Wednesday, March 22, 2023

wild teens

wild teens: i got pregnant
by sally samuels
on a windy autumn day, when i was age 18, i felt cramps. again. during class, my cramps were very painful. they hurt more than other months when they hurt less. i felt scared. the strong cramps frightened me. i walked to the math teacher's desk. mr. dan daniels. i barely heard the numbers in whatever algebra methods he was explaining. i lifted the plastic hall pass, scribbled my initial in the records and walked out toward the nurse office.
i had never been surprised by the monthly blood. ever since fifth grade oops. age NINE is considered normal range for starting monthly blood, see source below. even young girls MUST be prepared by age 9 what to expect and must have pads ready and many pads ready. near 9 birthday if breasts are growing girls should read data at:  https://raisingchildren.net.au/pre-teens/development/periods-hygiene/periods  story: from when i was near my 9 birthday, i knew what will happen. 
author note: also male possible SAME age nine 9 if started puberty pubic hair. average male both hair and fluid later but 9 in healthy range. story: i remembered awkward day: miss mikes had explained first that age 14 young men started "manufacturing" a fluid that contained half a baby. a pair of factory glands hanging in a bag made it. she explained to the boys that when they wake in mornings they will often find that they have wet pijamas. they should distinguish between urine and semen.  a brat shouted seamen make semen... gross. a boy asked, "if that starts at 14 why when i was six felt the urge to squeeze"?
teacher replied, "i dont know that. but if you feel the urge when you are near age 14 then expect fluid." a girl said, "i learnt the gross way. i put my hand on my older brothers neck while he was reading. when i saw the bulge in his boxers i put my other hand on his knee and slid my hand toward it. by the time i reached fabric, his hand was squeezing his boxers. i slid my hand into the leg of the boxer shorts and pressed the tube. that is when i learnt to expect to get your hand wet." a brat shouted angrily, "as if girls don't drip" another brat shouted "a hand job to a brother"
miss m continued "yes young women also drip. each month the lining inside slides down (oops not "gets squeezed out and replaced. muscles squeeze it out so expect cramps) so expect aching. boys dont get this monthly ache but everybody who has a uterus usually will.
she continued saying more things to expect and that understanding that these things related to making a baby you can plan not to have a baby before you are prepared by wearing a cover that will catch the male baby oil so it wont join the girl half baby before they are ready to plan kids. also it limits the spread of illnesses.
i was feeling those cramps, miss had explained, but they were sharper maybe i was sick. i recalled that same awkward day, after school i told ma that they taught about monthly blood. ma said she did not drip until age 11 and 8 months... so i had time. still despite i was still 9, she told the story that her breasts felt sore. "never offer a guy oral sex" my mom had warned me. if they want it or regular plug in, just say no. if they pressure you then they are not acting like a friend kuz they can milk themselves. i argued "i like some boys i want them to feel pleasure" ma argued at most use your hand but only if the guy brought and wore the cover so you dont get your hand wet.
in February that year my ma gave me my first box of products. she said notice if your breasts feel sore the blood might drip before age 12... she was right. the seventh month after my birthday they felt very sensitive and sore. even my soft bra was annoying. i put a panty pad. like a clock one hour later on the school bus i felt cramps. they were gentle squeezes. by the time i got to school i could feel the pad was wet. good thing i knew about sore breasts i would have no way to add the panty pad  in the bus and then i would have sticky panty all day.
each month i had my warning and put the pad. i had never been surprised by a bloody drip. however i felt scared and surprised by these painful cramps. the nurse office was empty so i lay on the paper on the cheap couch to wait. laying flat eased the cramps a bit but i was still scared. very afraid. totally terrified.
nurse nancy came. i told her "my cramps are unusually painful what is wrong with me." she asked some questions, gave me a pain pill and note and said go home, lay flat."
i left school and at the road rode a city bus toward the library. i wanted to read anything about monthly blood. i felt too shy to ask the library lady so i went to the card shelves, found letter em found menstruation and wrote the shelf code. at the shelf i saw another young lady by the same shelf. we saw several books about blood in culture and anthropology.
she wore a long blue dress that covered her snow boots. i wore fluffy snow pants. i said "hi my name is sally." she said that her name was cathy carls. i asked cathy if she read any books about... um... that. i pointed at the word on the book. she shook her head no. i asked if she ever felt strong cramps. cathy nodded but added ever since i met nerdy ned the cramps hurt less.
she told me a gross story: WARNING this story is gross and for teens.
