different but she heard and the next day during the hug she explained that rich wealthy people have fancy cars and big mansions so i am different like the wealthy kuz i have a girl frend.
i knew in society blond was considered best... so i did not tell her i thought he fface looked ugy nor that i dont like blond hair i just enjoyed the attention from her... until i broke her heart on the day of the pillow story.
later a different girl was my girl frend and she shared animal shaped cookies.
now i see a pattern. all three girls: cookie, pillow, cookie, were "caring for my pity" first no snack at snack time so round-cookie girl hugd me and shared her cookie. then pillow girl who traded her pillow for my rough coarse pillow and third animal shape cookie girl who felt pity that the teacher gave me "broken animals" different than the others so she brought animal cookies from home and gave me two and if i read a book to her gave me more. 
***the BIBLICAL child
after nursery, i went to the all boys pre-school which led to me being "jacob with his four wives" kus i was shorter:
the first girl was lip-kiss grabbing my left cheek with her hand to kiss my lips the first lip kiss ever in my life was with that six year old girl. who heard about me by the abraham club. she told other girs that my shortness was a benefit so i got three more wives for intimacy, kus they enjoyed using their slot at age six, and repeated many weeks, when the parents napd, on saturday no job, we met in new york near 240 street, and i was jacob with his ffour wives: lip-kiss, shy hebrew, pinch and top. we were all minors so free from society law about intimacy. they were age six and i was age five and shorter than other boys age 5 so these "older girls" tried and liked.
lip kiss was the first girl to invite me to use her slot. obviously the three year olds only kissd or hugd as above... before six they dont use slots yet... in contrast to the stories that the rabbis taught us when i was five.
i replied "i dont know what to do"  so she said "only lie face up" then she did all the action, sliding down from my knees to plug-in the tube in the slot. she told other girls it was pleasant so they wanted too.
the shy girl, who stood silently, until lip said "say what you wanna say" and i said "whisper in my ear." but instead she said in hebrew the phrase in hebrew from the story of josef so my shortness benefitted me extra pleasure. 
third i met  pinch. she threatend she would pinch me if i did not do the same pleasure as the other to her too. later adding top girl the one who insisted i be on top in contrast to the other three i was on the floor face up.
we met once each week for several weeks until after many repeats... indicating they enjoyed and did not regret,  three girls were satisfied and stopd. only pinch demanded "i want i will pinch you if you dont" do the pleasure plug.
then the "flower club" interrupted my plug fun.
my parents insisted that on saturday i go to the "flower club." i walked with two brats that i recall and two more that i cannot remember and this group of five brats walked together the mile to the club house. for the flower club.
we walked up a hill which was difficult for me and as we reached a certain intersection i noticed that on the side, the street that was not steep was "along" parallel.. this would be significant later. i tried to point this out but they ignored me and said a sixth kid lives here so we knocked on his door... but he did not wanna come.
we reached the club house and the brats were wild rnning around and the club leader called counselor shouted at them to sit and listen to the story but they ignored him and i left early to walk toward home... then i met the christian family...
different than i wrote in the past more details: 
on the way home i stopd at the home of the sixth kid who i met that day and therefore recognized from school. i knew he was home as above he did not join us. he said he did not wanna play with me.
his lil sister not named sara came and said that i should be upset that he was mean to me and rejected me. sara invited me to play with her at a neighbor house. sara's parents were asleep napping on saturday so they did not know that she went to a christian nebbir.
the nebbirs were getting out of the car as i recalld and wrote elsewhere and she introduced me to her nebbir and the three of us sat at a table with dad. he was watching and reading a book while two girls and a boy me played at the table.
the next week i told the flower goup NOT to walk up the steep hill since the other flat road led the same place. they said they would race and see who got their first. i thout the uphill climb would slow them... i ran along the flat roaad while they ran uphill i was soon out breath and walked. i reached the intersection and did not see them so i went to the christian home.
the two girls were playing alone at the table so i joined their game. an hour later, pinch girl came too... she wanted me and had asked around where i was and sara said i played with her and her nebbir.
she said that she missed me. why did i leave her? that i deserved a pinch and she pinched me on the tube which felt good and warnd she would pinch HARDER if we did not plug  same as in the past. sara shrieked in panic... when she heard that this girl used her slot at age six... clearly in horror... not crying but horrified, sara ran home.
then pinch told the girl, not named jeesusa, that it was pleasant... kuz i was short. she should try it too. so i had two wives... at the time i did not count the jesus one as a wife so i was more like isac with one wife rebka and a concubine like abraham and hagar but not two concubines like abraham and ktura those were my thouts at that age five and despite my surprise that they enjoyed it long before pregnancy age i thought of the story of rebeka age THREE according to the "holy" rabbis... 
we repeated for a few weeks while my parents thout i was at the flower clubhouse. this repeated a few weeks until pinch stopd visiting [her parents probly did not let her go to a christian].  jesusa said she should only play with girls... so THAT week her parents offered to drive me home on THAT day but i said my parents forbid cars so i stayed at their house many hours... i read some of their short picture kid-books while jeesusa went to bring sara and the two girls played at the table.
by prayer time they drove me to... the prayer building [not home at dark that was a separate memory] where i rejoined my pa and lied that "i stayed long at the flower club." luckily he wasnot listening.
so that ended my multi wife until third grade again i was like jacob but not four just the detail that jacob had two SISTERS as wives. so in my childhood of pain and neglect and bullying for being shorter... my shortness led to pleasure with "older" girls.