her brother cory carls had told her a secret. for the past year he was gay, but now he was ready to tell his secret. he went to the jew high school in new york city where he felt the urge to hug certain boys. when he asked them if they wanted to hug they replied angrily. boy after boy until one fateful day cory went to the gym to jog around. there he saw an older student nicknamed nerdy ned. the urge to hug returned, despite the awkwardness that they were years apart. cory was in tenth grade high school but this bearded young man was in the rabbi college. he was also jogging around the gym, gasping for breath almost wheezing as he strained to carry his overweight body around. "i could barely delay hugging that cuddly body," cory had said to me. when chubby cody cohen passed the door, my brother ran following him until cody stopped and leaned against the wall struggling to breathe.
she continued cory story: i stopped too. i said i am in tenth grade my name is cory. cody nodded and tried to talk but failed so he exhaled "cody".  cory confessed that he often felt the urge to get hugged, adding a lie: i never felt comfortable enuf to ask anybody. did you ever feel that?" cody continued wheezing while his head moved no. i added: i came for an exercise run but when i saw you i wanted to hug you. will you be mad if we hug? cody answered "if you want" while raising his arms. cory hugged cody pressing palms on cody pair of bony back bulges under his shoulders. the college guy pressed palms on cory shoulders pressing cory against his shirt.
cory felt very excited. he enjoyed it very much and felt comfortable enough to confess "sometimes i am gay" cody asked, "what did you do?" while continued the long hugging. cory confessed that he liked to squeeze his own tube. cody argued gay is different. every boy feels that urge. cory said "i know, but i also feel the urge to hug men. same as men like some women i liked certain men."  cody with certainty argued in a stressful tone, "you never kissed a boy."  cory agreed. "you are far from gay. gay is something else."-what-i cant tell you kuz you might try to do that sin.-not just gay squeeze selves?-no.-you squeeze yourself? asked cory.
cody confessed, "i try not to but i often lose control and squeeze." cory asked "why do you struggle?-kuz the religious rule book said dont touch.-i enjoy this hug so much that i will help you with your goal. if you hug me every morning instead of praying the jew prayer, i mean a long 5 minit hug, then the next time you struggle with your urge i will do the sin for you.
cathy concluded : that is how my bro cory started a relationship with nerdy cody. cory had a plan and told me: "i want to check if he is as gay as me. surely at your age you want the plug, i want you to prepare to seduce cody and see how he responded. oh and saying you wanna save him from sin is important to cody so say it to tempt him." concluded my bro. i felt awkward but he was right about my urges. twice every month i felt a strong urge and twice every week a pale urge.
cory added "if you virgin, please open now to get ready for the weekend." i was appalled and shocked at his doubt and for even mentioning something so personal so i stammered "w-wa-what do you mean?"
i asked cathy, "how did you open?" she told the story: months ago, she came to this library and used the computer to search for "adult toy shops." she used some allowance money that her parents gave her to buy a dildo. slowly she had pushed herself open and that is much smarter and controllable than a guy pushing in.
i decided to do the same thing while i listened to her story. her brother cory had kept his bargain and saved nerdy ned from sin in exchange for a long hug each morning. in fact he saved nerdy ned from two sins of touch and of fluid sin that ridiculous religions teach. this rule is not relevant when not in the situation of onan with wife nor even reasonable to expect to keep it in month after month. ridiculous religion that alone showed that the author of genesis was not a wise god but a stupid human. still nerdy ned felt guilty that he did that sin so cory did it for him so ned did not do the act of the sin himself.
the same week that i opened myself, she continued, cory invited ned for the weekend. saturday afternoon when our parents napped i sat beside him on the couch and said, what my bro had advised. "i want to save you from sin" ned asked "what do you mean" she explained that she wanted him to plug in like electric plug. ned asked "do you know that it will hurt the first time? we learnt that" i replied that i am already open and no risk of pregnancy kuz we will use the cover. "great!" exclaimed ned agreeably so i hushed him so he would not wake parents. cody lay on the soft rug. i covered him with my long dress, [cathy continued to me] and sat on his knees. i covered "little cody" and slid down until i plugged him in. that was sweet! i told ned to come every week. ned said he wanted to but people would get suspicious, if he he left the dorm every week, so he would come once every two weeks. i argued twice every 3 and he agreed.
cathy concluded "ever since then we secretly meet and... to answer your question about cramps, the cramps hurt less ever since i started plugging with him and that gave me the idea to rub the dildo inside during cramps and somehow that is calming too."
i listened to her story and asked if i could see if it would calm my cramps. cathy agreed to introduce us but on weekends she cant drive her car because she is jewish. cathy added, "if you drive to street s we can be passengers." i was shocked that they were worried about sin of cars on saturday the jew sabbath but not about the sin of out of marriage at least i was consistent not accepting any idea of sin.
we planned the meeting place and i did not even borrow any book from that library a new york public library. i trusted her that it would help. i rode in cathy's car to the adult shop and purchased the opener. and some jelly. i would have ten days to heal until nerdy ned came.