Tuesday, May 4, 2021

superman 1941

 reminder
s41, 5 a car that can also fly like a bullet smashed buildings and ruined electricity. When it attackd the treasury lois tried to ruin the controls but the theives capture her. Superman flew up and pealed open the bullet to save lois and bring the villains to justice... as the bullet crashed.
6 a scientist pulld an iron meteor that crashed and harmd the city. when cops came to stop him from harming, he lokd them out and pulled more toward earth. the cops jamd the electric generator to stop the pulling but the meteors FALL and smash the lab. the scientist escaped. lois phoned the office, as more fell and the roof collapsed... so superman came and unburied lois. then he tried to crash into the meteor but even superman could not shatter it... as it was nearing earth. so he tried again but faild to shatter it. finally he used he superstrength to restart the generator and used the magnet to reverse the pull... but it is too near... suspense as the huge meteor is nearing the city... but soon the magnet  pushed the meteor away.
7 a villain in an under-water lab caused earthquakes that broke bridges and toppled buildiings. lois followed him and sat in a chair where he tied her. superman tries to limit the explosions and faces several dangers. he saved lois as the villain sent dynamite down to the lab. the lab explodes but supermn brought lois to the surface in time. he follows the villain's speed boat and with superstrength lifts it up from the water to bring him to justice. 
nx 8
8 superman went with lois to investigate an awakening volcano. Lois went up. then the eruption started. mollten rock bursts up and throws hot rocks everywhere as lois tries to survive the dangers of the eruption. superman saved the city from a huge boulder rolling toward it by throwing it over and beyond the city. then he saved lois and as "man of steel" connected the torn wire as pland to detonate the explosion that buried the volcano.
9 lois went to a circus where elephants danced on two legs and high-wire walking and more. a mischevous monkey puld a rope not knowing it freed a huge ape. the ape escaped and went wild. the trained wildcats get wild too. lois saved a young girl from the ape and climbed a ladder to escape upward.  a black panther attacked superman but the man of steel survived and with super strength wrestled it and put it in a cage. he carried an elephant to its cage to end the stampede. he fought the huge ape that used its giant muscles to throw him far. an electric wire started a fire so he wrestled with the ape in the burning tent until the plank for the high wire... where lois escaped starts falling he saved lois from the dangers of fire and the huge ape.
10 a man loyal to the japan flag saw that the u.s. made a huge bomber warplane. it is so large that it carries regular fighter planes and huge bombs. a hatch slid open so the fighter warplanes flew out. then the man who wore "stereotype" jap hat and jap style glasses, for identifying his loyalty to japan, climbed out from hiding with sabotuers, jap-otuers to take control of the plane. superman FLEW after the plane [more than leap... perhaps the first time he flew? after many large leaps] he opened the hatch and two japs ran toward him one wth a gun but before he can shoot s grabd his arm and threw the gunman far the other swung a knife but s overpowerd the human. [he also saved n untied lois] finally s went to to the cockpit where "joe-jap" was flying the plane. the crew was tied. as he broke the door jj smashed the controls so the plane would crash [rather than be used in war... and perhaps to kill himself honorably crashing into a city like the kamikaze legend which is not only a legend]  superman jumped out and slowed the plane and caught it so it would not explode and lay it on the ground saving  the city from the crash and the bombs that it carried.
mummy '''The Mummy Strikes''' is a short in the [[Superman]] (1940s) series.
Superman as Clark Kent goes with Lois Lane to investigate a tomb where apparently a lady murdered a man. Mystical ancient powers awaken several mummies that attack them. As mummies smash heavy rocks on him, other huge mummies carry other investigators including Lois toward a dangerous fire... "this looks like" another job for Superman.