that night i snuck my adult toy into the shower and slowly opened myself owwww i cant believe i had planned to let my husband do that... he would not know what to do.
cathy was right using the dildo eased the cramps during the cramp and the following days but no proof maybe it was only big pain one day.
the days of waiting dragged on and seemed forever day after day at boring school. rejecting the gross guys... finally the date arrived.
i drove my car from pepper pike new york to flatbush to the intersection of eastern parkway. sure enuf the lovers the couple were there. cathy was wearing a long yellow dress over her snow boots. i called out the window hi cathy. the guy who looked every bit his name nerdy ned said "your name is cathy?"
the couple entered my car and we drove to my home. i entered the home and introduced them to my parents: "we wanna play a group game." pa teased like "spin the bottle?" i argued "gross!! i dont wanna kiss his hairy beard! and anyway that is for little girls we are gonna play "risk" i chose that for the double meaning to hide my plans.
ma looked suspiciously at the young man almost glaring, so i i repeated "we are a group." that soothed her and we went into my room. cathy told her plan. "we already did it while my parents napped and he will need around an hour to rest since then. so we will play risk like you said and then i will tell you what i did." we set up the game and started rolling the dice at 3:30 counting the minutes. on the fourth turn, at 3:45 ma knocked on the door and i opened it. she held a tray with mugs of hot coco. she peaked in suspiciously to see we were truly playing risk... if she only knew.
i told her thanks but please do not interrupt our game.
once mom left, cathy told me how she sat on ned's knees and slid down guiding the plug in like 'lectric. she was shockingly accurate about the sweet pleasure. i told them next time i will bring you before you do it and you can do it here and we can play longer.
the next two weeks i could barely concentrate at school i felt obsessed with the new pleasure. i tried using the dildo again and it felt good but still something about nerdy ned was better seeing a nerdy guy having a good adult time. screw religious rules.
i did not even notice that my period did not come nor that my breasts were not sore. i felt usual.
two weeks later when i drove them to pepper pike new york and watched her put the long cover on ned's tube.... i realized that we had not. but... married people dont get pregnant the FIRST try it usualy takes several months of tries maybe even a year.
this time, after we played so he could rest between jobs, i rolled the cover on him. we plugged but.... disappointing. i would risk it. i pulled the plastic cover off and said "whatever risk, we already had". we rubbed longer this time than last time and it was... screw religion... heavenly. and seeing him smile behind his nerdy glasses and beard added a dimension to my joy. i felt part of his joy too.
cathy asked if my cramps hurt less and i said "um... it did not come yet i guess it will come tomorow because..." i paused... the weeks were more than usual. cathy commented "we met at the library when you had cramps then we waited until his visit plus two more weeks... we are in TROUBLE !!" cathy concluded her voice trembling.
nerdy ned said "better it should be used as our son then get rinsed down a shower or washing machine" what a nerd!! that was his concern? cathy asked cody, "what are you gonna tell your parents? you cant marry her." cody asked "why not?"-because i did not tell you she is not jewish and we only marry other jews,"
cody shrugged "that is not important to me. i will have a wedding and be a father." problems solved we continued the game of risk i mean with the dice.
before nerdy ned visited again my mom noticed i was puffy. she accused "did that boy knock you up?" that was easy to deny. "no we just had some adult fun and my period did not come". mom was furious you will never see those filthy jews again i cant believe you did not scream when he was raping you.
pa heard the screaming and said "what the hek is going on"
i told them that "i seduced the guy twice because the first time felt good"
"THE FIRST TIME???" hollered ma almost hysterical. pa added quizicly "felt good? but that rips the thing open." i argued "you are so old fashioned! i was open before i seduced him"
ma argued "so not the first time.... was first with him?" i shrugged "something like that." ma "well you will never see that boy again." pa argued "we are not old fashioned. that was how YOU were born too. we had to marry kuz we were wild."
ma burst into tears and fled the room. pa asked "did you decide if you want an abortion?"
i was hysterical "ARE YOU FUKKIN CRAZY?" i hollered "i would never kill my own son!" pa shrugged. "that is a relief because when i was a christian i heard it was a sin."
my hysterics exploded "you men and your sins that is the only thing important to you??? what about people???"
i obeyed my parents that we never gathered again not even just the girls my trusted friend cathy carls.
poor rose... she was growing up without any father not even a nerdy one... who would probably be more stable than most men. that would have been a good experience but i obeyed my parents and separated from her father my lover so that is how i got pregnant and rose was born. still when my parent surged to marry and recommende dmen i argued "i already have rose and anyway anybody YOU recomend is probably my harm after you forced me separate from my lover." the end.

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